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While growing up, I've seen a lot of weird shit I would say, but what I found weird the most was see two of the same gender date. I wasn't (still not) against it but seeing a lot of negative comments about it, my little mind started to wonder more and more about the subject of love. Mostly about different types of sexuality. I read a lot of webtoons and mangas of the subject (didn't read books cuz I like webtons and mangas better (=・ω・=) , and started to have my own view of the matter. Then one day, I asked myself what my sexuality is. I thought I was straight cuz in elementary I thought had a crush on 2 boys. But later found out I liked them cuz one has long hair and they were both white. (Don't judge me cuz all my life I've only been around Hispanics and blacks, when I saw them I was hooked) and in middle school I thought I had a crush on an Hispanic student cuz of his long hair and I also thought I had a crush on one of the teachers because he was the youngest male teacher and again was white (maybe I have a thing for long hair men and white dudes lol ). So I was very confused. I became more confused when I thought I also had a crush on my close (very close) friend since she's a girl. So I came up with the conclusion I was bisexual. Until I came upon the words asexual and quoisexual. I was more confused and thought maybe I feel no attraction towards anybody and was just mixing up the feelings I had for people with love. The reason so is because after the people loses the one thing I focus on like hair, personality, ect, is gone, I start to lose interest in the person. Examples:
The Hispanic boy in middle school with long hair, well he cut his hair and then I started to wonder why I liked him and don't seem to focus on him much anymore but when he grew his hair back, I started to feel that was again. The teacher I had a crush on for being the youngest male teacher in the school and white, well we got a new male teacher who was younger and white also, and I ditched the first teacher and went to him. The very close friend I thought I liked, I felt the same feeling I felt for another one of my friends and another so I thought maybe I liked all of them or I was confusing the way I feel for love. Well everything is just confusing!!!!!!!!! I don't even know anymore. Can you guys help?
The Hispanic boy in middle school with long hair, well he cut his hair and then I started to wonder why I liked him and don't seem to focus on him much anymore but when he grew his hair back, I started to feel that was again. The teacher I had a crush on for being the youngest male teacher in the school and white, well we got a new male teacher who was younger and white also, and I ditched the first teacher and went to him. The very close friend I thought I liked, I felt the same feeling I felt for another one of my friends and another so I thought maybe I liked all of them or I was confusing the way I feel for love. Well everything is just confusing!!!!!!!!! I don't even know anymore. Can you guys help?