Kio's question (19)

Hardware malfunctions and software malfunctions.
And it's so sad that its so funny.
Like I have fnd and he has epilepsy. I have functional seizures that are like zoning for me. He has full on seizures and absent seizures. Two different things but I texted him bcs hes the only one I knew who would get it.
And he fucking called his issues Hardware malfunctions and software malfunctions.
And it just made me giggle
Like damn if he made jokes like that before I broke up with him we'd be together. No not really but it was funny.

And act all woe around me when I mention I take medication?

Like I mentioned passing-ly to this guy once that "oh sorry, was taking my meds lol" and he acted like I was an in patient at a hospital. Like no? I got tourettes, depression and anemia not fucking cancer.
Like god forbid I be a jolly fellow taking my colourful medication. Gotta have some bitch act like I'm dying or something.
The only thing I'm gonna die of is fucking annoyance

Idk I might be tone deaf to this because I grew up in a family with disabilities and mental health issues who had to pop them pills.
Like I don't see taking meds as a sad thing. I take them, they help, I go on with life. Same with my mother and my sisters

I just don't see the point of acting sad over someone taking medication. If they're not sad about it don't be sad for them???

I've liked this person for two years. Its been an on and off sort of crush and I'm honestly confused. They just told me they have feeling for this girl they've met recently and I'm sad but happy for them. I know that I can't stop them falling in love with someone yet I can't stop myself from loving them. For two years I've watched them grow as a person and they've watched me grow. I've seen them at their worst, at their best while them watching me. I think I've loved them from the start yet confused at my feelings. I want to tell them how I feel yet I also don't. I want more yet I love what we have and don't want to ruin it. Whether or not they get with someone is none of my business as all I care for is their happiness but deep down I just want them to like me as I love them. I want to not feel like this I want to just find someone else I just want to get over it and yet I can't. Idk honest. I just want to get over it and try and be happy for them knowing its painful for me to watch them be happy and it not be me who they're happy with

Honestly I never knew I could love a human being this much after him. Shes my eveything. Shes my world, my anchor, my life and my best friend. Shes eveything to me. Like words will not being to describe on how much I love her. I genuinely can't see myself in life without her. I actually can't believe I found someone in this lifetime like her. I want her to see the best of me and I want to be better for her. I have never felt so comfortable around anyone like this in a long time and I honestly just love her. The thought of losing her breaks me and the thought of her not being here kills me. Shes the best. I love her. She's my best friend and I love her

Like share them. Or random mangago.me experiences that were funny and/or crazy

Miku expo made me realise I was putting my bf before myself in our relationship. They're genuinely a good person but never really took the time to understand me. My best friend, sister, mother and random people on the Internet keep telling me to crash out of that relationship but idk. Cause, I've had worse exes (The liquid shit guy) but this guy is genuinely making me sad and just leaving me on read when I try to talk things out and try to covey how I'm feeling. I'm always there for them but they're never there for me. God being gay is difficult

Because for me I've always pirated stuff. Growing up it was a common practice to know how to get things cheap and easy as I came from a poor home.
And its shocking to me that nobody knows how to NOT talk about piracy.
You mention you pirate stuff? That's OK.
You legit in detail explain how you pirate stuff on socials? NOT OK. NOT EVEN IN THE SLIGHTEST.

Like my sister spent 4 hours coding and such to pirate adobe products when she was 14. Did she share that online? no. Because although my sister might be an idiot half the time, she knows better.

Like I actively pirate games. Why? I'm a college student. Take a guess. And I will NEVER share online how I pirate my stuff. I will share by word of mouth because my friend helped me learn how to pirate games like they did.
My sister also shared her sites and things she used to pirate stuff. But never online.

So remeber. Gatekeeping is AMAZING if you do it online. Especially for piracy and piracy sites.
You can ALWAYS share by word of mouth to people who you trust and you know won't fucking post it on socials

I'm actually wondering this right now. How do people get piss kinks? Do you smell piss and say 'ahh yes, I am now horny' or some shit. I don't know man. Some one gotta tell me how people find out they got a piss kink.

Like absolutely crazy lore.
For me my main contenders for wild lore is the
1. Photo evidence of my uncle with specific people I legally can not mention but just know it included the (fairly recent) Republic of Ireland "war"
2. The forced marriages in Iran and how me and my gang gang are "promised goods"
3. The whole Wikipedia page of the crime family that my racist uncle is apart of
4. The same uncle and his father accidentally causing a prison escape
5. RCTA Biological mother. Wish I was lying. Unironically the race being changed to an asian one.
6. The fact that my dads (not Biological dad) brother was killed and then made his widowed wife marry my dad and take on their kids.
7. My aunt faked being homeless to score H (scag or any other street word). She then got kicked out the homeless people parking lot because she was in fact, not homeless
8. My racist uncle planning to rob my bio mom and her new family pt2 at gun point and my mum telling her that but she didn't believe her until my other uncle got out of prison and said "Yeah gang gang he was actually gonna do that"
9. The fucking documentary the crime family end has. That my mum used to show me instead of grounding me. Which is very very funny to me.
10. My bio mom faked being kidnapped.

And honourable mentions of not cool lore but funny facts
1. Bio mom talked to me, my sister, my mum (also her mum Biologically) and my half brother on how she would in a heart beat sell said half brother to Diddy.
2. My aunt with munchausen got extremely jealous of my sisters having bpd and npd that she tried to fake DID. She also manifested cancer but thats more sad then funny.
3. My sister threatening our bio mom. "If you don't tell the kids on how we are actually your bio kids I will tell them and mention about all the fucked up shit" as bio mom had been saying for like 12-13 ish years that me and gang gang were "cousins".
4. The rumour that went around the family that I was an affair baby. To quote my bio moms husband "Kio looks a bit TOO asian." As my sister is more white passing.

So today my gf tried to exuse drunk driving/Drinking while driving and I just can't. They honestly keep talking about their bad habits infront of my best friend knowing she delt with that shit and almost died from it. My gf has also exused my trauma and acts like they're the only one dealing with shit. I'm honestly so close to dumping their ass cause all they're doing is being negative. Like ffs, its actually not difficult to be happy for me. Like idk, not difficult to tell me "I'm so happy for you". Like Idk, its just horrible on how they act like they can say shit and not get backlash from it.

Also they get mad when people say "I'm going to jump off a cliff" but legit say shit about their alcoholism to my best friend who almost fucking died from it.
Legit don't fucking know why I'm posting this here but legit just needed to rant

I can never remember how my biological father looked. I had never met him and would never want to meet him after the forced marriages, the beating of my sisters and my bio mom.
He was a rapist and a pedophile.
But I never knew his face. My older sister remembers but I don't, I was too young ig.
But I don't look too similar to my older sisters. I got asked if I was adopted, which I was but me and my sisters were fully related and adopted by our mum who is biologically our material grandmother.

I don't look like my sisters and I don't have a close resemblance to my biological mother the way my sisters do. I worry I hold his face. The face of a rapist. I wonder maybe it was because of that face I could never be loved and cared for by my bio mother.
Do I hold the face of a rapist, is that why I was left on my mothers doorstep, the reason she couldn't bond with me. The reason she had neglected me even when he had gone.

But even then. Did she have the right to beat my sisters when they were only but babies themselves. To be a child conceived out of pain and rape is something I can only now realise and try and come to terms with.
My half siblings were born out of love and want. And I was just promised goods to be sold in iran.

To the tourettes fakers.
I personally see it as a win win

Like you now can have the attention and I can have a not sore neck

Like I have been asked by bitches like "Hey man can you stop that" no the fuck I can not.
Like my SISTER who I've lived with ALL MY LIFE who KNOWS I got them tics told me "Hey can you like stop :/"

Like do we got collectors here? Could be anything you collect fr.
Like I collect clowns. I own a lot of clowns and collected them for a few years now. I've got clown shot glasses, clown dolls, clown ornaments, stolen circus poster's and clown 3d printed frogs, clown tea pots, clown jewellery, clown bjd dolls, and many clown/circus themed bits and bobs that I've obtained

Honestly so happy I'm single right now. Genuinely should have seen the signs in the beginning and now that we're over they've become 10x worse and honestly I'm so glad I dipped while it wasn't too serious. Like kinda sad about it as I did really like them and saw myself in the future with them but yk. What makes me mad though is that they're lying about me. They're lying about how I am as a person. There's a lot of stuff they're lying about and all of it is really bad but what hits home is that I'm "pro ana." It actually made me cry cause they didn't meet me at my worse, they never watched me recover from an eating disorder that could've killed me. Even with my anorexia I've never been pro ana as I've never promoted eating disorders and always try and help others who have them. But honestly this isn't a surprise from them as they've lied about a bunch of other stuff, the main thing the lied about was their mothet dying so

Wanted to rant about this cause honestly my ex pisses me off, they're a spoilt bitch who can never be happy for others and I'm glad I left them to find someone who will actually love me

BRO I LEGIT JUST FOUND OUT MY BEST FRIEND USES THIS FUCKING SITE. ACTUALLY PISSING MYSELF LAUGHING. Better fucking respond to this love you girlll

Like half these mfs look like a pro ana twitter user.
Like they be taking these comically large dicks and honestly they should have died already.

Like they be looking like if they fell on the floor they'd break 50 diffrent bones and have multiple rib fractures.

Like there is being skinny and there is looking like they're gonna go into heart failure because they don't look like they eat.

Me personally I would not because yes with a lot of money I could go on a haul. But then I'd have HIM with me again and I swear to god. Like it was a cinderella kinda shit where I was the broke ass one and he hated poor people.

Can be sweet stuff or a good meal

Current scrans for me rn are pandan cake which is BANGING. Legit gonna roll my fatass to get it at this little Chinese bakery. And chicken Katsu curry.
I don't eat meat 99.9% of the time but this one place does a MEAN KATSU and its so good.

Do you have any? What kind? Do you want any or any more? If you got tattoos share them gang.

I currently only have a septum and an eyebrow and I'm planning on a lip one soon. I'm also planning on getting some new tattoos as I've only got a silly little clown one on my wrist