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don't spam your dramas here guys let's all be friends and read bl in peace
about thank yaoi for existing
People stopped caring about what nsfw means and now sell depravity under a the LGBTQ+ label, thinking those two things are the things.
No, being gay isn't a kink.
No, kinks aren't part of that... whole mess of things.
I remember in high school being told that there was a book that the curriculum had to block that my teacher wanted us to see. It had... pretty explicit references to sex and most of us were minors and this book was like supposed to be educational towards a younger audience.
Or at least that what's my teacher said.
Now, given that I had already been reading straight up bl since... middle school, I didn't really care, but like, are you really going to make a bunch of 15-16 year old how this guy had anal sex before? For education?
And like, the book itself had a really good message, but at the same time... no.
Like, for a lack of a better word, people DO realize that the direct reference gay, lesbian etc etc is... sexual in nature? I feel like we've lost all connection to this and are now... labelling all sorts of stuff under inclusivity and shoving it into media, when kids... really shouldn't be reading it.
We were allowed to read a book with a very explicit metaphor for lesbian sex where they compared fingering another woman's vagina to unfolding a flower and how it made the other person moan as they rubbed each other's boobs.
And like, the kids in my class, they actively read that with such vehement interest it's clear that they're NOT there because it's some deep allegory for lesbianism and gay rights and so on, but because it's basically ao3 porn and yes we've probably all read ao3 porn by that age... but is it necessary to put it in class?
It wasn't even necessary and I was talking to someone else about this actually and it was about rape in books and bl and stuff (hentai for him because he reads gooner stuff lmao), but like the point that we both came to was that... if you are writing explicit shit, at some point, it loses meaning as some sort of critique and becomes porn.
Sure, maybe it's only two paragraphs, but what are you trying to accomplish? Do you need to write how someone moans when you finger them? Like how much of that is literary and how much of that is just... being a degenerate. For the lack of a better term.
If you're writing an expose on how rape is bad, for sure, there is some merit to being explicit, but like, that's like such a niche, and it didn't apply to that particular book.
And then you put this into real life, and you have these parades and stuff and like, you can go online and see like these five year olds saying how they are transgender and like YOU DO REALIZE THAT TO SOME DEGREE THERE IS THE IMPLICATION THAT KID IS SUGGESTING THEY WANT TO CUT THEIR DICK OFF. Like, that IS the direction.
LGBTQ+ is inherently about sexual traits, and I don't mean just fucking, but inherently like, anatomical level sexual traits. And anyone, ANYONE, who says elsewise is LYING. The so-called attraction is HORMONES. If you are calling yourself gay, then you are a probably a man who wants to have sex with a man. You want to idk rub dicks or stick it in (idk there are some people who are like my pronouns are she/him).
That is INHERENTLY sexual.
Questions about genders are inherently about physical sexual traits. Yes, your boobs, dicks, um vaginas, etc etc THOSE ARE PHYSICAL TRAITS USED THAT ARE INTENDED FOR SEXUAL USE.
Like idk why, I hear some people speak of them as separate things, or that their love is something super special when they create a new word to describe their love for someone who also created a new word for a new gender identity, like that's something... entirely different.
People who keep on trying to idk purify something that is inherently sexual, are just dumb. Like, this is ngl why people in the aroace community get so much shit for it too because here you have a group of people who LITERALLY EMBODY WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO "IMPLY", and people are like, pissed.
Because suddenly if you shove aroace people in, the difference becomes sexual and you can't wear a 'woke' hat and pretend you're like, goddamn angels. So they get so, so much shit for being aroace. I swear, this is the reason why. You put aroace and suddenly everyone else is like, oh it's your sexual orientation, it's your [sexual] orientation. This person represents what happens when you take it out (or something similar, you get the point, don't bother me about technicality, I literally do not care, love whoever you want).
And they want to cover it with love, so when they go to their goddamn parades they can dress like a STRIPPER and be like, "oh nononono, it's- it's a sign of my special type of love. It's something special. It's not inherently sexual, or rather it is, but it isn't like... THAT."
What is "that"?
It's sexuality. It's sex. It's who you want to bang in a hole or two holes or how many holes you want to bang someone in.
That's what it is.
And when you kick aroace people out, you get to say this shit. Because very suddenly, it's like you've removed the ONE GROUP who is blocking you from pretending that LGBTQ+ is some sort of kid-friendly thing.
Shoot me if you think I'm wrong, but I've spoken to people who HATE aroace people or who say they're not of the LGBTQ+ and I have grilled them for what they think and 90% of the time it's basically this but they add some sort of victim mentality like aroace people are targetting them for random ass shit.
Anyway so, on minors, look, if they grow up, or like they're 15-16 and they're like, "I'm sure I like girls", I 100% support it. Because I think like, around that age there is some confusion but most kids are going to start thinking about it by then. But like, we've been... slowly... ever so slowly pushing that age down...
And also, if you are like EIGHT and you are like, "I like girls". I will ALSO take it, but I'm assuming you are having cute crushes and you aren't thinking about how much you want to have sex with them. I don't think you're thinking of that if you're eight.
I think sex education is important. I think LGBTQ+ education is important because like we live in a world we're 70% of people are womanxman and that 30% is just going be confused.
But I don't think I need to see a goddamn dick on screen when I'm 11 because they invite some LGBTQ+ people to do this shit in front of us. And I don't think I need to walk around the streets and feel genuinely scared for an entire month that I might get fucking flashed because omg that's inclusivity. No, it's not. You're just making everyone who is part of the LGBTQ+ community look like a bunch of degens when they aren't.
Kinks and bondage are not a sexual identity, it's a sexual preference. There's a miniscule difference that MATTERS A LOT.
If you like anal sex or if you like idk what regular sex as a woman -- that is the equivalent of your so-called kinks and bondage. And I don't think gay people count under the umbrella of that and I don't think you should associate those two because you are now... creating the assumption that it is degenerate, when no it's not.
You don't choose you're gay. You choose to want anal sex.
And before someone goes like, oh some people can only get off of it, idrc. Still two different things to me.
I'm only thinking of this because there were like pride parades and I saw this like idk the term for it because they fucking change every two days, but someone basically dressed how I would imagine a stripper would in the middle of the street where KIDS can see you.
Like, I feel like before more of all of this was about acceptance, it was about, there are people who are different, and we as a community need to accept them. But like, as time went by... we started added so much random ass stuff that shouldn't be in the middle of the street.
And before someone calls me homophobic or transphobic, if a man can go up to a child and dress as a stripper and be called a pedo, for what reason, can't a transgender man can go up to a child and dressed as a stripper and be called a pedo.
Like, for all you want to tell me, that's self expression, idk if it's really valid anymore if you're... just encouraging... kids to see your dick in public. Like, I don't want to see a man or woman naked, with bondage, and walking around like, a dog on a leash, only to go up to a kid and start woofing or saying hello.
If that was my kid, I would take them AWAY. I don't care if that makes me anti-LGBTQ+, they can figure this shit out when they understand what it means to have a dommy mommy or whatever it's called.
And I'm not saying all LGBTQ+ people are like this, I highly doubt it, I think it's a very small number of them. But like, you wonder why there is such a huge pushback against gay rights and you have this small minority doing this stuff and you wonder why...
Anyway, I miss LGBTQ+ movements were actually about getting people to accept everyone. Not... some deranged kink display that makes me not want to go outside.
No, being gay isn't a kink.
No, kinks aren't part of that... whole mess of things.
I remember in high school being told that there was a book that the curriculum had to block that my teacher wanted us to see. It had... pretty explicit references to sex and most of us were minors and this book was like supposed to be educational towards a younger audience.
Or at least that what's my teacher said.
Now, given that I had already been reading straight up bl since... middle school, I didn't really care, but like, are you really going to make a bunch of 15-16 year old how this guy had anal sex before? For education?
And like, the book itself had a really good message, but at the same time... no.
Like, for a lack of a better word, people DO realize that the direct reference gay, lesbian etc etc is... sexual in nature? I feel like we've lost all connection to this and are now... labelling all sorts of stuff under inclusivity and shoving it into media, when kids... really shouldn't be reading it.
We were allowed to read a book with a very explicit metaphor for lesbian sex where they compared fingering another woman's vagina to unfolding a flower and how it made the other person moan as they rubbed each other's boobs.
And like, the kids in my class, they actively read that with such vehement interest it's clear that they're NOT there because it's some deep allegory for lesbianism and gay rights and so on, but because it's basically ao3 porn and yes we've probably all read ao3 porn by that age... but is it necessary to put it in class?
It wasn't even necessary and I was talking to someone else about this actually and it was about rape in books and bl and stuff (hentai for him because he reads gooner stuff lmao), but like the point that we both came to was that... if you are writing explicit shit, at some point, it loses meaning as some sort of critique and becomes porn.
Sure, maybe it's only two paragraphs, but what are you trying to accomplish? Do you need to write how someone moans when you finger them? Like how much of that is literary and how much of that is just... being a degenerate. For the lack of a better term.
If you're writing an expose on how rape is bad, for sure, there is some merit to being explicit, but like, that's like such a niche, and it didn't apply to that particular book.
And then you put this into real life, and you have these parades and stuff and like, you can go online and see like these five year olds saying how they are transgender and like YOU DO REALIZE THAT TO SOME DEGREE THERE IS THE IMPLICATION THAT KID IS SUGGESTING THEY WANT TO CUT THEIR DICK OFF. Like, that IS the direction.
LGBTQ+ is inherently about sexual traits, and I don't mean just fucking, but inherently like, anatomical level sexual traits. And anyone, ANYONE, who says elsewise is LYING. The so-called attraction is HORMONES. If you are calling yourself gay, then you are a probably a man who wants to have sex with a man. You want to idk rub dicks or stick it in (idk there are some people who are like my pronouns are she/him).
That is INHERENTLY sexual.
Questions about genders are inherently about physical sexual traits. Yes, your boobs, dicks, um vaginas, etc etc THOSE ARE PHYSICAL TRAITS USED THAT ARE INTENDED FOR SEXUAL USE.
Like idk why, I hear some people speak of them as separate things, or that their love is something super special when they create a new word to describe their love for someone who also created a new word for a new gender identity, like that's something... entirely different.
People who keep on trying to idk purify something that is inherently sexual, are just dumb. Like, this is ngl why people in the aroace community get so much shit for it too because here you have a group of people who LITERALLY EMBODY WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO "IMPLY", and people are like, pissed.
Because suddenly if you shove aroace people in, the difference becomes sexual and you can't wear a 'woke' hat and pretend you're like, goddamn angels. So they get so, so much shit for being aroace. I swear, this is the reason why. You put aroace and suddenly everyone else is like, oh it's your sexual orientation, it's your [sexual] orientation. This person represents what happens when you take it out (or something similar, you get the point, don't bother me about technicality, I literally do not care, love whoever you want).
And they want to cover it with love, so when they go to their goddamn parades they can dress like a STRIPPER and be like, "oh nononono, it's- it's a sign of my special type of love. It's something special. It's not inherently sexual, or rather it is, but it isn't like... THAT."
What is "that"?
It's sexuality. It's sex. It's who you want to bang in a hole or two holes or how many holes you want to bang someone in.
That's what it is.
And when you kick aroace people out, you get to say this shit. Because very suddenly, it's like you've removed the ONE GROUP who is blocking you from pretending that LGBTQ+ is some sort of kid-friendly thing.
Shoot me if you think I'm wrong, but I've spoken to people who HATE aroace people or who say they're not of the LGBTQ+ and I have grilled them for what they think and 90% of the time it's basically this but they add some sort of victim mentality like aroace people are targetting them for random ass shit.
Anyway so, on minors, look, if they grow up, or like they're 15-16 and they're like, "I'm sure I like girls", I 100% support it. Because I think like, around that age there is some confusion but most kids are going to start thinking about it by then. But like, we've been... slowly... ever so slowly pushing that age down...
And also, if you are like EIGHT and you are like, "I like girls". I will ALSO take it, but I'm assuming you are having cute crushes and you aren't thinking about how much you want to have sex with them. I don't think you're thinking of that if you're eight.
I think sex education is important. I think LGBTQ+ education is important because like we live in a world we're 70% of people are womanxman and that 30% is just going be confused.
But I don't think I need to see a goddamn dick on screen when I'm 11 because they invite some LGBTQ+ people to do this shit in front of us. And I don't think I need to walk around the streets and feel genuinely scared for an entire month that I might get fucking flashed because omg that's inclusivity. No, it's not. You're just making everyone who is part of the LGBTQ+ community look like a bunch of degens when they aren't.
Kinks and bondage are not a sexual identity, it's a sexual preference. There's a miniscule difference that MATTERS A LOT.
If you like anal sex or if you like idk what regular sex as a woman -- that is the equivalent of your so-called kinks and bondage. And I don't think gay people count under the umbrella of that and I don't think you should associate those two because you are now... creating the assumption that it is degenerate, when no it's not.
You don't choose you're gay. You choose to want anal sex.
And before someone goes like, oh some people can only get off of it, idrc. Still two different things to me.
I'm only thinking of this because there were like pride parades and I saw this like idk the term for it because they fucking change every two days, but someone basically dressed how I would imagine a stripper would in the middle of the street where KIDS can see you.
Like, I feel like before more of all of this was about acceptance, it was about, there are people who are different, and we as a community need to accept them. But like, as time went by... we started added so much random ass stuff that shouldn't be in the middle of the street.
And before someone calls me homophobic or transphobic, if a man can go up to a child and dress as a stripper and be called a pedo, for what reason, can't a transgender man can go up to a child and dressed as a stripper and be called a pedo.
Like, for all you want to tell me, that's self expression, idk if it's really valid anymore if you're... just encouraging... kids to see your dick in public. Like, I don't want to see a man or woman naked, with bondage, and walking around like, a dog on a leash, only to go up to a kid and start woofing or saying hello.
If that was my kid, I would take them AWAY. I don't care if that makes me anti-LGBTQ+, they can figure this shit out when they understand what it means to have a dommy mommy or whatever it's called.
And I'm not saying all LGBTQ+ people are like this, I highly doubt it, I think it's a very small number of them. But like, you wonder why there is such a huge pushback against gay rights and you have this small minority doing this stuff and you wonder why...
Anyway, I miss LGBTQ+ movements were actually about getting people to accept everyone. Not... some deranged kink display that makes me not want to go outside.
about first kiss
It doesn't have to be the whole thing, so like, if manga xxx had a really unpopular ending, but you really liked it, post about that too.
I'll go first:
Solo Leveling ending isn't trash, it's a good ending. It's basically him choosing himself or the world, and that even if he has to give up himself, he would keep what he thinks is important safe no matter the cost - which if you all happily forgot, is one of the reasons he was even selected to be the Shadow Monarch. It's a good ending, even if it's not one that's liked because it's an ending that stays true to Sung Jinwoo as a person. Katekyo Hitman Reborn faced the same issue where by staying true to a character base characteristics, author gets slammed for all sorts of stupid reasons. I will fight tooth and nail - and I agree that the ending is rushed, the pacing is wrong, how they portrayed it was weird, but I will not agree if you say the ending is bad because of the plot itself.
Yes this is me begging for there to be something other than 'I wanna be dom'd by a mommy cat dick' or something.
I'll go first:
Solo Leveling ending isn't trash, it's a good ending. It's basically him choosing himself or the world, and that even if he has to give up himself, he would keep what he thinks is important safe no matter the cost - which if you all happily forgot, is one of the reasons he was even selected to be the Shadow Monarch. It's a good ending, even if it's not one that's liked because it's an ending that stays true to Sung Jinwoo as a person. Katekyo Hitman Reborn faced the same issue where by staying true to a character base characteristics, author gets slammed for all sorts of stupid reasons. I will fight tooth and nail - and I agree that the ending is rushed, the pacing is wrong, how they portrayed it was weird, but I will not agree if you say the ending is bad because of the plot itself.
Yes this is me begging for there to be something other than 'I wanna be dom'd by a mommy cat dick' or something.
about question
I tend to bookmark then read. I'll find entire lists and go through them, add anything I think looks interesting then save them and read them. I see a lot of people read then bookmark, or forget to bookmark and lose it.
Idk, I'm someone who might read something from start to finish in a day and then reread a year later or stop reading halfway because I remembered something else I wanted to read so bookmarking before I read always just made more sense.
So, do you reserve your bookmarks for after you read to decide if it's precious, or do you bookmark everything you see that inherently looks cool?
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Idk, I'm someone who might read something from start to finish in a day and then reread a year later or stop reading halfway because I remembered something else I wanted to read so bookmarking before I read always just made more sense.
So, do you reserve your bookmarks for after you read to decide if it's precious, or do you bookmark everything you see that inherently looks cool?
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set a timer for one minutes and count how many times you can say luocha aloud
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does anyone have the funny experience where you comment on someone's comment and find out you're blocked and you genuinely have no idea why nor do you ever have any recollection of being blocked by them?
because that's me for the fifth time so far and I cannot, for the life of me remember any of those people-
because that's me for the fifth time so far and I cannot, for the life of me remember any of those people-
about question
What pre-2020 completed anime do you like?
Meaning it has to have been completed prior to the covid anime babies.
I like KHR, Zetsubou sensei, and Narita-verse.
There are actually a lot more I could list (like madoka, nodame cantabile, lain, FMA, NHK etc etc) but everyone knows those. Give me something niche. something you like and was forgotten because of the covid anime babies.
Meaning it has to have been completed prior to the covid anime babies.
I like KHR, Zetsubou sensei, and Narita-verse.
There are actually a lot more I could list (like madoka, nodame cantabile, lain, FMA, NHK etc etc) but everyone knows those. Give me something niche. something you like and was forgotten because of the covid anime babies.
about using mangago
TLDR: Spam VISA and Mastercard at your country's local VISA/Mastercard email/phone number and tell them to stop policing content, because they might DELETE ao3.
Recently, VISA and Mastercard has decided that they have the right to police what we, as consumers, consume by threatening to pull out of Steam and Itch.io if they continue to sell NSFW content.
This has been established with how both Steam and Itch.io have started to take down games that have any form of content that is somewhat concerning, it does not matter the message or intent.
And while, I know we all do not buy games and pirate like living hell, please consider the fact that these are payment processing companies, which means that any website that uses any form of transaction is screwed if they host anything these COMPANIES determine as being "wrong".
Which, if you didn't know, includes Ao3 and any site that basically can accept a donation as well.
They started with Steam and Itch.io, they will continue unless we prove that a bunch of loser low lives from Australia cannot possibly scream as loudly as how many times I am going to jam their fucking call center.
Anyway, please email them, and if you are too lazy you can just spam the canada branch as well at [email protected] and [email protected]
Recently, VISA and Mastercard has decided that they have the right to police what we, as consumers, consume by threatening to pull out of Steam and Itch.io if they continue to sell NSFW content.
This has been established with how both Steam and Itch.io have started to take down games that have any form of content that is somewhat concerning, it does not matter the message or intent.
And while, I know we all do not buy games and pirate like living hell, please consider the fact that these are payment processing companies, which means that any website that uses any form of transaction is screwed if they host anything these COMPANIES determine as being "wrong".
Which, if you didn't know, includes Ao3 and any site that basically can accept a donation as well.
They started with Steam and Itch.io, they will continue unless we prove that a bunch of loser low lives from Australia cannot possibly scream as loudly as how many times I am going to jam their fucking call center.
Anyway, please email them, and if you are too lazy you can just spam the canada branch as well at [email protected] and [email protected]
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tldr: MY LAB PARTNER MADE ME DERANGED ENOUGH THAT EVERY TIME I SEE HER, I WANT TO SQUISH HER HEAD AND POP IT LIKE A PIMPLE BECAUSE NOT ONLY DOES SHE NOT MAKE ME DO ALL THE WORK, SHE ALSO NEEDS ME TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING TO HER AND GIVE HER CREDIT FOR DOING NOTHING. That is all you need to know to understand just how much of a little shit she is.
Okay, I hope that no one will remember, but last time, I ranted about LADS here, some more reasonable people pointed out that it wasn't necessary and as many people said, it was an overreaction. I agree and that it wasn't necessary to be so harsh about them even if they can't do basic probability calculations that you should know how to do as a middle schooler. I am not being sarcastic, and I do think that calling them whiny bitches and hags were excessive and I shouldn't have done so.
As to why I bothered to add the preamble, it's because yes, this irrelevant rant is about a cis-woman who identifies as female with she/her pronouns. Go cry about it when I call her a piece of shit or something. I actually stopped using bitch several times while writing this, so don't fucking call me out on that bullshit. Genuinely, calling anyone a bitch was so common, like bro, idk when suddenly people are like it's not okay now. And like, ngl, people are going to say, "it's common sense" well, no, not really honestly. Because you speak to woman who are okay with it and then there are people who aren't okay with it, and like, sure, ig it makes sense, but like, if it's the first time that's pointed out to me and I think it's a general insult that btw I have used it against a dude, then yeah idk when these trends start lmao. So, yes I didn't call this person a bitch and if I see a SINGLE comment saying it... I'm calling you all hypocrites.
Anyway, I am here to rant again about something else this time since midterms have been completed and I just got a message from my dumbass lab partner that pissed me off so much that it's not even 1 am and I am already typing this shit. To make sure that people don't cancel me for derogatory speech, I'll just write gore instead. Happy? Reasonable fictional murder. I probably won't... Actually, I have no idea right now.
This girl, who I am going to call Karen because meme, is such a special little donut that she comes to ME and begs to work with me. And when say I beg, I mean I am basically anti-social to a point where I think I've written more dialogue in fanfiction than I have actually spoken to people... And even when people talk to me, it's like, ykw just go with the flow, I have social anxiety (idk if I do, but something along those lines. I have something idk what). So, SHE comes to ME, asks to work with me. I actually had someone from last semester, but ykw, I felt bad for her because yes, everyone in the class knows who still needs to learn how to complete a square in a multivariable calculus course (Yes, it's Karen).
So, she asked me, and I accepted. We have had so far... two labs and we are heading into our third one... in THREE CLASSES. I am going through ALL of them. Yes, all of them.
Now, just for another preamble, I am not saying I am perfect and have been perfect throughout this process, I am saying that for what I have done, I don't think I have warranted ANY of this bullshit. I do believe that I was a fucking pushover when I accepted, I do believe that I'm such a pushover that I basically let her walk all over me like this until now. Yes, I am a bad communicator, but I am not dumb enough to let it affect productivity. Yes, I am going to go to the TA. Yes, I am ranting. Yes, I am done the lab (well, I need to test it, but I need the lab's FPGA and I don't own one), so yes, I am allowed to waste my own sleeping time. It's Saturday.
Class 1:
This is a coding lab, we are using a new language that no one in the class knows. So, both of us have no idea. We don't know anything and we're just learning. The first lab is really easy, all that we're doing is following instructions. Listen carefully, we are f o l l o w i n g instructions. Read word for word. The only brain power you need is to actually understand it, and trust me, it's a table, just remember the table.
Because it's a two person thing and it's the lab period, we only have one desktop. Now, usually, most people would be like, ok, I'll type, you read/help/think and yes, everyone in the lab was doing it like this. For what reason? Because, it's... efficient. Having to switch, point out when to switch, ask to switch, all of that is bubbly cooperative nonsense bullcrap because listen, if you have enough time to whine about work breakdown, you have enough time to do. the. work. There will always be people who do less than others, there will always be people who do more than others. If you are a good group, a sane person, and reasonable, you shouldn't be having grips over how much % someone has done unless someone is doing EVERYTHING.
As in, the only scenario where imo, the issue of working with other people comes into play is when you are doing above 70~80% of the work. And even then, if the other person is nice and is cool and chill and laidback, tell them to get you a tim hortons (ofc you still should pay up your share) - that's also ok. Being a nice kid is equally as valid of a good partner honestly, some people just are slower and some people are just lazy. As long as they don't do anything BAD, then it's okay.
And ig to some people that's a huge issue because like, omg I didn't do exactly 50% of the work, but like idk if that's realistic.
Anyway, so Karen and I are working aka, I'm typing and connecting the diagrams but because this thing is so easy, I'm doing it with half an eye closed and it's working out. Karen gets upset, and is like, "Hey, you're doing everything, let me do it."
I'm like, ok...? because like, she IS catching like spelling errors (in a coding project lmao) and we... split it up. It's not a big deal and we finish the lab in the time. Now, for these labs we also have a presentation called a demo. The lab is really easy, I am not kidding, trust me, I could probably understand it as a elementary schooler. I get to the lab early because you know, I want to prepare, so I spend the time to read everything and write notes and figuring everything out because yes, you as a student should be self-sufficient.
This treewart whose only function in life is to suck on my tits for help comes in, right before the actual lab, like right before, and says, "let's rehearse."
Now, let me explain something, there is no such thing as rehearse. This is like, the biggest bullshit anyone will ever say. Our "presentation" is us pressing buttons and saying what they do. As in, as long as you write down what each button does, the TA does not care if you are reading off a goddamn script. Not that you can because there is some degree of a spontaneous question-styled issue. So, no, there is no need to rehearse, and SHE saying rehearse is actually she saying, "idk anything, please correct everything I say." You will later understand why this is the case.
I say no. I'm not wasting my time, and yes, I wasn't kidding, I was trying to get a head start on the second lab, which... we basically went from 1+1=2 to calculus and sadly that is a pretty accurate analogy. I told her, directly, that she had two weeks to practice, she had two weeks to go to the TA, I didn't learn any of this so I went back home and studied and I came prepared. I am under no obligation to teach her. While I don't mind [helping] her, genuinely, the fact that she is having trouble with something that should take like twenty minutes to understand isn't something I can or should help with because that's not me helping her, that's me facilitating her refusal to use her nonexistent braincells.
So, the demo comes and the TA comes and I am explaining, she literally interrupts me. I am not kidding, I am speaking, midway she cuts in and starts saying the most loaded bullshit I have ever heard. Sticking to the math analogy, this LOSER is basically saying 1+1=0, actually, based on the lab, I AM sure she did say that. That 1+1=0 because it was an OR gate that she was butting in. I got a little pissed but was like, ykw fine it's my fault for not checking if she knows shit.
After, I ask her that if she doesn't know something to just me speak and this little shithead tells me that I, as in me, myself and I, didn't "rehearse" with her. To put into perspective how much of a bullshit crap this is, it's like saying you have a group presentation and you didn't prepare whatsoever and you come in, and you ask your group mate to rehearse and they refuse. Okay, fine they are an asshole for doing it, but in the end, when it comes to your part, you know SHIT and the real reason why you needed to rehearse is because you needed your group member to teach you the part that you should have learned.
This is why I say that me rejecting her for rehearsing isn't necessarily wrong. Also, it's coding, it's not language studies. We're pressing buttons. The questions were literally like, if I press this and that what would happen - you just need to come in, test it, and say what happens.
So, no, I am not sorry for saying that she is a piece of living horsedick CRAP for suggesting that it's MY fault because I didn't "rehearse" with her.
And I was like fine, you know what WHATEVER. It's not like, the lab is out of TEN and she maybe made us lose THREE of those marks by opening her stupid mouth and letting the word fall out of her teeth because at this point, literally, pulling out her teeth to make musical chairs to tap on as pseudo-morse code as a method to communicate would be easier than whatever the hell this shit was.
Okay, so we start the second lab. As I said, it's hard, it has stuff that we actually didn't learn in class. However, this little rotten toenail is lucky that I actually prepare for the labs beforehand so I had some... idea of how to do it? And as always, I logged on (because I come early) and I started doing a little bit of it. She's like, "I'm going to do part C", and I'm like "Ok".
See, the issue with this thin asscrack is that there is one function in her brain that is programmed, and it's "who do I blame?". So, for one part, all I ask her to do is read the fucking number in the manual for me. She reads the actual program which has purposely been filled with wrong numbers by our TA (He's actually great, no hate). She DID asked me if the window is correct, but hear me out, there are like, three different windows opened, and I was typing and didn't pay attention, so it is both our faults. I am NOT saying she sucks because she read the wrong window no, I am saying she sucks because when I say, "bro, that's the quartus window you are reading off of", Karen's brain automatically processes the attack and decides to shoot me with the "Yeah, well I asked you and you said it was fine."
Now, you might be thinking, that's pathetic you wet crybaby, why are you whining about this. Listen, I am 100% neurotic and unreasonable, so when someone's response to someone telling you that you're reading off the wrong screen and your immediate response is to blame them knowing they are busy, you are either stupid, an asshole, or both. Like, no crap, girl, fucking calm down I'm not after your blue balled ass that cannot ever do wrong even though you literally know jackshit, I'm saying YOU ARE READING THE WRONG SCREEN.
And while, this in of itself isn't a big deal, if you read the rest of this, you will understand why when I look back on this interaction I cringe and want to pull my fingernails off in strips.
Anyway, so whatever, fine now we're on part C and this disease asks me to "type the code, because you type faster". I am not kidding, she makes me type because I type faster. Now, back to the preamble, see where I said I was a pushover...? Yeah, I listened to her rattle off incoherent code and typed while fixing everything she said. When the thing came to a part that she basically went ditto for because she doesn't want to think, I had to do it. Which honestly, it's fine. I gave an overview of it, but like, you know, it's not that big of a deal.
The thing is, this just continues to happen. And look, I've worked in enough groups to know that some people are just... lazy or... dumb. It's not that big of a deal. I think as people, we all have our issues and if you are that one person who is lazy, you know what? That's okay too as long as you have some other redeeming quality that can even out the field. And idk if that sounds so weird, but like, people who bullshit about carrying a team are just annoying. Someone being a good partner, not knowing anything, but just being there and waving a flag of support is STILL waving a flag of support. Sure, it sucks but usually they know they didn't do anything. They know and they are ashamed. You being a good person, in of itself, is a good thing for the team because that just means that while yes, I might have to put in more effort, you aren't going to do anything to me.
And I guess that is wild or something, but like, I've been in both parties. Would you prefer to have a partner that argues with you over everything or a partner that does nothing, but will do most menial tasks you give them? There is no such thing as a perfect group, and the chances you will ever get one is unrealistic. Work is never shared equally, and some specific redeeming qualities like how nice someone is isn't something to discount because "they didn't do anything". Because in the end, sometimes, even if they did something, you'd still be pissed that it's not of the quality you want it to be. That's just life and the inherent "fairness" of it shouldn't be based on how much work is shared, but also the attitude they have.
So anyway, the problem I have with this lowlife is that me doing work is considered a fucking crime and that I OWE her an explanation. She did NOTHING for the second lab and I did EVERYTHING and she comes in, with an attitude like I killed her mother, father, brother, and sister, and that I owe her shit for doing the work for BOTH of us even though even the TA said this lab was much more harder than the last one and that we BOTH should have been working on it just to finish it on time.
And let me explain a little bit. This lab 2 is done over 2 weeks. We agreed to work on the lab separately and share the code later and use whoevers is working (there is a reason why we are doing this actually, I am NOT kidding, it is entirely her fault). This human pimple basically came in with NOTHING, shared NOTHING, and did NOTHING. She asked for MY code, didn't do SHIT, asked for MY code, then stared at it for several hours and started doing another class' assignment because bro does shit at the last minute. As in, that assignment? It was due that day and we had an entire WEEK.
So, I said, ykw, let's just separate again, you know. Like, you clearly need to work on this. She then said she'll stay here (do NOT fall for this fakeass attempt at being a 'good' person). Now, if I was mean, I would have let her stay there and starve doing that shit because you can't eat in the lab. No, I give it like one minute, then I pack my stuff and say, "I'm going" and she leaves. Because yes, while that assignment should have been done before if Karen had any time management, I can't just let her pretend to be a good person and fail because loser has bad time management.
So, we agreed to meet up again at some unspecified date. Now, here's the thing, our "labs" are like miniature like PROJECTS. I don't how to explain it but the current lab is making the control thing for your heating/ac/ventilation system. Which ngl, it's not that bad, it's just the code itself that's disgusting. Lab 2 is a monster of a lab and it's our first time seeing something like this. We were making the part of your laptops that process calculations basically and like, this little shit does nothing, does not check the manual, does not check the rubric etc etc.
Now, we ended up having one weekend before the thing was due (our weekdays are like, no joke 4 hour lectures followed by 3 hour labs). I finished the remaining coding on the Saturday (parts D and E) and I checked it on Sunday and it was basically fine. On the afternoon on Sunday, she texts me saying she wants to meet up on MONDAY. BTW this lab 2 is due on TUESDAY. Her words, her EXACT WORDS: "do you think we can finish the lab in just 2 hours".
That lab took me a little more than a two hours.
And the funny thing is, we literally said, we'd separate and do it on our own. Like idk what CRACK this little mugworm is saying, but bro should be DONE. Fine, procrastinate, but don't fucking come to me on Sunday asking to meet on Monday and be like, oh yes we can finish on Monday.
And hear me out here, when she set up the date, the first thing I said was I can't meet after school on Monday because unlike her, I am not a procrastinator and yes, I actually needed to work with another group for another course. I had to tell her I can't be there in the afternoon for Monday.
Three.
Times.
She not only replied to me three times, she kepts on insisting on other times.
I don't care if you misread once, twice. THREE TIMES??? Fine, I'm being overdramatic people misread all the time, but no, this pathetic excuse of a human being is genuinely always like this. She prioritizes herself and her learning over others. It doesn't matter if I hardcarry her through those labs, it doesn't matter how much work I put into anything, nothing matters to her and it's all what I SHOULD do FOR HER. And even beyond that I SHOULD explain everything to her, I should be the one to do everything for her and all the heavylifting and all the thinking.
That's not my job.
So excuse me, if I am throwing a hissy fit that she ignored three of my messages to push her agenda onto me because she does this so often, that it becomes tiring and listen, THIS IS ONE COURSE. I SHARE THREE WITH HER. I AM NOWHERE NEAR DONE. HAH.
So I tell her I'm going at lunch. And she kept on telling me about her bullshit schedule and I basically told her, ok, do wtv you want, but I'm going at lunch because I literally cannot and this thing is due on Tuesday.
Remember, at this point, I'm done, I'm going to check on the project.
Now, we get there and again, she does nothing, but now, she looks at the code and has NO IDEA what is going on, AND LIKE I WONDER WHY. YOU DUMBASS. And you might think, hey you did everything by yourself ofc she doesn't know -- no, no, no, no, she brought this on herself. See, in another lab (I will get to it) she whined about learning right? So, for the sake of learning, we decided to split the work up so that I did it and she did it concurrently. Inefficient, but hey, she wants to LEARN right? She agreed, it's really not my fault.
If SHE doesn't do the work, that's not my fault.
I will use my code.
If she did the work and it was entirely functional, then yes, I will use her work.
She didn't do anything.
And the best part is that this 0 IQ shitface didn't even have the decency to upload her "code", which I suspect, doesn't exist sadly. She never shared and I am a hound for emails so if she shared and I got the email, I would have known and remembered.
Finally comes presentation day, I go there two hours before, check the lab, it's fine, and then I start the next one. Now listen, we've been working together for a good three-four weeks, she KNOWS I come in early. No, I am not assuming things, she usually comes early too, idk why she didn't that day given that one of our classes were cancelled, but you know what? I don't really care and I don't really mind. People have their problems, the project is up and running and she honestly hasn't given me that big of an issue during these labs if I'm being honest.
Seriously, for all I have shitted on her so far, if it was just that, I wouldn't even be that mad in this particular course. No, the reason why I am blueballed pissed at her is because for the presentation, twenty minutes before, she basically tried to handhold me into teaching her what was going on. Aka, and yes, I am quoting her, I have a good memory:
Me: "Is it okay if I do the demo?"
Karen: "Yeah, but what if the TA asks me questions."
Me: "Then they can stop me."
Karen: "Ok, well, we're supposed to work in a group, and so you should go over with me the project and like, tell me if what I'm saying is wrong."
Now listen, this DUMBASS doesn't know that 1+1=2 (our analogy).
She wants to go over the ENTIRE lab, in like fifteen minutes by now, a lab that is by analogy, CALCULUS. I am NOT kidding, this is NOT an exaggeration at all. That is the difference in the level of difficulty. Also, bro did nothing and now she wants to take my work away from me? Fuck her, I'd rather eat my own shit.
Yes, group work is group work, but listen, you can't discredit people's work like this. You can't speak to people like this. You can't pretend like you didn't just do nothing and expect that I spend my time to explain things to you. This is literally called walking over someone, and if forward this level of entitledness, fucking get screwed when it comes to bite you in the ass when you don't know SHIT.
This is what I mean when I say you need to even the playing field. You don't do work? That's fine, but if I want to do something with the project, you have to let me. I am not in charge of your learning, and while, yes you HAD a say in this, you lost it the second that you didn't do anything.
I have thrown people under the bus for this type of behaviour, and no I don't feel bad if you act entitled to my work that I worked on. While we are group, that doesn't mean my time is your time. I don't spend hours on this shit only to get walked over by someone whose only capability is batting her eyelashes at the TA to get gates logic gates explained for the nth time. If you lack the skillset to do this shit, it isn't my business to make sure that you don't drop out.
If you are going to do nothing, then at least be NICE to me. I'm not even asking for you to do anything or be responsible, I'm asking for your DECENCY, aka if I make the reasonable argument that you don't know anything it's a group mark, then just let me do the demo so that we can share a good mark. You don't have the right to screw with MY mark just because you don't have the capability or the wiliness to work on a project. I am already giving you a free pass on this, you don't need to do anything or worry and that in of itself, I think is fair.
I'm not asking for a fucking thank you, or gratitude, I'm asking to be allowed to do this project in peace if you plan on hopping out, Karen.
And the fact that this dumbass wants to sabotage her own mark because her math skills suck she can't tell that she literally knows nothing off a checklist of requirements is really depressing.
Now, we are on lab 3 where we are making an HVAC system or something. Now, I am a little bit stupid, and I accidentally said the wrong thing and say that I was going to start working on the code from now on and I realized oops, that sounds like I was going to do everything, when actually I was just trying to say that I'm going to start working to get a head start. But I will be real, I said I was going to start working on the code. She could ask which part, she could ask what she needs to do, she could asks for clarification.
No, no, no, no, you have not met entitled little bulbous queen of hearts level bullshittery yet.
This is her message back:
"You know we are supposed to work on the code as a team right? This is against the lab instructions that say we should do this together as a team. So let me know when you want to meet in the lab so we can work on this together."
Now, let me just break down how CONDESCENDING this message is because this is Canada speak and I feel like some loser won't understand exactly how much of a shit take this is.
[You know we are supposed to work on the code as a team right?] - She is suggesting that I should know, which immediately suggests I am at fault for something. Now, there are actually two ways to read this, the first is that she is saying that I know and that I'm breaking the rules (there are no rules for this actually, she is a GRADE SCHOOLER). The second is that she is suggesting that I'm dumb because maybe I don't know and that I should know.
[This is against the lab instructions that say we should do this together as a team] - WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU BEFORE HUH? WOW I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A TEAM WHEN YOU DO NOTHING BUT SCREW EVERYTHING UP AND EXPECT ME TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING TO YOU. Against the lab instructions, fuck that, I wasn't aware there were even lab instructions. Boohoo, I don't see goddamn TEAMWORK being marked aka I am fucking free, KAREN.
[So let me know when you want to meet in the lab so we can work on this together] - Now, I'm going to assume everyone who has read this far actually can read, but this is how a TEACHER or your BOSS speaks to you. "let me know" No, you dumbass, YOU are a partner, YOU tell me when YOU want to me, stop pushing everything onto me and then complain that I do everything when your only response is "omg where is your code".
Yes, this ENTIRE post is because of how pissed I am at this message. I am not kidding, I am actually livid about this message this is NOT how you talk to your classmates, and some random dumbass is going to be like, "erm you're overreacting", YOU HAVE NOT SEEN HOW I WRITE TO THIS PIMPLE. You do not tell someone what they should or should not know, you do not complain of RULES THAT DO NOT EXIST, suggest that someone HARD CARRYING YOU is because they WANT TO and that they SHOULDN'T AS THOUGH YOU DIDN'T BASICALLY FORCE THEM TO BY BEING A DUMBASS and then ASK when I want to meet up.
If you genuinely speak like this to your friends, you are a condescending FUCK. I'm sorry, but you can drop bombshell information on others, you can casually say random ass shit, but you do NOT speak to someone like this. This is how you speak when you are annoyed and you want to prove a point hat you are annoyed.
And if you have NO right or REASON to be annoyed because YOU lack the decency to either do work or take up initiative to do work knowing the other person WILL do the work, then YOU ARE CONDESCENDING AND AN ASSHOLE FOR SPEAKING LIKE THIS.
And in general, talking like this is just rude. Like, that tone is the shit that I pull on losers on the internet that can't take the loss and sit down. When someone makes the most braindead take and I have to slowly handhold them into explaining everything or else their minds are exploding.
You can use it with your friends, some dumbass on the internet, random people in Genshin coop, but you don't speak like this to someone who did basically two entire labs (and more, much, much more) for THE GROUP.
I am NOT asking for Karen to kiss the floor, and I am not asking her to fix herself, I know she is speaking condescendingly because that where's the bootlicking little shithead that came to me and "ummm can we work in a group...? I don't have anyone?"
where's that chick huh? where did the little girl that came to me crying to help her through the lab go? where did the begging little scrawny scammer go?
gone.
Because this is a loser whose only life goals is to prove that she can only beg others for grades and count it as learning. If you do not THINK, if you do not TRY, you are a LOSER.
Some person is going to say, "she wants to try, obviously!!!"
I'M SORRY BUT IF YOU TRYING IS DOING NOTHING, SHARING NOTHING AND EXPECTING ME TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING THEN YOU ARE ON CRACK DUDE.
Yes, your grades mean nothing about you as a person, some people are just bad at math it's not that big of a deal and I don't think that's indicative of anything, but you need to TRY. You need to prove to yourself that you have done everything you can if you don't, and then come back and pin the blame on others then you are an entitled PRICK.
And if you then further proceed to pin your learning onto others and expect people to bow to you just because they are nice, you are also A DUMBASS.
Answering questions is being NICE, helping out is being NICE. I don't have to be fucking nice to Karen, and if there is anyone here going through something similar, no you don't have to be nice either.
Class 2:
Now, onto the next class. This is a physics lab where we do a simulation ete etc. There are two sections, one if for MCQ and one for the COMSOL or the actual simulation. Marks are individual. THIS IS A TIMED ACTIVITY FOR THREE HOURS BTW. For the first two labs I had logged in for both so any errors on the MCQ or COMSOL, would have been on my account. For the first lab, we made a few mistakes and weren't prepared. However because it is on my account the marks tank on my account. She gets the right answers.
Which is honestly fine, wtv we can switch.
Remember preamble about me being a pushover.
The next lab, while we do the MCQ on her laptop, the COMSOL is still done on my account. Here's the thing, this person doesn't actually know how to do anything so whenever she does the COMSOL she sort of just... doesn't know how to do it? I mean, I'm not saying I do, I fuck up too, but here is what I'm pissed at.
Whenever the COMSOL is on her account, she needs to make sure everything is correct.
Whenever the COMSOL is on my account, she does fuck whatever and doesn't give two shits about anything.
You think I am exaggerating?
Lab2, she is doing the COMSOL because she can't do MCQ because she doesn't know anything and COMSOL is just following a manual. The account is mine and I am fucking stupid for doing that, but she basically starts doing the MCQ. Remember, she does NOT know anything. Karen actually does NOT know anything and I mean it because she got the first three MCQ on that page wrong. There are 16 MCQ in total, aka she just dropped ME to an 81%. Then she proceeded to do random ass shit on the COMSOL, NOT ADD PHYSICS TO A PHYSICS MODEL and then out in values to answers. Lost me another four points.
This loser dropped on MCQ alone to 50%. My MCQ was 50%. I am not lying.
This dumbass also KNEW that she didn't add physics, because when I asked what went wrong, SHE POINTED TO WHERE IN MANUAL SHE DIDN'T DO. If you don't do something and you don't know how to do something, then WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK THE TA NOW? SUDDENLY WHERE IS YOUR STREAK OF BEGGING THE TA FOR ANSWERS EVERY FIVE SECONDS???
This is my account.
Now, in lab3, we used her account because I refused to log in. This is what she does whenever she's not sure - she not only asks the TA, she asks the TA so thoroughly that the TA basically DOES part of it for her. And the reason why is so dumb too. We knew had the right answer, but we forgot the specific points and what the corresponded to.
See, the issue is that for some reason lab3 had two chances for each submission idk why, so we could have very well saved THE TWENTY MINUTES THIS TA SPENT HELPING US IF WE JUST SWITCHED THE VALUES.
Literally, it was TWO POINTS. We could have just put one in, if the other was wrong, then yes, we could have flipped them and it would have been right.
I am NOT saying we shouldn't check in if we're worried, honestly. I think we should and I am not blaming her for that, I am saying that if you are such a sick, sick fuck that you just submit randomass shit you know is wrong because it's on my account and therefore does not affect you, but are willing to waste 20 minutes on something that is easily fixable and won't cost anything because you are worried about yourself, then you are loser.
Straight up.
Karen is just pathetic.
Does not give a shit about anyone else but her, shameless about it too.
And the worst part is that she is so entitled that the only reason why she is even doing and screwing up the COMSOL is precisely because in lab1 she made me let her redo and entire section because she needed to learn after she spent twenty minutes solving a question that is this: p = v/q, what is p, given v and q? in some other fgancy words but that was the question.
TWENTY MINUTES.
Idk how she is passing.
And listen, I mess up the COMSOL, it's my first time as well, but as least I'm not going to skip and entire section and then input numbers on HER account because it's her account and therefore doesn't matter. Like, bro, no.
SOme people are like, oh you can just screw up her MCQ since she was letting you use her laptop. YOU DON'T GET IT, THAT IS WHY I'M MAD. I am literally making sure I do everything correctly and that I make sure everything is good BECAUSE it's her account. I was working my ass off trying to make sure that I don't make mistakes, and double checking everything because I was worried only to be slammed in my fcking face with a 50% MCQ.
Not only that but in lab2, she, who is in charge of COMSOL, FORGOT AN ENTIRE QUESTION. The lab manual was closed and I had to remember the bits and pieces and redo the entire thing.
Lab1 when she forced me to let her redo the section? I had to rush through the fucking calculations of electric field because she was getting upset that I was doing "everything" NO YOU LOSER, YOU CAN VERY EASILY MOVE AHEAD AND DO THE MCQ AND THE SHORT ANSWER, WHY DON'T YOU??? BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW JACKSHIT, BUT YOU CAN ASK THE TA??? NO, YOU CAN'T BECAUSE YOU NEED TO PROVE TO MY FUCKING FACE THAT I'M NOT LETTING YOU DO ANYTHING BECAUSE I'M WORKING ON THE NEW SHINY ASS MACHINE YOU WANT UP YOUR ASS.
I AM NOT DOING EVERYTHING BECAUSE I WANT TO, IT'S ALWAYS EITHER BECAUSE THIS UNHYGENIC PATHETIC SHITSTAIN DOESN'T KNOW SHIT AND RUINS EVERYTHING OR AND MORE FREQUENTLY BECAUSE SHE REFUSES TO ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING OR BE PROACTIVE.
it's always, ME who has to assign HER stuff to do, and when I don't, suddenly it's my fault.
LIKE CAN YOU NOT READ THE BACK OF A MANUAL? CAN YOU NOT SEE THE LAST QUESTION??? IT'S VERY FUCKING DOABLE YOU ARE NOT LOST YOU ARE LAZY, INCOMPETANT, AND A DUMBASS WHO IS RIDING ON THE FACT THAT FOR NOW, YOU ARE LUCKY THAT PEOPLE WANT TO HELP YOU BECAUSE THEY SEE YOU AS A HARMLESS DUMBASS.
STOP DICK RIDING ME FOR YOUR GRADES, ONLY TO TURN AROUND AND BLAME ME WHENEVER SHIT HITS THE FAN BECAUSE YOU FORCE ME INTO SUCH A POSITION THAT I HAVE TO NOT ONLY WORRY ABOUT MYSELF, BUT YOU AND YOUR SHITTY ASS MISTAKES AS WELL BECAUSE YOU DO NOT CARE ABOUT ME AS HUMAN OR YOUR CLASSMATE.
She doesn't even realize that she relies on me so much, that it is so, so easy for me to fuck her up. Like, to explain how easy it is, all I have to do is pretend for the last lab to not give her any answers. Or I could just input the wrong values like how she did back on her. WHy don't I do it? because it's what an ASSHOLE DOES AND THAT IS WHAT SHE IS.
And when you take THIS into account, when you take all of this and the fact that in another course she is this condescending to me because I didn't let her fucking show off in a lab that she had no idea how to do, then this is just a malicious little child who is entitled as fuck like holy shit the level of shamelessness this person has is beyond me.
And to that ONE person who is going to be dumb as FUCK and say "oh she just wants to learn" -- AGAIN. THERE ARE MANY, MANY, MANY, MANY WAYS FOR HER TO LEARN. SHE CHOOSES THE EASIEST WAY THAT SHE ASSUMES WILL WORK OUT, AND WHEN IT DOESN'T SHE GETS UPSET.
Oh, and just to prove that this person is genuinely just... an asshole, in our third course, I burned my hand and her immediate response isn't 'are you okay?" it's to touch the wire that I already unplugged and then say, "I don't feel anything, did you imagine it?"
I HAD A WHITE BURN MARK.
I WAS BURNED.
EVEN IF I WAS IMAGINING IT, IS THIS NORMAL?
OR ARE YOU JUST HEARTLESS?
HOW IS THIS... THING SO...????
like, she is not just dumb in general, she is so dumb she doesn't even think she is a bad person for acting like this, like I am genuinely surprised because she always is like, oh yes, I'm reasonable, you getting mad is unreasonable, I don't want to talk about this right now, let me write on my little board and shove my complaints to your face who cares waht you are doing, prioritize me, I am a good person and right and correct and moral -- only to be the most insensitive shit I have ever seen.
We are dealing with WIRES.
You can set a FIRE with these things.
Though, she takes a massive L because it ended up happening again and for some reason this dumbass accidentally touched it.
Did not feel bad.
Did not say anything.
Reap what you sow for being a dumbass.
I literally told her the second time (I got burned again btw lol) and she still claimed that I was a liar and crashing out or something and then touched it herself except this time, because I wasn't reacting fast enough I didn't turn it off... HAH.
Genuinely did not do that on purpose. I swear. I was just burned and after staring at a circuit for that long my brain was just... fried as well.
BUT IT WAS FUNNY, I'M SORRY IF THIS MAKES ME A SHITTY PERSON BUT YOU'RE DUMB. KAREN. YOU'RE JUST DUMB HAHA.
Yes, I am actually crashing out, I am going to the fucking TA for the first course on Monday because I am not dealing with this level of bullshit. I would rather take backshots from idk that ML from that shitty ass yaoi manhwa than handle this shit because at least that's willingly.
Ok. I'm done and I feel better.
I just don't have anyone to say this to lol. I wasn't kidding about being antisocial.
I have 150+ wishes saved for Phainon, how many do you have?
Okay, I hope that no one will remember, but last time, I ranted about LADS here, some more reasonable people pointed out that it wasn't necessary and as many people said, it was an overreaction. I agree and that it wasn't necessary to be so harsh about them even if they can't do basic probability calculations that you should know how to do as a middle schooler. I am not being sarcastic, and I do think that calling them whiny bitches and hags were excessive and I shouldn't have done so.
As to why I bothered to add the preamble, it's because yes, this irrelevant rant is about a cis-woman who identifies as female with she/her pronouns. Go cry about it when I call her a piece of shit or something. I actually stopped using bitch several times while writing this, so don't fucking call me out on that bullshit. Genuinely, calling anyone a bitch was so common, like bro, idk when suddenly people are like it's not okay now. And like, ngl, people are going to say, "it's common sense" well, no, not really honestly. Because you speak to woman who are okay with it and then there are people who aren't okay with it, and like, sure, ig it makes sense, but like, if it's the first time that's pointed out to me and I think it's a general insult that btw I have used it against a dude, then yeah idk when these trends start lmao. So, yes I didn't call this person a bitch and if I see a SINGLE comment saying it... I'm calling you all hypocrites.
Anyway, I am here to rant again about something else this time since midterms have been completed and I just got a message from my dumbass lab partner that pissed me off so much that it's not even 1 am and I am already typing this shit. To make sure that people don't cancel me for derogatory speech, I'll just write gore instead. Happy? Reasonable fictional murder. I probably won't... Actually, I have no idea right now.
This girl, who I am going to call Karen because meme, is such a special little donut that she comes to ME and begs to work with me. And when say I beg, I mean I am basically anti-social to a point where I think I've written more dialogue in fanfiction than I have actually spoken to people... And even when people talk to me, it's like, ykw just go with the flow, I have social anxiety (idk if I do, but something along those lines. I have something idk what). So, SHE comes to ME, asks to work with me. I actually had someone from last semester, but ykw, I felt bad for her because yes, everyone in the class knows who still needs to learn how to complete a square in a multivariable calculus course (Yes, it's Karen).
So, she asked me, and I accepted. We have had so far... two labs and we are heading into our third one... in THREE CLASSES. I am going through ALL of them. Yes, all of them.
Now, just for another preamble, I am not saying I am perfect and have been perfect throughout this process, I am saying that for what I have done, I don't think I have warranted ANY of this bullshit. I do believe that I was a fucking pushover when I accepted, I do believe that I'm such a pushover that I basically let her walk all over me like this until now. Yes, I am a bad communicator, but I am not dumb enough to let it affect productivity. Yes, I am going to go to the TA. Yes, I am ranting. Yes, I am done the lab (well, I need to test it, but I need the lab's FPGA and I don't own one), so yes, I am allowed to waste my own sleeping time. It's Saturday.
Class 1:
This is a coding lab, we are using a new language that no one in the class knows. So, both of us have no idea. We don't know anything and we're just learning. The first lab is really easy, all that we're doing is following instructions. Listen carefully, we are f o l l o w i n g instructions. Read word for word. The only brain power you need is to actually understand it, and trust me, it's a table, just remember the table.
Because it's a two person thing and it's the lab period, we only have one desktop. Now, usually, most people would be like, ok, I'll type, you read/help/think and yes, everyone in the lab was doing it like this. For what reason? Because, it's... efficient. Having to switch, point out when to switch, ask to switch, all of that is bubbly cooperative nonsense bullcrap because listen, if you have enough time to whine about work breakdown, you have enough time to do. the. work. There will always be people who do less than others, there will always be people who do more than others. If you are a good group, a sane person, and reasonable, you shouldn't be having grips over how much % someone has done unless someone is doing EVERYTHING.
As in, the only scenario where imo, the issue of working with other people comes into play is when you are doing above 70~80% of the work. And even then, if the other person is nice and is cool and chill and laidback, tell them to get you a tim hortons (ofc you still should pay up your share) - that's also ok. Being a nice kid is equally as valid of a good partner honestly, some people just are slower and some people are just lazy. As long as they don't do anything BAD, then it's okay.
And ig to some people that's a huge issue because like, omg I didn't do exactly 50% of the work, but like idk if that's realistic.
Anyway, so Karen and I are working aka, I'm typing and connecting the diagrams but because this thing is so easy, I'm doing it with half an eye closed and it's working out. Karen gets upset, and is like, "Hey, you're doing everything, let me do it."
I'm like, ok...? because like, she IS catching like spelling errors (in a coding project lmao) and we... split it up. It's not a big deal and we finish the lab in the time. Now, for these labs we also have a presentation called a demo. The lab is really easy, I am not kidding, trust me, I could probably understand it as a elementary schooler. I get to the lab early because you know, I want to prepare, so I spend the time to read everything and write notes and figuring everything out because yes, you as a student should be self-sufficient.
This treewart whose only function in life is to suck on my tits for help comes in, right before the actual lab, like right before, and says, "let's rehearse."
Now, let me explain something, there is no such thing as rehearse. This is like, the biggest bullshit anyone will ever say. Our "presentation" is us pressing buttons and saying what they do. As in, as long as you write down what each button does, the TA does not care if you are reading off a goddamn script. Not that you can because there is some degree of a spontaneous question-styled issue. So, no, there is no need to rehearse, and SHE saying rehearse is actually she saying, "idk anything, please correct everything I say." You will later understand why this is the case.
I say no. I'm not wasting my time, and yes, I wasn't kidding, I was trying to get a head start on the second lab, which... we basically went from 1+1=2 to calculus and sadly that is a pretty accurate analogy. I told her, directly, that she had two weeks to practice, she had two weeks to go to the TA, I didn't learn any of this so I went back home and studied and I came prepared. I am under no obligation to teach her. While I don't mind [helping] her, genuinely, the fact that she is having trouble with something that should take like twenty minutes to understand isn't something I can or should help with because that's not me helping her, that's me facilitating her refusal to use her nonexistent braincells.
So, the demo comes and the TA comes and I am explaining, she literally interrupts me. I am not kidding, I am speaking, midway she cuts in and starts saying the most loaded bullshit I have ever heard. Sticking to the math analogy, this LOSER is basically saying 1+1=0, actually, based on the lab, I AM sure she did say that. That 1+1=0 because it was an OR gate that she was butting in. I got a little pissed but was like, ykw fine it's my fault for not checking if she knows shit.
After, I ask her that if she doesn't know something to just me speak and this little shithead tells me that I, as in me, myself and I, didn't "rehearse" with her. To put into perspective how much of a bullshit crap this is, it's like saying you have a group presentation and you didn't prepare whatsoever and you come in, and you ask your group mate to rehearse and they refuse. Okay, fine they are an asshole for doing it, but in the end, when it comes to your part, you know SHIT and the real reason why you needed to rehearse is because you needed your group member to teach you the part that you should have learned.
This is why I say that me rejecting her for rehearsing isn't necessarily wrong. Also, it's coding, it's not language studies. We're pressing buttons. The questions were literally like, if I press this and that what would happen - you just need to come in, test it, and say what happens.
So, no, I am not sorry for saying that she is a piece of living horsedick CRAP for suggesting that it's MY fault because I didn't "rehearse" with her.
And I was like fine, you know what WHATEVER. It's not like, the lab is out of TEN and she maybe made us lose THREE of those marks by opening her stupid mouth and letting the word fall out of her teeth because at this point, literally, pulling out her teeth to make musical chairs to tap on as pseudo-morse code as a method to communicate would be easier than whatever the hell this shit was.
Okay, so we start the second lab. As I said, it's hard, it has stuff that we actually didn't learn in class. However, this little rotten toenail is lucky that I actually prepare for the labs beforehand so I had some... idea of how to do it? And as always, I logged on (because I come early) and I started doing a little bit of it. She's like, "I'm going to do part C", and I'm like "Ok".
See, the issue with this thin asscrack is that there is one function in her brain that is programmed, and it's "who do I blame?". So, for one part, all I ask her to do is read the fucking number in the manual for me. She reads the actual program which has purposely been filled with wrong numbers by our TA (He's actually great, no hate). She DID asked me if the window is correct, but hear me out, there are like, three different windows opened, and I was typing and didn't pay attention, so it is both our faults. I am NOT saying she sucks because she read the wrong window no, I am saying she sucks because when I say, "bro, that's the quartus window you are reading off of", Karen's brain automatically processes the attack and decides to shoot me with the "Yeah, well I asked you and you said it was fine."
Now, you might be thinking, that's pathetic you wet crybaby, why are you whining about this. Listen, I am 100% neurotic and unreasonable, so when someone's response to someone telling you that you're reading off the wrong screen and your immediate response is to blame them knowing they are busy, you are either stupid, an asshole, or both. Like, no crap, girl, fucking calm down I'm not after your blue balled ass that cannot ever do wrong even though you literally know jackshit, I'm saying YOU ARE READING THE WRONG SCREEN.
And while, this in of itself isn't a big deal, if you read the rest of this, you will understand why when I look back on this interaction I cringe and want to pull my fingernails off in strips.
Anyway, so whatever, fine now we're on part C and this disease asks me to "type the code, because you type faster". I am not kidding, she makes me type because I type faster. Now, back to the preamble, see where I said I was a pushover...? Yeah, I listened to her rattle off incoherent code and typed while fixing everything she said. When the thing came to a part that she basically went ditto for because she doesn't want to think, I had to do it. Which honestly, it's fine. I gave an overview of it, but like, you know, it's not that big of a deal.
The thing is, this just continues to happen. And look, I've worked in enough groups to know that some people are just... lazy or... dumb. It's not that big of a deal. I think as people, we all have our issues and if you are that one person who is lazy, you know what? That's okay too as long as you have some other redeeming quality that can even out the field. And idk if that sounds so weird, but like, people who bullshit about carrying a team are just annoying. Someone being a good partner, not knowing anything, but just being there and waving a flag of support is STILL waving a flag of support. Sure, it sucks but usually they know they didn't do anything. They know and they are ashamed. You being a good person, in of itself, is a good thing for the team because that just means that while yes, I might have to put in more effort, you aren't going to do anything to me.
And I guess that is wild or something, but like, I've been in both parties. Would you prefer to have a partner that argues with you over everything or a partner that does nothing, but will do most menial tasks you give them? There is no such thing as a perfect group, and the chances you will ever get one is unrealistic. Work is never shared equally, and some specific redeeming qualities like how nice someone is isn't something to discount because "they didn't do anything". Because in the end, sometimes, even if they did something, you'd still be pissed that it's not of the quality you want it to be. That's just life and the inherent "fairness" of it shouldn't be based on how much work is shared, but also the attitude they have.
So anyway, the problem I have with this lowlife is that me doing work is considered a fucking crime and that I OWE her an explanation. She did NOTHING for the second lab and I did EVERYTHING and she comes in, with an attitude like I killed her mother, father, brother, and sister, and that I owe her shit for doing the work for BOTH of us even though even the TA said this lab was much more harder than the last one and that we BOTH should have been working on it just to finish it on time.
And let me explain a little bit. This lab 2 is done over 2 weeks. We agreed to work on the lab separately and share the code later and use whoevers is working (there is a reason why we are doing this actually, I am NOT kidding, it is entirely her fault). This human pimple basically came in with NOTHING, shared NOTHING, and did NOTHING. She asked for MY code, didn't do SHIT, asked for MY code, then stared at it for several hours and started doing another class' assignment because bro does shit at the last minute. As in, that assignment? It was due that day and we had an entire WEEK.
So, I said, ykw, let's just separate again, you know. Like, you clearly need to work on this. She then said she'll stay here (do NOT fall for this fakeass attempt at being a 'good' person). Now, if I was mean, I would have let her stay there and starve doing that shit because you can't eat in the lab. No, I give it like one minute, then I pack my stuff and say, "I'm going" and she leaves. Because yes, while that assignment should have been done before if Karen had any time management, I can't just let her pretend to be a good person and fail because loser has bad time management.
So, we agreed to meet up again at some unspecified date. Now, here's the thing, our "labs" are like miniature like PROJECTS. I don't how to explain it but the current lab is making the control thing for your heating/ac/ventilation system. Which ngl, it's not that bad, it's just the code itself that's disgusting. Lab 2 is a monster of a lab and it's our first time seeing something like this. We were making the part of your laptops that process calculations basically and like, this little shit does nothing, does not check the manual, does not check the rubric etc etc.
Now, we ended up having one weekend before the thing was due (our weekdays are like, no joke 4 hour lectures followed by 3 hour labs). I finished the remaining coding on the Saturday (parts D and E) and I checked it on Sunday and it was basically fine. On the afternoon on Sunday, she texts me saying she wants to meet up on MONDAY. BTW this lab 2 is due on TUESDAY. Her words, her EXACT WORDS: "do you think we can finish the lab in just 2 hours".
That lab took me a little more than a two hours.
And the funny thing is, we literally said, we'd separate and do it on our own. Like idk what CRACK this little mugworm is saying, but bro should be DONE. Fine, procrastinate, but don't fucking come to me on Sunday asking to meet on Monday and be like, oh yes we can finish on Monday.
And hear me out here, when she set up the date, the first thing I said was I can't meet after school on Monday because unlike her, I am not a procrastinator and yes, I actually needed to work with another group for another course. I had to tell her I can't be there in the afternoon for Monday.
Three.
Times.
She not only replied to me three times, she kepts on insisting on other times.
I don't care if you misread once, twice. THREE TIMES??? Fine, I'm being overdramatic people misread all the time, but no, this pathetic excuse of a human being is genuinely always like this. She prioritizes herself and her learning over others. It doesn't matter if I hardcarry her through those labs, it doesn't matter how much work I put into anything, nothing matters to her and it's all what I SHOULD do FOR HER. And even beyond that I SHOULD explain everything to her, I should be the one to do everything for her and all the heavylifting and all the thinking.
That's not my job.
So excuse me, if I am throwing a hissy fit that she ignored three of my messages to push her agenda onto me because she does this so often, that it becomes tiring and listen, THIS IS ONE COURSE. I SHARE THREE WITH HER. I AM NOWHERE NEAR DONE. HAH.
So I tell her I'm going at lunch. And she kept on telling me about her bullshit schedule and I basically told her, ok, do wtv you want, but I'm going at lunch because I literally cannot and this thing is due on Tuesday.
Remember, at this point, I'm done, I'm going to check on the project.
Now, we get there and again, she does nothing, but now, she looks at the code and has NO IDEA what is going on, AND LIKE I WONDER WHY. YOU DUMBASS. And you might think, hey you did everything by yourself ofc she doesn't know -- no, no, no, no, she brought this on herself. See, in another lab (I will get to it) she whined about learning right? So, for the sake of learning, we decided to split the work up so that I did it and she did it concurrently. Inefficient, but hey, she wants to LEARN right? She agreed, it's really not my fault.
If SHE doesn't do the work, that's not my fault.
I will use my code.
If she did the work and it was entirely functional, then yes, I will use her work.
She didn't do anything.
And the best part is that this 0 IQ shitface didn't even have the decency to upload her "code", which I suspect, doesn't exist sadly. She never shared and I am a hound for emails so if she shared and I got the email, I would have known and remembered.
Finally comes presentation day, I go there two hours before, check the lab, it's fine, and then I start the next one. Now listen, we've been working together for a good three-four weeks, she KNOWS I come in early. No, I am not assuming things, she usually comes early too, idk why she didn't that day given that one of our classes were cancelled, but you know what? I don't really care and I don't really mind. People have their problems, the project is up and running and she honestly hasn't given me that big of an issue during these labs if I'm being honest.
Seriously, for all I have shitted on her so far, if it was just that, I wouldn't even be that mad in this particular course. No, the reason why I am blueballed pissed at her is because for the presentation, twenty minutes before, she basically tried to handhold me into teaching her what was going on. Aka, and yes, I am quoting her, I have a good memory:
Me: "Is it okay if I do the demo?"
Karen: "Yeah, but what if the TA asks me questions."
Me: "Then they can stop me."
Karen: "Ok, well, we're supposed to work in a group, and so you should go over with me the project and like, tell me if what I'm saying is wrong."
Now listen, this DUMBASS doesn't know that 1+1=2 (our analogy).
She wants to go over the ENTIRE lab, in like fifteen minutes by now, a lab that is by analogy, CALCULUS. I am NOT kidding, this is NOT an exaggeration at all. That is the difference in the level of difficulty. Also, bro did nothing and now she wants to take my work away from me? Fuck her, I'd rather eat my own shit.
Yes, group work is group work, but listen, you can't discredit people's work like this. You can't speak to people like this. You can't pretend like you didn't just do nothing and expect that I spend my time to explain things to you. This is literally called walking over someone, and if forward this level of entitledness, fucking get screwed when it comes to bite you in the ass when you don't know SHIT.
This is what I mean when I say you need to even the playing field. You don't do work? That's fine, but if I want to do something with the project, you have to let me. I am not in charge of your learning, and while, yes you HAD a say in this, you lost it the second that you didn't do anything.
I have thrown people under the bus for this type of behaviour, and no I don't feel bad if you act entitled to my work that I worked on. While we are group, that doesn't mean my time is your time. I don't spend hours on this shit only to get walked over by someone whose only capability is batting her eyelashes at the TA to get gates logic gates explained for the nth time. If you lack the skillset to do this shit, it isn't my business to make sure that you don't drop out.
If you are going to do nothing, then at least be NICE to me. I'm not even asking for you to do anything or be responsible, I'm asking for your DECENCY, aka if I make the reasonable argument that you don't know anything it's a group mark, then just let me do the demo so that we can share a good mark. You don't have the right to screw with MY mark just because you don't have the capability or the wiliness to work on a project. I am already giving you a free pass on this, you don't need to do anything or worry and that in of itself, I think is fair.
I'm not asking for a fucking thank you, or gratitude, I'm asking to be allowed to do this project in peace if you plan on hopping out, Karen.
And the fact that this dumbass wants to sabotage her own mark because her math skills suck she can't tell that she literally knows nothing off a checklist of requirements is really depressing.
Now, we are on lab 3 where we are making an HVAC system or something. Now, I am a little bit stupid, and I accidentally said the wrong thing and say that I was going to start working on the code from now on and I realized oops, that sounds like I was going to do everything, when actually I was just trying to say that I'm going to start working to get a head start. But I will be real, I said I was going to start working on the code. She could ask which part, she could ask what she needs to do, she could asks for clarification.
No, no, no, no, you have not met entitled little bulbous queen of hearts level bullshittery yet.
This is her message back:
"You know we are supposed to work on the code as a team right? This is against the lab instructions that say we should do this together as a team. So let me know when you want to meet in the lab so we can work on this together."
Now, let me just break down how CONDESCENDING this message is because this is Canada speak and I feel like some loser won't understand exactly how much of a shit take this is.
[You know we are supposed to work on the code as a team right?] - She is suggesting that I should know, which immediately suggests I am at fault for something. Now, there are actually two ways to read this, the first is that she is saying that I know and that I'm breaking the rules (there are no rules for this actually, she is a GRADE SCHOOLER). The second is that she is suggesting that I'm dumb because maybe I don't know and that I should know.
[This is against the lab instructions that say we should do this together as a team] - WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU BEFORE HUH? WOW I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A TEAM WHEN YOU DO NOTHING BUT SCREW EVERYTHING UP AND EXPECT ME TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING TO YOU. Against the lab instructions, fuck that, I wasn't aware there were even lab instructions. Boohoo, I don't see goddamn TEAMWORK being marked aka I am fucking free, KAREN.
[So let me know when you want to meet in the lab so we can work on this together] - Now, I'm going to assume everyone who has read this far actually can read, but this is how a TEACHER or your BOSS speaks to you. "let me know" No, you dumbass, YOU are a partner, YOU tell me when YOU want to me, stop pushing everything onto me and then complain that I do everything when your only response is "omg where is your code".
Yes, this ENTIRE post is because of how pissed I am at this message. I am not kidding, I am actually livid about this message this is NOT how you talk to your classmates, and some random dumbass is going to be like, "erm you're overreacting", YOU HAVE NOT SEEN HOW I WRITE TO THIS PIMPLE. You do not tell someone what they should or should not know, you do not complain of RULES THAT DO NOT EXIST, suggest that someone HARD CARRYING YOU is because they WANT TO and that they SHOULDN'T AS THOUGH YOU DIDN'T BASICALLY FORCE THEM TO BY BEING A DUMBASS and then ASK when I want to meet up.
If you genuinely speak like this to your friends, you are a condescending FUCK. I'm sorry, but you can drop bombshell information on others, you can casually say random ass shit, but you do NOT speak to someone like this. This is how you speak when you are annoyed and you want to prove a point hat you are annoyed.
And if you have NO right or REASON to be annoyed because YOU lack the decency to either do work or take up initiative to do work knowing the other person WILL do the work, then YOU ARE CONDESCENDING AND AN ASSHOLE FOR SPEAKING LIKE THIS.
And in general, talking like this is just rude. Like, that tone is the shit that I pull on losers on the internet that can't take the loss and sit down. When someone makes the most braindead take and I have to slowly handhold them into explaining everything or else their minds are exploding.
You can use it with your friends, some dumbass on the internet, random people in Genshin coop, but you don't speak like this to someone who did basically two entire labs (and more, much, much more) for THE GROUP.
I am NOT asking for Karen to kiss the floor, and I am not asking her to fix herself, I know she is speaking condescendingly because that where's the bootlicking little shithead that came to me and "ummm can we work in a group...? I don't have anyone?"
where's that chick huh? where did the little girl that came to me crying to help her through the lab go? where did the begging little scrawny scammer go?
gone.
Because this is a loser whose only life goals is to prove that she can only beg others for grades and count it as learning. If you do not THINK, if you do not TRY, you are a LOSER.
Some person is going to say, "she wants to try, obviously!!!"
I'M SORRY BUT IF YOU TRYING IS DOING NOTHING, SHARING NOTHING AND EXPECTING ME TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING THEN YOU ARE ON CRACK DUDE.
Yes, your grades mean nothing about you as a person, some people are just bad at math it's not that big of a deal and I don't think that's indicative of anything, but you need to TRY. You need to prove to yourself that you have done everything you can if you don't, and then come back and pin the blame on others then you are an entitled PRICK.
And if you then further proceed to pin your learning onto others and expect people to bow to you just because they are nice, you are also A DUMBASS.
Answering questions is being NICE, helping out is being NICE. I don't have to be fucking nice to Karen, and if there is anyone here going through something similar, no you don't have to be nice either.
Class 2:
Now, onto the next class. This is a physics lab where we do a simulation ete etc. There are two sections, one if for MCQ and one for the COMSOL or the actual simulation. Marks are individual. THIS IS A TIMED ACTIVITY FOR THREE HOURS BTW. For the first two labs I had logged in for both so any errors on the MCQ or COMSOL, would have been on my account. For the first lab, we made a few mistakes and weren't prepared. However because it is on my account the marks tank on my account. She gets the right answers.
Which is honestly fine, wtv we can switch.
Remember preamble about me being a pushover.
The next lab, while we do the MCQ on her laptop, the COMSOL is still done on my account. Here's the thing, this person doesn't actually know how to do anything so whenever she does the COMSOL she sort of just... doesn't know how to do it? I mean, I'm not saying I do, I fuck up too, but here is what I'm pissed at.
Whenever the COMSOL is on her account, she needs to make sure everything is correct.
Whenever the COMSOL is on my account, she does fuck whatever and doesn't give two shits about anything.
You think I am exaggerating?
Lab2, she is doing the COMSOL because she can't do MCQ because she doesn't know anything and COMSOL is just following a manual. The account is mine and I am fucking stupid for doing that, but she basically starts doing the MCQ. Remember, she does NOT know anything. Karen actually does NOT know anything and I mean it because she got the first three MCQ on that page wrong. There are 16 MCQ in total, aka she just dropped ME to an 81%. Then she proceeded to do random ass shit on the COMSOL, NOT ADD PHYSICS TO A PHYSICS MODEL and then out in values to answers. Lost me another four points.
This loser dropped on MCQ alone to 50%. My MCQ was 50%. I am not lying.
This dumbass also KNEW that she didn't add physics, because when I asked what went wrong, SHE POINTED TO WHERE IN MANUAL SHE DIDN'T DO. If you don't do something and you don't know how to do something, then WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK THE TA NOW? SUDDENLY WHERE IS YOUR STREAK OF BEGGING THE TA FOR ANSWERS EVERY FIVE SECONDS???
This is my account.
Now, in lab3, we used her account because I refused to log in. This is what she does whenever she's not sure - she not only asks the TA, she asks the TA so thoroughly that the TA basically DOES part of it for her. And the reason why is so dumb too. We knew had the right answer, but we forgot the specific points and what the corresponded to.
See, the issue is that for some reason lab3 had two chances for each submission idk why, so we could have very well saved THE TWENTY MINUTES THIS TA SPENT HELPING US IF WE JUST SWITCHED THE VALUES.
Literally, it was TWO POINTS. We could have just put one in, if the other was wrong, then yes, we could have flipped them and it would have been right.
I am NOT saying we shouldn't check in if we're worried, honestly. I think we should and I am not blaming her for that, I am saying that if you are such a sick, sick fuck that you just submit randomass shit you know is wrong because it's on my account and therefore does not affect you, but are willing to waste 20 minutes on something that is easily fixable and won't cost anything because you are worried about yourself, then you are loser.
Straight up.
Karen is just pathetic.
Does not give a shit about anyone else but her, shameless about it too.
And the worst part is that she is so entitled that the only reason why she is even doing and screwing up the COMSOL is precisely because in lab1 she made me let her redo and entire section because she needed to learn after she spent twenty minutes solving a question that is this: p = v/q, what is p, given v and q? in some other fgancy words but that was the question.
TWENTY MINUTES.
Idk how she is passing.
And listen, I mess up the COMSOL, it's my first time as well, but as least I'm not going to skip and entire section and then input numbers on HER account because it's her account and therefore doesn't matter. Like, bro, no.
SOme people are like, oh you can just screw up her MCQ since she was letting you use her laptop. YOU DON'T GET IT, THAT IS WHY I'M MAD. I am literally making sure I do everything correctly and that I make sure everything is good BECAUSE it's her account. I was working my ass off trying to make sure that I don't make mistakes, and double checking everything because I was worried only to be slammed in my fcking face with a 50% MCQ.
Not only that but in lab2, she, who is in charge of COMSOL, FORGOT AN ENTIRE QUESTION. The lab manual was closed and I had to remember the bits and pieces and redo the entire thing.
Lab1 when she forced me to let her redo the section? I had to rush through the fucking calculations of electric field because she was getting upset that I was doing "everything" NO YOU LOSER, YOU CAN VERY EASILY MOVE AHEAD AND DO THE MCQ AND THE SHORT ANSWER, WHY DON'T YOU??? BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW JACKSHIT, BUT YOU CAN ASK THE TA??? NO, YOU CAN'T BECAUSE YOU NEED TO PROVE TO MY FUCKING FACE THAT I'M NOT LETTING YOU DO ANYTHING BECAUSE I'M WORKING ON THE NEW SHINY ASS MACHINE YOU WANT UP YOUR ASS.
I AM NOT DOING EVERYTHING BECAUSE I WANT TO, IT'S ALWAYS EITHER BECAUSE THIS UNHYGENIC PATHETIC SHITSTAIN DOESN'T KNOW SHIT AND RUINS EVERYTHING OR AND MORE FREQUENTLY BECAUSE SHE REFUSES TO ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING OR BE PROACTIVE.
it's always, ME who has to assign HER stuff to do, and when I don't, suddenly it's my fault.
LIKE CAN YOU NOT READ THE BACK OF A MANUAL? CAN YOU NOT SEE THE LAST QUESTION??? IT'S VERY FUCKING DOABLE YOU ARE NOT LOST YOU ARE LAZY, INCOMPETANT, AND A DUMBASS WHO IS RIDING ON THE FACT THAT FOR NOW, YOU ARE LUCKY THAT PEOPLE WANT TO HELP YOU BECAUSE THEY SEE YOU AS A HARMLESS DUMBASS.
STOP DICK RIDING ME FOR YOUR GRADES, ONLY TO TURN AROUND AND BLAME ME WHENEVER SHIT HITS THE FAN BECAUSE YOU FORCE ME INTO SUCH A POSITION THAT I HAVE TO NOT ONLY WORRY ABOUT MYSELF, BUT YOU AND YOUR SHITTY ASS MISTAKES AS WELL BECAUSE YOU DO NOT CARE ABOUT ME AS HUMAN OR YOUR CLASSMATE.
She doesn't even realize that she relies on me so much, that it is so, so easy for me to fuck her up. Like, to explain how easy it is, all I have to do is pretend for the last lab to not give her any answers. Or I could just input the wrong values like how she did back on her. WHy don't I do it? because it's what an ASSHOLE DOES AND THAT IS WHAT SHE IS.
And when you take THIS into account, when you take all of this and the fact that in another course she is this condescending to me because I didn't let her fucking show off in a lab that she had no idea how to do, then this is just a malicious little child who is entitled as fuck like holy shit the level of shamelessness this person has is beyond me.
And to that ONE person who is going to be dumb as FUCK and say "oh she just wants to learn" -- AGAIN. THERE ARE MANY, MANY, MANY, MANY WAYS FOR HER TO LEARN. SHE CHOOSES THE EASIEST WAY THAT SHE ASSUMES WILL WORK OUT, AND WHEN IT DOESN'T SHE GETS UPSET.
Oh, and just to prove that this person is genuinely just... an asshole, in our third course, I burned my hand and her immediate response isn't 'are you okay?" it's to touch the wire that I already unplugged and then say, "I don't feel anything, did you imagine it?"
I HAD A WHITE BURN MARK.
I WAS BURNED.
EVEN IF I WAS IMAGINING IT, IS THIS NORMAL?
OR ARE YOU JUST HEARTLESS?
HOW IS THIS... THING SO...????
like, she is not just dumb in general, she is so dumb she doesn't even think she is a bad person for acting like this, like I am genuinely surprised because she always is like, oh yes, I'm reasonable, you getting mad is unreasonable, I don't want to talk about this right now, let me write on my little board and shove my complaints to your face who cares waht you are doing, prioritize me, I am a good person and right and correct and moral -- only to be the most insensitive shit I have ever seen.
We are dealing with WIRES.
You can set a FIRE with these things.
Though, she takes a massive L because it ended up happening again and for some reason this dumbass accidentally touched it.
Did not feel bad.
Did not say anything.
Reap what you sow for being a dumbass.
I literally told her the second time (I got burned again btw lol) and she still claimed that I was a liar and crashing out or something and then touched it herself except this time, because I wasn't reacting fast enough I didn't turn it off... HAH.
Genuinely did not do that on purpose. I swear. I was just burned and after staring at a circuit for that long my brain was just... fried as well.
BUT IT WAS FUNNY, I'M SORRY IF THIS MAKES ME A SHITTY PERSON BUT YOU'RE DUMB. KAREN. YOU'RE JUST DUMB HAHA.
Yes, I am actually crashing out, I am going to the fucking TA for the first course on Monday because I am not dealing with this level of bullshit. I would rather take backshots from idk that ML from that shitty ass yaoi manhwa than handle this shit because at least that's willingly.
Ok. I'm done and I feel better.
I just don't have anyone to say this to lol. I wasn't kidding about being antisocial.
I have 150+ wishes saved for Phainon, how many do you have?
about question
what do you feel about loneliness? do you want to lonely or are you a loner by default?
I just want to stop the stupid lesbian brainrot.
I just want to stop the stupid lesbian brainrot.
about question
come on, don't be shy, tell me the most toxic relationship you've seen
Madarame and Towa from slow damage is the most 'good' toxic relationship I've seen, as it was written as the author's personal kink, but as an actual demonstration of a toxic relationship.
Madarame and Towa from slow damage is the most 'good' toxic relationship I've seen, as it was written as the author's personal kink, but as an actual demonstration of a toxic relationship.
about question
Tell me about how it's like for you living with a roommate.
I'm currently keeping my roommate awake at 1 am so I can reread Hashihime (our beds are approx. 1.5 meters apart).
(play hashihime of the old book town)
I'm currently keeping my roommate awake at 1 am so I can reread Hashihime (our beds are approx. 1.5 meters apart).
(play hashihime of the old book town)
about have a bizarre nightmare
I have a lot of weird nightmares, but certainly the strangest feeling would be getting stabbed or having a knife dragged down you. Or being hit. Not sure why, but it feels ticklish. Like, it's terrifying sure, but it's really ticklish in hindsight. Getting hit just feels light headed, but no specific pain. Maybe when you're dreaming there's pain, but you simply do not remember...?
Also, triggered-nightmares? There are some nightmares where if you imagine a specific series of events, the same nightmare will occur, at least personally.
For instance, for me, if I imagine me and my dad going to those red curtain theatres, and then going up onto the stage (no matter when during the play), I will always somehow end up dreaming that he and I were stuck in a maze being chased down by a stereotypical witch in purple or black. And the walls are always grey and taller than me, but not taller than my dad (I'm 155 cm, he's 174 cm).
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Also, triggered-nightmares? There are some nightmares where if you imagine a specific series of events, the same nightmare will occur, at least personally.
For instance, for me, if I imagine me and my dad going to those red curtain theatres, and then going up onto the stage (no matter when during the play), I will always somehow end up dreaming that he and I were stuck in a maze being chased down by a stereotypical witch in purple or black. And the walls are always grey and taller than me, but not taller than my dad (I'm 155 cm, he's 174 cm).
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about question
tldr: I'm depressed and need somewhere to spew shit at people with no word limit. also typing on phone so probably typo... if you read through all of this, you are amazing. and before someone comments this, no I don't have a life, no I don't have friends, yes I am pathetic. okay done?
Firstly, if you are actually in this server, you might remember me and you might actually know what server I'm talking about cause I'm going to get very specific here. If you are the owner, I don't give a flying fuck if you kick or ban me. Do whatever the hell you want. See. If. I. Give. A. Shit. If you think your personal data/safety is at risk cause you were goddamn dumb enough to put pictures of your toddler son in a public server listed on disboard, go rethink your life choices lmao. I don't see the cybersecurity purposes of giving a crap about it when it's already out there for pedos to see and lick. Oops... That's must've made you uncomfortable.
Ok, this stupid thing which happened over a month ago I think has been bothering me. When I say bothering, I mean I actually through stages of thinking out what happened.
So because I'm psychotic atp, I'm going to describe everything in reverse nonreverse nonsensical order.
I basically got a week muted ban from this server called something. I'm not that petty. Now, originally the things that I was accused of was posting things in the wrong channel (I accept that, I did do that), putting nsfw in sfw, making mods and people in the server uncomfortable, talking about rape in a server that bans everything to do with rape, being too nsfw in... nsfw and posting the wrong nsfw content in the wrong nsfw channel, and some other stuff that isn't important.
At first, tbh, I was actually really apologetic and felt really... really bad. Because I don't like making people feel bad like how they described it. I think I should express my imos but I don't want it to make someone feel upset or trapped or something. It's my imo, it's nothing personal. So I felt really really bad about it. The nsfw and everything else I just sort of overlapped with how bad I felt about making some people uncomfortable.
So... it was around 4-5 am when I got the message from the mod saying that I would be banned for a week and why etc etc. From FOUR- FIVE AM TO SIX AM I wrote a 2000 word apology explaining why some things happened and how I would try to resolve it. I sent it, and was planning on apologizing to the person that I remember clearly who was uncomfortable (I'll get to that later lmao), but it was 6 am I was sleepy and didn't want to make it nonsensical so I decided to deal with it the next day.
Next day, I open discord and see a message that is basically, we won't reduce the time of your muted ban. I was so confused. Nowhere in ANYTHING I wrote did I ask for that or suggest that. I wrote 2000 words for at least an hour JUST TO EXPLAIN and APOLOGIZE. If you are stupid enough to seriously think someone who goes that length to try to clear things up to that extent gives a shit about ban length - you are shallow because that's the conclusion you come to? Seriously? TWO THOUSAND WORDS OF JUST APOLOGY AND EXPLANATION. I WAS NOT BEGGING TO BE LET INTO YOUR FUCKING SERVER FOR TWO THOUSAND WORDS. THAT'S NOT HOW THAT WORKS. I FELT FUCKING BAD ABOUT THIS STUPID ASS SHIT. THAT'S WHY I WROTE IT TO CLEAR THINGS UP, YOU GERMAN HARDHEADED IDIOT.
If someone was like, 'I am really sorry and I won't do it again etc etc' sure, I would be a little suspicious. TWO THOUSAND WORDS.
(as you can see... I do not feel bad about anything in this server anymore)
But at that time, I was worried they misread what I meant and thought I was being a dick and didn't feel bad. Well, ig now I am a dick cause I don't- Anyway, I then decided to hold back replying... because it would probably make me seem worse.
But that got me thinking: EXACTLY WHAT DID I DO LMAOOO???
So the question comes, how tf did I get banned for a week. Well, in the message, it stated I got a warning twice.
??? When?
Then I thought, when? what warning? did I get a notification?
See, I thought I got banned for a week cause I broke the no say rape rule. Which is 100% on me - completely forgot it like the irresponsible discord user I am. Honestly should been banned for that (there is a small discrepancy about why I had to state the rape thing, but I shouldn't have used anything with rape in it.)
No, I got banned cause I had gotten two warnings in 24 hours. So I thought back to when one of the mods said I made someone uncomfortable. I won't... expand on why you should say: THIS IS A WARNING to someone you are giving a warning to, but they didn't.
Now to explain that and why I didn't think it was a warning I need to explain what I did. I took a snapshoot of mangago romance page x'd all the yaoi yuri explicit stuff and left all the villainess reincarnation stories. Then I said something idk what, but I ended saying that page filled with different villainess stories were trash.
Firstly, subjectively, I like reading my indulgent villainess reincarnation stories, okay? I like my tall dark uhh sometimes blond omoshiroi you are mine MLs even if they are repetitive. Objectively, those stories are crap lmaoooo. They are shit. They have the stupidest, shallowest, most ridiculous unrealistic developments good authors have nightmares of. Ok? They are bad stories objectively. Anyone who says elsewise is 4 years old and doesn't have enough brain cells to counter, problem solved. This is my post, I am the holy dictator.
Anyway so this one mod (call them... 1, they roleplay as capitano...) was like RIP to the people who like it. And me, being me, was like, yeah if you like, better get used to the fact your taste is objectively bad (as are mine lmao). I probably didn't say that word for word...? Something like that you get the meaning.
This person... started saying that it's rude to say that of what other people are like. And I was like, ok this person doesn't know the mangago culture of shitting on everything everyone likes. So I tried to explain that it's fine. Probably worded it badly ngl.
Now... in reading this, you should realize, I can really type a lot. So I wrote... a lot. And this person replied. Now the thing is their only point was 'it's rude' and I basically explained why no, it really isn't. This goes back and forth a bit and then the owner/mod sends the message that this person is clearly uncomfortable etc etc drop the topic.
1. WELL I'M SORRY I'M NOT A GODDAMN MIND READER THEY DIDN'T FUCKING SAY THAT THEY WERE UNCOMFORTABLE. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? READ THEIR BRAINS WAVES??? YEAH I'M SORRY YOU FELT UNCOMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO NEED TO WHINE TO ANOTHER MOD TO GET THE FUCKING BALLS TO TELL ME I MADE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE. WHAT ARE YOU? FOUR? NEED MOMMY TO HOLD YOUR FUCKING HAND TOO? YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THE SERIES. NEXT TIME, GET THAT ADULT PARENTING SHITTY ACT UP AND TELL IT TO MY GODDAMN FACE INSTEAD OF BEING LIKE 'humuhumu senpai I'm scwared they made me sniff uncomfwortwable~' TO GET ME A WARNING LMAO.
2. THE FUCK ARE THEY UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT? IT'S A FUCKING MANGAGO PAGE OF THE MOST REPETITIVE SHIT THERE IS. 1 DOESN'T EVEN GODDAMN USE MANGAGO (i think). LIKE HOLY SHIT YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE SOMEONE SAID SOME SHOW SUCKED EVEN THOUGH YOU NEVER WATCHED OR READ IT LMAOOO HOW NICE OF YOU TO THINK OF THOSE POOR READERS WHO ARE NOW CRYING THEIR BEDS SOME RANDOM LOSER (me) ON THE INTERNET THINKS THEIR TASTE SUCKS SO SAD BOOHOO. YOU KNOW WHAT? 1'S FUCKING OPINION THAT MY OPINION MAKES THEM UNCOMFORTABLE MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE CAUSE I'VE NEVER SEEN SUCH HYPOCRISY IN MY LIFE LMAOOO. ONLY A FUCKING AMERICAN WHO POSTS PICTURES OF THEIR GODDAMN KID ON A PUBLIC DISCORD SERVER IS HYPOCRITICAL ENOUGH TO FEEL PROXY UNCOMFORTABLE WHEN THEIR ONLY VALID THOUGHT IS THAT IT'S RUDE TO SAY SHIT IS SHIT. DO THEY KNOW HOW MUCH GODDAMN PISSWATER GETS TURNED INTO ANIME CAUSE OF THIS MENTALITY? HATERS BE HATERS, BUT SOMETHING'S GOT TO HAVE A REASON TO BE HATED TO BE HATED DUMBASS. PEOPLE LIKE 1 ARE THE REASON WHY SHITTY ANIME GET HIGH RATINGS EVEN THOUGH ALL THEY ARE SAYING IS EITHER REPETITIVE SHIT OR STRAIGHT UP JUST BULLSHIT THAT ANYONE WHO ISN'T A FUCKING INCEL KNOWS.
yeah.
ok.
Anyway, so that was my 'warning' that wasn't really a warning because I didn't know because idk what part of me saying something you've never read before as being trash makes you (1) uncomfortable.
And I thought of it. And when I did, I was like, what the fuck.
And then I started to think more on exactly what I did and what this server was like.
So what about that second warning I claim to be aware of?
Well, I was talking to someone on another channel about character design in BL and made a meme about in that manga where the seme is like 3x the size of the uke (The Abyss?). Course, uke sleeves etc etc. I will have an entire separate thing on how stupid nsfw protection works but this person was like the words uke and seme are nsfw. Now, I am over the underage limit, so I could have gotten a nsfw role BEFORE.
but tbh, nsfw to me meant straight up cock in asshole pics. Everything else is fair game. idrc how messed up that perspective is. But to respect this person's uh boundaries ig I asked for an nsfw role.
LET ME REITERATE: I asked for a fucking nsfw role to talk about character designs in yaoi. Not dick design, we're not reading pianpian, CHARACTER DESIGN.
Anyway, so this came from a meme so I was like, no rant section, then I'll shove it all in memes. So I did.
Now, I already deleted what I wrote, but I first posted the meme, then I went into explaining BL character designs. I used Slow Damage and something else as an example. Now, Slow Damage has rape in it. I thought, you know what, I'd be a decent person and put a warning about it in case someone decides to play and ignores the warnings only to get a face full of Madarame beating the living shit out of Towa and then fucking him with moaning audio to accompany it.
And that - I am not kidding - is why I mentioned rape at all. For a warning. I think I even spoilered it. I think.
Anyway, that's not why I'm pissed, I could have tried to find an example without rape in it. No, the reason why I'm pissed is because if you bothered to read anything I fucking wrote, it was entirely about character design.
AS IN, I DIDN'T WRITE FUCKING PORN. NOR DID I MAKE REFERENCES TO HENTAI. HOW DARE YOU FUCKING CALL SLOW DAMAGE PORN OR HENTAI. THE FUCKING WRIOTHESLEY BODY PILLOWS YOU ALL BOUGHT WERE MORE DEGENERATE THAN SLOW DAMAGE. HOW DARE YOU, YOU HENTAI OBSESSED PORN ADDICTS THAT CAN'T READ. YOU CAN'T EVEN READ. THAT'S SAD IN A ROLEPLAY SERVER.
LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN 'what the fuck did I just read?' DID YOU READ? ARE YOU BLIND? I DON'T EVEN WATCH THE GODDAMN SEX SCENES IN SLOW DAMAGE LMAO IMMEDIATELY TALKING ABOUT PORN MY ASS. I DON'T TALK PORN - I DON'T EVEN READ OR WATCH IT UNLIKE YOU SHITS WHO SHARE PANTALONE AND DOTTORE FANART OF THEM TIED UP AND FUCKING LMAOOO IF YOU BOTHERED TO READ ANYTHING, USE TWO BRAINCELLS AND COMPREHEND SHIT YOU WOULD HAVE REALIZED THAT I NEVER MADE A SINGLE SERIOUS REFERENCE TO FUCKING BUT JUST TO CHARACTER DESIGN.
ALSO, WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN TOO NSFW??? IT'S A FUCKING NSFW CHANNEL. YOU GUYS WERE BUYING WRIOTHESLEY BODY PILLOWS WHERE HIS FACE LOOKS LIKE HIS ASS WAS JUST FILLED WITH FUCKING NEUVI ALPHA DRAGON DOUBLE DICK CUM. TOO NSFW - FUCKING READ IN A ROLEPLAY SERVER. YOU GUYS ARE WAYYYYYYYY MORE PORN OBSESSED THAN ME WHO FAST FORWARDED THE SEX SCENES IN HASHIHIME, OOE, UUULTRAC CAUSE I'M TOO EMBARRASSED TO HEAR THEM MOAN. YOU ALL PROBABLY HAVE ONLY FANS TO WATCH COSPLAYERS FUCK LMAOOOO. (is that what only fans is for? or was that just pornhub?)
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So yeah. I don't know why they were basically accusing me of what was basically indecency in an nsfw channel for a message about character design. Now, I probably did make like two sex jokes but like, come on, wriothesley fucking face orgasm body pillow.
ok so those were the two warnings.
now, because this is the limit for how petty I am, I am going to trash on their server in the most unharmful way by screaming into the void of mangago's forums. This is just me being petty rn so like, if you reached this far lmao idk.
see, I could have raided their server, invited bots, made their life miserable, but I didn't cause I'm not a piece of genuine shit. I just need to release all the shit somewhere. I could have left them a shitty review. But I didn't wanna know why? cause some people like it there, I don't see why I should ruin it for them.
So...
1. The Capitano Roleplayer 1
Now having expanded on 1, let's talk more about them because I've been meaning to shit on them for some time. As you may have realized 1 has a kid. 1 also likes to post pictures of their kid on a discord server. I don't really need to explain why that's a really fucking bad idea and why it's dangerous and the fact that kids who get their images posted on the internet are sometimes kidnapped using the information from said photographs. But they do it. And whenever they do it, I wish their kid had a better parent. Now this really doesn't matter, it's just me being nitpicky, some people might say it's okay (you're stupid and that's another fact).
2. Our Pantalone and Dottore Roleplayers (9 and 2)
These two... hahaha... these two liked to roleplay very randomly these tidbits of pantalonexdottore relationships like, cheesy stuff. In the middle... of a conversation. Now, tbh, I don't really care, but I found something interesting.
They said if it made you uncomfortable that they were basically flirting every day, to tell them that.
Now, why do I think this is funny, because no one is ever going to tell them that even if they are uncomfortable.
Why? Pressure.
Think about it this way, two people are having fun and you, a stranger come in. They tell you they are welcoming and are okay, but they sometimes randomly start flirting as characters in another series. Now you as a new person, if you are uncomfortable, are you going to tell them? No. Because you just joined this group, you aren't going to make yourself remembered as that one cockblocker.
Well, you might say that's new whatevers, what about old ones? Well old members are already used to this shit.
It's hypocritical (idk if that's the right word), to say, oh yes tell me when you are uncomfortable, but also make an environment for the user, where everyone else accepts it and they are forced to speak out about it. It's why roles for triggers or gender or pings etc etc can help because you are ensuring a degree of freedom if lack of identity. No one wants to be a black sheep, that's basic psychology I think.
This type of 'welcoming' environment is really popular now. See, we can do this and tell you to tell us if it makes you uncomfortable. We're fair and understanding. You can tell us. But then explain to me why when I said something to 1 that made them uncomfortable they could go to you and get me a warning?
If why this is hypocritical doesn't make sense, basically what is going on is the question of who has the burden of convenience? If you are going to do something that might make someone uncomfortable, is it the person who is uncomfortable who needs to say so, or is it the person who is making them uncomfortable who needs to check in?
In my case, because 1 never explicitly said they were uncomfortable and I needed to see how 'clearly' they were uncomfortable, it's the second case. I am the one who is making them uncomfortable, I am the one who needs to realize and stop.
In their case, it's the people who are subjected to them flirting who need to say so. They don't need to care if someone doesn't want to ruin the mood or is awkward, they gave the chance. And tbh, that's fine.
The problem is then why when it comes to my situation do I get a fucking warning?
Say it to my face too. I don't mind, I'll stop everything if you tell me to. Just like them, just tell me.
And this is the double standard in this server, which is common to many servers.
3. NSFW.
Don't show NSFW to kids, right? Eighteen or nothing. I cannot begin to explain how stupid abd evasive this argument is.
Someone in this server was near discord TOS age (13), they sent suggestive images of a woman giving birth to the Earth. Does this person really need an NSFW racket? no. they've seen it all.
This is a thin line, yes but I don't see a point in protecting someone from something they've already been so heavily exposed to. If the conversation allows it and it's nothing bad literally just a girl in a maid outfit with big boobs, it's not nsfw.
Also, if you can allow 'creams his pants' you can allow my azur lane maid girls.
Now, tbh, the people in this server weren't bad people. I just am pissed at them. Except 1 and 2. I'm sorry, this sort of hypocritical attempt to moderate a server is just straight up mixing mud and chocolate until you can't tell what is what because of how disgustingly tricky you are being. It's pathetic and the fact that 2 thought I was trying to lessen the mute period of my ban proves they are a 小人.
Ok anyway, so I'm done it's 3 am, I've been texting for two hours...I feel better. there are honestly more things but I'm ok and tired lmaoooo (づ￣ ³￣)づ ok time to go back to simping on schedule.
Firstly, if you are actually in this server, you might remember me and you might actually know what server I'm talking about cause I'm going to get very specific here. If you are the owner, I don't give a flying fuck if you kick or ban me. Do whatever the hell you want. See. If. I. Give. A. Shit. If you think your personal data/safety is at risk cause you were goddamn dumb enough to put pictures of your toddler son in a public server listed on disboard, go rethink your life choices lmao. I don't see the cybersecurity purposes of giving a crap about it when it's already out there for pedos to see and lick. Oops... That's must've made you uncomfortable.
Ok, this stupid thing which happened over a month ago I think has been bothering me. When I say bothering, I mean I actually through stages of thinking out what happened.
So because I'm psychotic atp, I'm going to describe everything in reverse nonreverse nonsensical order.
I basically got a week muted ban from this server called something. I'm not that petty. Now, originally the things that I was accused of was posting things in the wrong channel (I accept that, I did do that), putting nsfw in sfw, making mods and people in the server uncomfortable, talking about rape in a server that bans everything to do with rape, being too nsfw in... nsfw and posting the wrong nsfw content in the wrong nsfw channel, and some other stuff that isn't important.
At first, tbh, I was actually really apologetic and felt really... really bad. Because I don't like making people feel bad like how they described it. I think I should express my imos but I don't want it to make someone feel upset or trapped or something. It's my imo, it's nothing personal. So I felt really really bad about it. The nsfw and everything else I just sort of overlapped with how bad I felt about making some people uncomfortable.
So... it was around 4-5 am when I got the message from the mod saying that I would be banned for a week and why etc etc. From FOUR- FIVE AM TO SIX AM I wrote a 2000 word apology explaining why some things happened and how I would try to resolve it. I sent it, and was planning on apologizing to the person that I remember clearly who was uncomfortable (I'll get to that later lmao), but it was 6 am I was sleepy and didn't want to make it nonsensical so I decided to deal with it the next day.
Next day, I open discord and see a message that is basically, we won't reduce the time of your muted ban. I was so confused. Nowhere in ANYTHING I wrote did I ask for that or suggest that. I wrote 2000 words for at least an hour JUST TO EXPLAIN and APOLOGIZE. If you are stupid enough to seriously think someone who goes that length to try to clear things up to that extent gives a shit about ban length - you are shallow because that's the conclusion you come to? Seriously? TWO THOUSAND WORDS OF JUST APOLOGY AND EXPLANATION. I WAS NOT BEGGING TO BE LET INTO YOUR FUCKING SERVER FOR TWO THOUSAND WORDS. THAT'S NOT HOW THAT WORKS. I FELT FUCKING BAD ABOUT THIS STUPID ASS SHIT. THAT'S WHY I WROTE IT TO CLEAR THINGS UP, YOU GERMAN HARDHEADED IDIOT.
If someone was like, 'I am really sorry and I won't do it again etc etc' sure, I would be a little suspicious. TWO THOUSAND WORDS.
(as you can see... I do not feel bad about anything in this server anymore)
But at that time, I was worried they misread what I meant and thought I was being a dick and didn't feel bad. Well, ig now I am a dick cause I don't- Anyway, I then decided to hold back replying... because it would probably make me seem worse.
But that got me thinking: EXACTLY WHAT DID I DO LMAOOO???
So the question comes, how tf did I get banned for a week. Well, in the message, it stated I got a warning twice.
??? When?
Then I thought, when? what warning? did I get a notification?
See, I thought I got banned for a week cause I broke the no say rape rule. Which is 100% on me - completely forgot it like the irresponsible discord user I am. Honestly should been banned for that (there is a small discrepancy about why I had to state the rape thing, but I shouldn't have used anything with rape in it.)
No, I got banned cause I had gotten two warnings in 24 hours. So I thought back to when one of the mods said I made someone uncomfortable. I won't... expand on why you should say: THIS IS A WARNING to someone you are giving a warning to, but they didn't.
Now to explain that and why I didn't think it was a warning I need to explain what I did. I took a snapshoot of mangago romance page x'd all the yaoi yuri explicit stuff and left all the villainess reincarnation stories. Then I said something idk what, but I ended saying that page filled with different villainess stories were trash.
Firstly, subjectively, I like reading my indulgent villainess reincarnation stories, okay? I like my tall dark uhh sometimes blond omoshiroi you are mine MLs even if they are repetitive. Objectively, those stories are crap lmaoooo. They are shit. They have the stupidest, shallowest, most ridiculous unrealistic developments good authors have nightmares of. Ok? They are bad stories objectively. Anyone who says elsewise is 4 years old and doesn't have enough brain cells to counter, problem solved. This is my post, I am the holy dictator.
Anyway so this one mod (call them... 1, they roleplay as capitano...) was like RIP to the people who like it. And me, being me, was like, yeah if you like, better get used to the fact your taste is objectively bad (as are mine lmao). I probably didn't say that word for word...? Something like that you get the meaning.
This person... started saying that it's rude to say that of what other people are like. And I was like, ok this person doesn't know the mangago culture of shitting on everything everyone likes. So I tried to explain that it's fine. Probably worded it badly ngl.
Now... in reading this, you should realize, I can really type a lot. So I wrote... a lot. And this person replied. Now the thing is their only point was 'it's rude' and I basically explained why no, it really isn't. This goes back and forth a bit and then the owner/mod sends the message that this person is clearly uncomfortable etc etc drop the topic.
1. WELL I'M SORRY I'M NOT A GODDAMN MIND READER THEY DIDN'T FUCKING SAY THAT THEY WERE UNCOMFORTABLE. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? READ THEIR BRAINS WAVES??? YEAH I'M SORRY YOU FELT UNCOMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO NEED TO WHINE TO ANOTHER MOD TO GET THE FUCKING BALLS TO TELL ME I MADE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE. WHAT ARE YOU? FOUR? NEED MOMMY TO HOLD YOUR FUCKING HAND TOO? YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THE SERIES. NEXT TIME, GET THAT ADULT PARENTING SHITTY ACT UP AND TELL IT TO MY GODDAMN FACE INSTEAD OF BEING LIKE 'humuhumu senpai I'm scwared they made me sniff uncomfwortwable~' TO GET ME A WARNING LMAO.
2. THE FUCK ARE THEY UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT? IT'S A FUCKING MANGAGO PAGE OF THE MOST REPETITIVE SHIT THERE IS. 1 DOESN'T EVEN GODDAMN USE MANGAGO (i think). LIKE HOLY SHIT YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE SOMEONE SAID SOME SHOW SUCKED EVEN THOUGH YOU NEVER WATCHED OR READ IT LMAOOO HOW NICE OF YOU TO THINK OF THOSE POOR READERS WHO ARE NOW CRYING THEIR BEDS SOME RANDOM LOSER (me) ON THE INTERNET THINKS THEIR TASTE SUCKS SO SAD BOOHOO. YOU KNOW WHAT? 1'S FUCKING OPINION THAT MY OPINION MAKES THEM UNCOMFORTABLE MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE CAUSE I'VE NEVER SEEN SUCH HYPOCRISY IN MY LIFE LMAOOO. ONLY A FUCKING AMERICAN WHO POSTS PICTURES OF THEIR GODDAMN KID ON A PUBLIC DISCORD SERVER IS HYPOCRITICAL ENOUGH TO FEEL PROXY UNCOMFORTABLE WHEN THEIR ONLY VALID THOUGHT IS THAT IT'S RUDE TO SAY SHIT IS SHIT. DO THEY KNOW HOW MUCH GODDAMN PISSWATER GETS TURNED INTO ANIME CAUSE OF THIS MENTALITY? HATERS BE HATERS, BUT SOMETHING'S GOT TO HAVE A REASON TO BE HATED TO BE HATED DUMBASS. PEOPLE LIKE 1 ARE THE REASON WHY SHITTY ANIME GET HIGH RATINGS EVEN THOUGH ALL THEY ARE SAYING IS EITHER REPETITIVE SHIT OR STRAIGHT UP JUST BULLSHIT THAT ANYONE WHO ISN'T A FUCKING INCEL KNOWS.
yeah.
ok.
Anyway, so that was my 'warning' that wasn't really a warning because I didn't know because idk what part of me saying something you've never read before as being trash makes you (1) uncomfortable.
And I thought of it. And when I did, I was like, what the fuck.
And then I started to think more on exactly what I did and what this server was like.
So what about that second warning I claim to be aware of?
Well, I was talking to someone on another channel about character design in BL and made a meme about in that manga where the seme is like 3x the size of the uke (The Abyss?). Course, uke sleeves etc etc. I will have an entire separate thing on how stupid nsfw protection works but this person was like the words uke and seme are nsfw. Now, I am over the underage limit, so I could have gotten a nsfw role BEFORE.
but tbh, nsfw to me meant straight up cock in asshole pics. Everything else is fair game. idrc how messed up that perspective is. But to respect this person's uh boundaries ig I asked for an nsfw role.
LET ME REITERATE: I asked for a fucking nsfw role to talk about character designs in yaoi. Not dick design, we're not reading pianpian, CHARACTER DESIGN.
Anyway, so this came from a meme so I was like, no rant section, then I'll shove it all in memes. So I did.
Now, I already deleted what I wrote, but I first posted the meme, then I went into explaining BL character designs. I used Slow Damage and something else as an example. Now, Slow Damage has rape in it. I thought, you know what, I'd be a decent person and put a warning about it in case someone decides to play and ignores the warnings only to get a face full of Madarame beating the living shit out of Towa and then fucking him with moaning audio to accompany it.
And that - I am not kidding - is why I mentioned rape at all. For a warning. I think I even spoilered it. I think.
Anyway, that's not why I'm pissed, I could have tried to find an example without rape in it. No, the reason why I'm pissed is because if you bothered to read anything I fucking wrote, it was entirely about character design.
AS IN, I DIDN'T WRITE FUCKING PORN. NOR DID I MAKE REFERENCES TO HENTAI. HOW DARE YOU FUCKING CALL SLOW DAMAGE PORN OR HENTAI. THE FUCKING WRIOTHESLEY BODY PILLOWS YOU ALL BOUGHT WERE MORE DEGENERATE THAN SLOW DAMAGE. HOW DARE YOU, YOU HENTAI OBSESSED PORN ADDICTS THAT CAN'T READ. YOU CAN'T EVEN READ. THAT'S SAD IN A ROLEPLAY SERVER.
LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN 'what the fuck did I just read?' DID YOU READ? ARE YOU BLIND? I DON'T EVEN WATCH THE GODDAMN SEX SCENES IN SLOW DAMAGE LMAO IMMEDIATELY TALKING ABOUT PORN MY ASS. I DON'T TALK PORN - I DON'T EVEN READ OR WATCH IT UNLIKE YOU SHITS WHO SHARE PANTALONE AND DOTTORE FANART OF THEM TIED UP AND FUCKING LMAOOO IF YOU BOTHERED TO READ ANYTHING, USE TWO BRAINCELLS AND COMPREHEND SHIT YOU WOULD HAVE REALIZED THAT I NEVER MADE A SINGLE SERIOUS REFERENCE TO FUCKING BUT JUST TO CHARACTER DESIGN.
ALSO, WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN TOO NSFW??? IT'S A FUCKING NSFW CHANNEL. YOU GUYS WERE BUYING WRIOTHESLEY BODY PILLOWS WHERE HIS FACE LOOKS LIKE HIS ASS WAS JUST FILLED WITH FUCKING NEUVI ALPHA DRAGON DOUBLE DICK CUM. TOO NSFW - FUCKING READ IN A ROLEPLAY SERVER. YOU GUYS ARE WAYYYYYYYY MORE PORN OBSESSED THAN ME WHO FAST FORWARDED THE SEX SCENES IN HASHIHIME, OOE, UUULTRAC CAUSE I'M TOO EMBARRASSED TO HEAR THEM MOAN. YOU ALL PROBABLY HAVE ONLY FANS TO WATCH COSPLAYERS FUCK LMAOOOO. (is that what only fans is for? or was that just pornhub?)
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So yeah. I don't know why they were basically accusing me of what was basically indecency in an nsfw channel for a message about character design. Now, I probably did make like two sex jokes but like, come on, wriothesley fucking face orgasm body pillow.
ok so those were the two warnings.
now, because this is the limit for how petty I am, I am going to trash on their server in the most unharmful way by screaming into the void of mangago's forums. This is just me being petty rn so like, if you reached this far lmao idk.
see, I could have raided their server, invited bots, made their life miserable, but I didn't cause I'm not a piece of genuine shit. I just need to release all the shit somewhere. I could have left them a shitty review. But I didn't wanna know why? cause some people like it there, I don't see why I should ruin it for them.
So...
1. The Capitano Roleplayer 1
Now having expanded on 1, let's talk more about them because I've been meaning to shit on them for some time. As you may have realized 1 has a kid. 1 also likes to post pictures of their kid on a discord server. I don't really need to explain why that's a really fucking bad idea and why it's dangerous and the fact that kids who get their images posted on the internet are sometimes kidnapped using the information from said photographs. But they do it. And whenever they do it, I wish their kid had a better parent. Now this really doesn't matter, it's just me being nitpicky, some people might say it's okay (you're stupid and that's another fact).
2. Our Pantalone and Dottore Roleplayers (9 and 2)
These two... hahaha... these two liked to roleplay very randomly these tidbits of pantalonexdottore relationships like, cheesy stuff. In the middle... of a conversation. Now, tbh, I don't really care, but I found something interesting.
They said if it made you uncomfortable that they were basically flirting every day, to tell them that.
Now, why do I think this is funny, because no one is ever going to tell them that even if they are uncomfortable.
Why? Pressure.
Think about it this way, two people are having fun and you, a stranger come in. They tell you they are welcoming and are okay, but they sometimes randomly start flirting as characters in another series. Now you as a new person, if you are uncomfortable, are you going to tell them? No. Because you just joined this group, you aren't going to make yourself remembered as that one cockblocker.
Well, you might say that's new whatevers, what about old ones? Well old members are already used to this shit.
It's hypocritical (idk if that's the right word), to say, oh yes tell me when you are uncomfortable, but also make an environment for the user, where everyone else accepts it and they are forced to speak out about it. It's why roles for triggers or gender or pings etc etc can help because you are ensuring a degree of freedom if lack of identity. No one wants to be a black sheep, that's basic psychology I think.
This type of 'welcoming' environment is really popular now. See, we can do this and tell you to tell us if it makes you uncomfortable. We're fair and understanding. You can tell us. But then explain to me why when I said something to 1 that made them uncomfortable they could go to you and get me a warning?
If why this is hypocritical doesn't make sense, basically what is going on is the question of who has the burden of convenience? If you are going to do something that might make someone uncomfortable, is it the person who is uncomfortable who needs to say so, or is it the person who is making them uncomfortable who needs to check in?
In my case, because 1 never explicitly said they were uncomfortable and I needed to see how 'clearly' they were uncomfortable, it's the second case. I am the one who is making them uncomfortable, I am the one who needs to realize and stop.
In their case, it's the people who are subjected to them flirting who need to say so. They don't need to care if someone doesn't want to ruin the mood or is awkward, they gave the chance. And tbh, that's fine.
The problem is then why when it comes to my situation do I get a fucking warning?
Say it to my face too. I don't mind, I'll stop everything if you tell me to. Just like them, just tell me.
And this is the double standard in this server, which is common to many servers.
3. NSFW.
Don't show NSFW to kids, right? Eighteen or nothing. I cannot begin to explain how stupid abd evasive this argument is.
Someone in this server was near discord TOS age (13), they sent suggestive images of a woman giving birth to the Earth. Does this person really need an NSFW racket? no. they've seen it all.
This is a thin line, yes but I don't see a point in protecting someone from something they've already been so heavily exposed to. If the conversation allows it and it's nothing bad literally just a girl in a maid outfit with big boobs, it's not nsfw.
Also, if you can allow 'creams his pants' you can allow my azur lane maid girls.
Now, tbh, the people in this server weren't bad people. I just am pissed at them. Except 1 and 2. I'm sorry, this sort of hypocritical attempt to moderate a server is just straight up mixing mud and chocolate until you can't tell what is what because of how disgustingly tricky you are being. It's pathetic and the fact that 2 thought I was trying to lessen the mute period of my ban proves they are a 小人.
Ok anyway, so I'm done it's 3 am, I've been texting for two hours...I feel better. there are honestly more things but I'm ok and tired lmaoooo (づ￣ ³￣)づ ok time to go back to simping on schedule.
about question
"sexy pheromone" - ikenai taiyou (sinful sun) by orange range.
I actually have no idea what the context for this song is either but "sexy pheromone".
if it helps, this is the band that made one of the endings or openings of code geass R2, but that's not this song.
I actually have no idea what the context for this song is either but "sexy pheromone".
if it helps, this is the band that made one of the endings or openings of code geass R2, but that's not this song.
about question
What's a character kink that is common for the characters you like?
From what I know of the characters I like, fictional criminals are my kink haha...
(idk if the question is clear tbh because idk how to ask it)
From what I know of the characters I like, fictional criminals are my kink haha...
(idk if the question is clear tbh because idk how to ask it)
about question
It's a holiday for Chinese people today, and some people in my dorm came and asked me if I wanted to eat zongzi with them.
I told them that I hated zongzi and that my mum just brought some over and I just whined to her that I don't eat zongzi (she knows, she's just memeing me). And then he asked me what I was doing and I said "job interview".
And then he said good luck and left.
There really is no type of human like this, huh?
Someone asks you to come out... usually regardless of personal taste, you should accept, especially considering it is nice enough for them to remember you in the first place... especially considering the number of interactions is limited to less than... a total of three times. It's common courtesy.
Why did I reject them?
The idea of possibly speaking to someone for the next few hours along with other people is so depressing, I don't want to think about it. Just speaking to that one person already makes me feel sick. I don't want to speak to another three or four or five or six - that'll just make me actually vomit. I can't sit through an hour of speaking to someone, I can barely stand being around a single person for more than a few days before I get sick of speaking to anyone and want to leave.
Engaging in small talk or just talking has become such a chore to me that my hands shake increasingly more with each ten minutes spent around a group of people. It's gone to a point where when speaking to people, I immediately look down and avoid their eyes because that way they'd likely move away from speaking to me. The only "speaking" I can do with other people is spewing long speeches about random things that I am aware without actually speaking to someone. Reacting and trying to match the correct response to every word is so disgusting that I don't think about it.
Every time I speak to people it feels like I'm slowly pushing my organs out of my mouth or towards my stomach.
I haven't spoken to my roommate more than three or four times... and it's been over a month since I've lived with her. We play the same games, we watch the same anime, we are in the same classes; why can't I speak to her? Because it makes my hands so cold and I have the instinctive reaction to just run away.
People enjoy talking of their troubles, but I can't bring myself to talk about mine. I don't want to connect to anyone around me, and I don't want to know about anyone around me. But it's impossible to live in a self-isolated world, and it's impossible to disconnect from the world in the manner that I want it to happen. I can't even bring myself to be open with my own mum to the point that she points it out.
I can do day-to-day communications, official communication, but once it is required to put the human heart into the mouth and wire it to other people, I don't want to. Or rather, I can't. The "genuine" part of me is misanthropic and the only words I can speak are formality. I don't want to connect with other people, I don't want others that I can see to know me.
Somehow, sometimes, I want to talk to someone else, or that I should talk to other people. Staying stuck in the same four walls all day because even seeing people makes me nervous is terrible. But once I try it becomes such a chore I give up. The idea of laughing with someone is so terrifying, that even when I manage to force out a laugh, it is done so in such nervousness that it sounds like I'm losing my mind slowly.
I stopped taking walks in the morning because I hated seeing people.
It has reached a point where I don't want to go outside and just stay inside.
I told them that I hated zongzi and that my mum just brought some over and I just whined to her that I don't eat zongzi (she knows, she's just memeing me). And then he asked me what I was doing and I said "job interview".
And then he said good luck and left.
There really is no type of human like this, huh?
Someone asks you to come out... usually regardless of personal taste, you should accept, especially considering it is nice enough for them to remember you in the first place... especially considering the number of interactions is limited to less than... a total of three times. It's common courtesy.
Why did I reject them?
The idea of possibly speaking to someone for the next few hours along with other people is so depressing, I don't want to think about it. Just speaking to that one person already makes me feel sick. I don't want to speak to another three or four or five or six - that'll just make me actually vomit. I can't sit through an hour of speaking to someone, I can barely stand being around a single person for more than a few days before I get sick of speaking to anyone and want to leave.
Engaging in small talk or just talking has become such a chore to me that my hands shake increasingly more with each ten minutes spent around a group of people. It's gone to a point where when speaking to people, I immediately look down and avoid their eyes because that way they'd likely move away from speaking to me. The only "speaking" I can do with other people is spewing long speeches about random things that I am aware without actually speaking to someone. Reacting and trying to match the correct response to every word is so disgusting that I don't think about it.
Every time I speak to people it feels like I'm slowly pushing my organs out of my mouth or towards my stomach.
I haven't spoken to my roommate more than three or four times... and it's been over a month since I've lived with her. We play the same games, we watch the same anime, we are in the same classes; why can't I speak to her? Because it makes my hands so cold and I have the instinctive reaction to just run away.
People enjoy talking of their troubles, but I can't bring myself to talk about mine. I don't want to connect to anyone around me, and I don't want to know about anyone around me. But it's impossible to live in a self-isolated world, and it's impossible to disconnect from the world in the manner that I want it to happen. I can't even bring myself to be open with my own mum to the point that she points it out.
I can do day-to-day communications, official communication, but once it is required to put the human heart into the mouth and wire it to other people, I don't want to. Or rather, I can't. The "genuine" part of me is misanthropic and the only words I can speak are formality. I don't want to connect with other people, I don't want others that I can see to know me.
Somehow, sometimes, I want to talk to someone else, or that I should talk to other people. Staying stuck in the same four walls all day because even seeing people makes me nervous is terrible. But once I try it becomes such a chore I give up. The idea of laughing with someone is so terrifying, that even when I manage to force out a laugh, it is done so in such nervousness that it sounds like I'm losing my mind slowly.
I stopped taking walks in the morning because I hated seeing people.
It has reached a point where I don't want to go outside and just stay inside.
about question
I just got a reply saying:
"YES!! It's a good thing because thighs are justice!"
After asking if it was ok if I could recognize their favourite characters by thighs alone.
"YES!! It's a good thing because thighs are justice!"
After asking if it was ok if I could recognize their favourite characters by thighs alone.