clementine muffin's question (12)

I have about 2 months of free time on me rn, no studies. I'll be doing some other things obviously, can't really devote all my time to just one thing, but I had a long fic/book idea and I was planning on writing it rn.

Now I have written one short ao3 fic before and uploaded it too, but this plot idea I have does deserve a drawn out fic/book thing with substantial plot. I watched some youtube tutorials on how to write something like this, and it looks daunting there, people are spending months researching and taking physical notes filling up multiple diaries, seems like too much work for me to be able to accomplish in the time I have.

Is it actually like this though or do these youtubers make it look unattainable on purpose? Anyone who had any experience writing something with more than a few thousand words please help me out here

(also idk if this info helps but i was never a writing kid, if we had to do any sort of creative writing that was for fun and wasn't a part of the curriculum, I either made my mom write it or opted out. I really only got into writing recently because I started reading so much on ao3)

queer manga (bl, gl, non-binary, trans idc just having queer characters), no gore, smut optional, nothing too extreme or dead dove. pls rec me something i need to read something interesting

do you ever just find new pieces of evidence that make you realise that actually you weren't the person being bullied by others unprompted, but you were the instigator who made the first offence by having made fun of someone without even realising it?

i used to be a good student. then medical entrance exam preparation started in grade 11, and it's been a downwards hill ever since. im currently in my drop year, still preparing for this goddamn exam, and I'm tired of literally the same syllabus over and over and over again. seriously this is so fucking frustrating. everyone around me keeps saying how they think im a sincere student and how much they believe in me, my marks haven't even gotten better at the tests im giving at the institutes preparing me for this exam. my marks have only gone lower since the past few months, I've lost all hope of cracking this exam, and i just wanna get this all over with already.

i know i have other options. i know people can succeed even by taking these other option paths. and this year, if i don't clear these exams, well obviously I'll have to select one of these other options. which also have entrance exams for them, which i don't even know if I'll be able to clear anymore. my self confidence it at an all time low.

i just wish people stopped telling me they believe in me, and just give me the fucking truth, that I can't make it, because frankly speaking, I'm never gonna be able to believe in myself anymore after almost 3 years of gruelling, hard work giving me this meagre marks. every exam i give, the marks are absolutely abysmal. to the point where i think the teachers at my coaching institute have probably given up on me too. but like, someone please just say it to my face so that i can suffer through the five stages of grief and then move on from this impossible dream of mine to crack this exam already.

Venom: the last dance is in theatres for the last day today here. And I'm a marvel fan. Heretic is out in 9 days.

im a fan of both the mcu and a24 horror movies so much, which one should i go watch?? i won't go and watch both because i have limited money left

(a little context- in my country they always unnecessarily insert an intermission even in movies without one. so it's gonna ruin the continuity of a horror movie more.
also, i will watch both. if i go watch one, I'll watch the other on streaming services later anyways)

I did something embarrassing once in high school and it just makes me feel so guilty for no reason.
people used to talk about crushes all the time back then, I had none because im aro-spec (which i didn't know back then). so, everytime one of my friends asked me, i lied. lied to 3 of my friends, made up non existent crushes on the first guy friend that came to mind.
I'm no longer in contact with 2 of the friends i lied to, and 2 of the guy friends i lied about. but my sibling is still friends with one of those guy friends, and whenever we meet i feel so guilty about having lied on bro's name like that
it also doesn't help that I'm lesbian, so all of that was just comphet.

have any of you guys done something similar? maybe because of comphet, maybe because of fomo, i just wanna know because i know no other person who's had to lie about this

what does "ts pmo icl" mean?? i see people on the forums using it a lot, and I'm barely online anywhere else to know what tf this is supposed to mean. i tried googling but something very unrelated is coming up (unless ts really means total solids)

I keep seeing a popular opinion on twitter saying Bibi is bisexual, but I feel like she's more lesbian. Bibi's crush on Peter feels a bit like comphet to me, but maybe my perspective is flawed here because I'm not attracted to males and have experienced eerily similar comphet in my life. Could y'all share your opinions, do you think she's bi or lesbian?

(also i know it doesn't matter to speculate on labels because at the end of the day we're all queer, it's just a fun discussion i wanna have. no hate to bi people btw i just want opinions)

queer mangas/manhwas. not too hardcore stuff, no d€ad dove shit, and no toxic relationships. smut optional, idc.

i wrote some fanfics last year, then forgot about them and left them in the notes app. i just re read one of them and it's so cute i feel like posting it on ao3 but im scared of getting made fun of because idk what if people find it cringe/awkward??? should i post it or not

The most important exam of my life, my medical college entrance exams, are now 9 days away. And I've prepared as much as I can, and am getting decent scores. I'm also pretty burnt out and can feel my brain giving out in the middle of mock exams this week.

So I've decided to just absolutely waste time tomorrow. After my morning exam, I'm gonna go to a restaurant nearby, without telling my parents much, and use the money I keep hidden for emergency purposes. And maybe stop at the closest cheap chain confectionery store branch and buy myself a mid tier brownie. (I'm pretty sure I'm exhausting all my leftover money in just the restaurant tomorrow)

Is this a stupid idea, should I get straight back home and continue studying or execute this plan instead?

(posting this at 4am btw. I'll check in the morning, if the majority consensus says I should go for it, I will fr)

when i watch something which is like, classic 2010s queerbait, i want to read fanfiction of it because obviously. but when i watch shows/movies that were actually queer, it feels kind of disrespectful to the original storyline to just be reading fanfics where they kiss because like- that already happened in the show, I'm satisfied with what the show gave me.

there's so many more fandoms i could be reading ao3 ffs of but I don't because of feeling like this and i just want to be able to read more fanfiction idk