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im bored asf :( show should be interesting which i can finish within two days time(▰˘◡˘▰)

i see a lot of fujoshi hate ig comments on my fyp nowadays

honestly im fucking tired reading the same shit in different fonts. as a beginner artist i appreciate the artstyle and colouring and lighting and hot men but i feel so shitty while reading it. And i feel cringy and a bit ashamed when i discuss sauces with bl readers especially at school. Wym u liked jinx, pearl boy, roses and champagne etc etc. Do you have the guts to explain the plot to an audience without getting branded as a creepy incel? Wym u find seme so hot and badass? i wouldn't wish what happened to the ukes to my sworn enemy even if the sworn enemy happened to beat the living daylights out of me. Honestly read manhwas whenever my mental health was in the gutter or if i had a bad breakdown, but now i have realized its not good for my brain if i wanted to be some semblance of a good person. I am so tired.

[Rant ahead] recently i did the arcane makeup look and added it to my ig highlights they told me that i was being childish and i should try growing up and not put stuff up that would tarnish their reputation. I've noticed that it is not just this in particular but stuff i do in general. When i draw something for once in a blue moon they would immediately interject saying that i should focus on matters that won't make me unemployed in the future(telling me to focus on studying). No tips, compliments, nothing just a stubborn reminder from them that i am wasting their and my time. A few months ago i qualified to attend the national chess championship and since i got the fifth place in the state championship they told me i don't have enough talent to secure a position in my nationals and therefore i should not go. I started making a scene and they said my tantrums are too dense for someone who got 5th place (mind you that i didn't receive any coaching whatsoever and this was solely the result of my sleepless nights on chess.com&lichess). i am not angry, i am just tired and i wish my parents were understanding enough so that i wouldn't need to type a long essay here to validate my feelings.