Fantastic Baby's question (18)

do it here so you can start the year atleast less stressful and thinking about things!

ove seen some ppl laugh at ppl for crying at stories and i was like is it not normal?? so can we figure that out here

h-hi

i dont even know why the fuck i have to say this but its a rant cuase why the fuck are PEOPLE saying the ones who vents, cries out for help and what not are attention seekers? sincerely asking WHATS THE FUCK WRONG WITH YOU. Is it too much that this person is asking for help FROM SOMEONE ANYONE? Are you gonna get hurt if this person gets comforted by random ppl. REAL people atleast get concerns like yes live selfishly and not ur responsibility but instead of causing unncessary some hurt just stfu.

I want my main account back it was deleted and all my memories of my late s/o is in there, i put in my liked of all their messages and stuff in my profile and i want them. We had convos there. i've been sobbing so much because its the only memories i have left of when we were so happy and its also the most recent ones i have. Ive been not okay since my acc was gone like I HAD MEMORIES and the rant post and advices i recieved? i need them sm. idc if im embarassing or pathetic, its part of who i am and shit like yes ive been totally depressed by ex-friends and had random beefs with users. idc its part of my lore and im no perfect person.

i just rlly miss him so fucking much that ive been trying to fill the gaps like hey meet up with these people or wtv like go hook up and shit its horrible for my mental health. I just want to look back and feel like hes still here i want to look at that i love you note again. i have a bad memory and i just dont want it to be forgotten accidentally. i dont want to forget about him. i want to look back.

none of this would have honestly happened if i had just stepped away and left but no i didnt because i loved him too much to ever break up but if i had just done THAT i think he'd still be happy with his friends theyre talking shit about me but as long as he's happy but I couldn't let go which is why it led to this. Thats fine you didnt have to ruin your friendships cus of me. you didnt have to feel guilty over me cus i just understand why you did the things you did and how it was so hard to you. its so complicated and overwhelming. i took months to process it. putting myself in your shoes i knew now how hard it had been. im so sorry i loved you.

i want to move on so much but i just find myself finding someone like you cause the last thing i use to look back into is gone. i wish to see it again and get that closure. i didnt have a suicide note while all of their ex- friends did and it hurts me and out of pettiness im not sending them. i wanted mine too but all i ever get is "i love you" from followings. i want it directly not from some stupid ss.

and thats about it i had enough so i let it out cus lol whatever.

2024 is ending so soon, what do you hope for in 2025? and no answering in killing yo self thats too emo say smth else smh u gotta live bro

so hows life

Seriously whats with all of you lately disrespecting it? "attention seekers" really? "shared psychosis" like wtf?? its okay to be vulnerable and im not saying you should be their therapist but the least you could do is be respectful about one's feeling. People are goinf through alot and doing SH does not mean they're "narcicisstic" like it could be "that" but just direct ppl like those to a guidance councilor in your school.

People feel these things cause they are hurt and want help, like please when its fucking too late its horrible cus you wish you could do more. People gaf when the suicidal person is fucking dead but when they're there they are said to be "attention whores" or "being a victim"

Heck care for a person like a FRIEND because its still different compared to like a professional help, you don't feel the love of a professional bec in their job they cant have personal feelings. That is why most ppl in forums rather go here bec its a genuine help, cause it isnt their job, theyre not obligated to do it but still send some concern and advices.

You dont need to be a family or a lover to them to have some sincerity bec are u telling me nobody here cares for their friend? like thats a person you formed relationship with. Thats a person whos another human being like you that cares for you.

pls this will be funny

ive seen ppl hate bottoms for being a slut and having such high body counts that it concerns cus do they always want the bottom to be holy and virgin? like have u ppl not met a bottom irl?? theyre the horniest fuckers ever sometimes. Im just idk why are some ppl find with ml being a manwhore but the uke is not?

I feel sorry for someone and for the ways i acted and the ways i reacted onto things like there could have been better ways but i didn't choose those cause I thought this "choice" would be better. It's not, it instead makes everything worse. I am wanting to say sorry obv like make up for it too even but door is closed. Sorry doesn't always fix things i know that. Actions counts as well. Also idk why im feeling this way over misunderstandings that led to like fights

i rlly can't go on living anymore like this i pretend to be fine but im rlly not, ive been hooking with randos just to get over him and distract myself from his passing. its painful. i tried to kms today but i couldnt do it cus what if i just survive and my friends get so tired of me? i mean thats what happened to him- he did it so much his friends no longer cared for him. They hate him. They deny his existence. They block him out and it just makes me upset cus those ppl were the only one who knew him truly. Before i met him, they knew him. He didnt have a nice life irl bec he was so timid and shy and weak. he was such a lonely person and the only one he had was me and his online friends. Whom he lost cus i was selfishly inlove w/ him.

tldr: i just dont know i dont rlly feel like living anymore. Life's so boring, time passes so slow and most important of all life so empty now.

like do yall want proof it happened... idk how unbeliable it sounds when alot of bitches are so brave saying "game is game" under a video of a toddler just playing. Sometimes it aint even human but an animal. What's also worse is that the person itself can be a victim but will disregard the other person and say they're lying for some "attention".

im asking this because i've been arguing with some people in tiktok about that one manhwa where this girl had big boobs and big ass, big eyes and skinny waist. She's short asf and im pretty sure yall know what manhwa im talking about. The girl who've got big boobs since she was in highschool. Alot have said "its a normal body type" but i lowk disagree because no fucking way someone got G cup and big ass with a 5 inch waist who's 4'11 is definitely not one of those obviously sexualised women and "male gaze".