Sloppygirl's question (8)

Have you ever done a dream where you had a baby, it feel soo real , you loved her/him sooooo much.
Then you wake up and it feels as if you just lost your baby like he is literally dead.
You don't even have kids in reality and you are just sad and mourning for your baby.
It's weird because having a baby ,was not on my to do list and it still not.

All of my siblings did drugs
I have seen how bad drugs can break a strong family
So I'm gonna break the curse of my family
I'm gonna be an alcoholic instead it's much better than a drugs addict right?
Beside I think that drugs are more expensive

I was eating a mug cake while reading and at some point I said aloud "who made that shit it taste disgusting"
it's me , I made that shit
it's indeed taste like shit
I wonder what went wrong I just replaced the bar of chocolate that I didn't have with powdered chocolate

If any of you watch kdrama where do you usually watch them ? Please
I used kissasian before but idk, it's just not the same anymore
It's better if the site is free ,without ad everytime I touch anything

So I have a bestie let's call her W
we have been friend since primary school ,two years ago she introduce another girl to me Z.
We became close friend quickly since we were the only two girl in our class and W was in another class.
But ever since I became close with Z , W became even more "crazy" (once I tried to distance myself from her she was too possessive and I couldn't have any friend then she started a rumors about me and all).
Anyway she forbade me to have anymore contact with Z and all ,I had no peace.
But this situation has partly been resolved.
Recently Z got a boyfriend he live in another country.
He came for a short vacation and they wanted to meet but Z parents would never let her got out for that, so we made plan the three of us to accompany her to fool her parents.
Anyway the day J ,W cancel the plan and we decided that it would be better if I just called Z's dad who will drop her to the meeting place to fool him.
But there, her dad insisted that she won't leave his car unless he see one of us.
I asked W if she really couldn't urgently come to help, she still refused, so I dropped everything to go where Z was having her date I talked with her dad and everything ,when he left, I left my friend and her lover , I went home
Then W send me a msg to say that Z is using me. She talked shit about Z and me.
I'm mad cause I'm just helping my friend and W act like I'm a servant to Z or something.
Who is wrong please , is she right or me ?
Tbh I'm kind of tired but looking at how long we have been friend to the point where our two family became one , I don't think I can try to distance myself anymore, we're basically sister

Sometime before sleeping I feel like I won't wake up in the morning
So I clean my room and my phone of everything that could be embarrassing if found
I am not sick or anything.
Before I was scared of sleeping because of that but now I just think it is what it is.

So I'm in one big friend group but I am only reeeally close to like 10 of them.
There that boy in the group who want to date me ,he want to meet my parents and all but we are not together yet we just act like we are (iykyk).
Only the 10 people know that and they told me that it has been 3 years that he is going out with that girl (I had a crush on but I'm not that close with) in the group ,they have already meet each other parents and all.
I am confused because last year she was going out with another girl and everyone knew that even him.
I'm not into casual dating I don't understand what they are playing at. I don't wanna be a third party. Is he playing with me? Or are they lying to me?
I'm embarrassed to ask the girl , because last time I overheard her saying how much she love him and all.

It's gonna be long