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me and a friend wanna create one

Sorry, i hate myself so much that id rather get a new body or reincarnate. This is a rant about myself and i just wanna exercise mt thumbs and inner thoughts.

Inside, im a manipulative bitch. I get on wveryone good side and then use them to my advantage. I borrow way too much shit that i almost never return. Im not organized. Im way too shy around people and i am antisocial irl. I can never form words correctly so I always sound like a dumbass. I need more practice having a conversation because i never can find times that match with even my family's schedule. I want to blame them for not caring, but it seems j didnt care about myself first.

I have acne and acne scars everywhere. I have sensitive, dry, itchy skin that hates water, but loves bad stuff apparently. I have enlarged pores that are never not visible (and it sucks cus I have trypophobia) and a discolored scar patch under my lip that looks like a failed goatee or a permanent shadow, and it wont go away.

I have too much testosterone, so I grow a faint but visible mustache and my natural talking voice clocks in at D#3/Eb3 (anyone who wanna hear the pitch:https://youtu.be/xpiaxQcUTiU). So im always mistaken for a dude.

My face is not symmetrical and it always looks like im in disgust when i see pictures of me talking or smiling. I cant smile cus my teeth have a gap. When i did smile genuinely and widely at my graduation, my grad partner said to smile. Haha.... i cant smile even. I have short face syndrome where my philantrum is short (i can tkuch my tongue to the tip of my nose). My lips are big and asymmetrical thanks to my asymmetrical jaw. Hoping mewing helps it.

My skin is tan. Dark enough to not fit in with the caucasians, light enough to not fit in with dark skinned people. Im mixed black and white but i dont fit in with either group because both groups find me disgusting or my experiences dont matter cus my skin isnt dark or light enough. Yes ppl told me that.

My fashion sense is shit. I dont have enougb money to buy clothes that I want but the clothes my mom gets me are wacky or past their time. I wish i could just get blazers and black pants everyday, but i have no money. I have no skills.

No wonder people dont like me. Lmao. This is why i have no motivation to do anything. My hygiene was pretty bad but its getting back to normal, but my sleep is still wack.

People told me a couple days ago after a speech that I have matured and i turned out beautiful. But you knkw what? Those were empty words. They couldnt even look at me when they were saying it— i watched. Some even microshook their head when they said it.

I fucking hate myawlf and my body. I want a dermatologist but im too fucking poor and skilless to get a job.

What a loop and bind im in. Haha.

Also pls, i dont need your pity comments unless you are willing to help me correct this shit. Ive heard it all my life but my brain deflects your forced kindness.

transmisia is probably a better term for hate than -phobic which implies fear or severe anger due to fear.

lets be real, these people do not fear people who are transitioning or have transitioned, they just hate them and think their existence is inferior to theirs. If they were truly afraid of them, they would be shaking in their boots, afraid to even speak out, but avoid them like the plague. But no, these "transphobes" are coming out strongly on the matter with confidence and stride. -misia describes severe hate toward something. My misophonia and arachnaphobia comes from two different places...
Plus im lazy af and transmisia is 1 letter shorter than transphobia

Second why are we so interested in calling them out instead of explaining things normally and calmly. this is the pacifist in me so sorry. But unless you have a military and strong government rule, nobody gives a shit about how much you curse and scream on the internet. It is hard convincing people by doing that irl anyways. People are natural truth seekers, but are also selfish/too kind and lie. Most will be swayed by presenting facts and being polite in the face of hate and anger. but name calling, fear mongering, giving someone's account link out on a call put post for ease of access to hurt someone instead of making those problematic people go find the account themselves (reducing the amount of hate cus lazy af ppl), screaming in caps, gatekeeping, etc. — since when has that ever convinced you to say, "wow, I was wrong"? Probably made you say, "wow, these people are nutjobs."

i ned mems (￣ε(#￣)Σ

I want to make drawing and music my main focus since they are my only talents after all...

I want to create beautoful art pieces that people will buy, but I am totally out of the loop when it comes to knowing what people like (i cannot draw fan art, btw).

So... i have a challenge for yall. Answer 1 of 6 questions!! U dont need to answer all, but it would be appreciated

1. Can you combine THREE amazing emojis that inspire you?

2. What two color pairs do you love the most (for me, purple and gold)?

3.What holidays are you going to celebrate this year aside from the usual national holidays?

4. What inspirational quote, person, or thing has motivated you recently?

5. Link me to your favorite or most interesting two art pieces! Can be on deviantart or a famous renaissance piece, it can even be from prehistoric times.

6. What would you be tempted to buy on a t-shirt, blanket, dress, card, or mug?

Thank u all

The three most common answers: Love and affection

Common answers for you providing in the relationship: No need or affection.

https://www.mangago.me/thing/about/504992/?filter=hot

Allow me to give you a lecture. If you don't care or didnt answer seriously, then please leave because this is very serious.

Relatioships built solely on love and affection will die out. Relationships built on those two without an plans will also die out. You need to seriously think about what you want and what you will give in a relationship. It isn't money, and in most functional relationships, money and sex aren't the main factor. Some people named off what they wanted, but didn't even try to talk about what they would give in a relationship. And when they did, their mind immediately went to money and their partner asking them to provide something = greed. It is not greedy of your partner to ask something of you, whether it be a favor or a nice time out. Even if it was money, try to examine the motives before calling them greedy. Do you think of yourself as greedy when you ask for something?

Sure, money and sometimes sex are integral for continue living, but have you considered the following:

>> giving your time, your emotional support, encouragement, and advice & knowledge
>> physically supporting ie. massage, holding hands, touching in general that isn't sex (caressing, hugging, hairdressing, bathing together)
>> learning about other perspectives and compromising, immense patience, doing reasonable favors for your partner, expanding your boundaries for your partner (for example, going to outings when youre antisocial, reading with them when you're not much of a book reader, going outside when you're a hardcore gamer [lol]).
>> Willingness to communicate and ask questions, but also knowing when not to pry, having conversations in general, sensitivity and care toward the partner whether it be mentally or physically

Personally, I think this is a great start for a relationship. Obviously people in a relationship need to find what exactly works for them in their lifetime, but knowing full well what you can offer and what you expect in a relationship is integral. Notice how there was no mention of financial status or appearance and stature.

This is not the slave and the master. This is not a duchess and servant relationship. You are not a queen in a two-person relationship unless you are the Pro Domme (dominatrix) or Pro Dom in a BDSM relationship. You two are equals, different in other ways but adding up to be of equal importance and significance. Therefore you should expect to recieve but also to give.

Long lasting and fulfilling relationships are built on sacrifice, commitment, and kindness. If you are comfortable making a small change or a huge sacrifice for a long-term (hopefully) warm reality, then you are of a great track to having a supportive partner.

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It's been weighing on me since a few days ago, ao I'd really like to know so I can ammend my thoughts. There is a TL;DR at the bottom but pls read the paragraph after this for a but of context.

Someone jokingly said they wanted to oppress all "cishets" and make heterophobia real with a petition. This is cus some dumbass on tik tok wrote a bunch of transphobic (rather transmisia, they arent fearful or angry cus of fear) shit.

I know it was a joke, but i still said, "nah, im cis so im good. Dont lump us all together [with this idiot tiktoker], thanks." It wasnt that exact wording, but i declined and said not to make one idiot the face of a group and make it a stereotype.

Well some person, who I wasnt even talking to nor have i seen before said, "I'm cis too, read the room jesus christ. I bet youre one of the "not all men" mfs", and then another person who i never seen before also said, "right stfu with that "not all cis" bullshit.

First, I want to know how im suppoed to know if you're cis or not by looking at some reply you made. I need to know your superpower so I dont offend anyone else.

I replied to the first person (not OP) who replied to me and I told em that yeah, I was. I also added that I'm also:
>> Not all men are ______ (if i have to choose a word now, it'd probably be abusers)

>> Not all women are _______ (if i had to choose a word now, it'd probably be sluts or looking for sex, definitely not all.)

>>Not all [people who are bisexual]* cheat (because that is somehow a misconception on tik tok that all bisexual people HAVE to cheat which is BULLSHIT.)

>> not all [people whe are homosexual]* are lusting after you (ie. Just meeting eyes means they wanna do you. Like no, thats wrong).

>> not all [insert group] are doing [harmful, divisive stereotype].

I also said:
"Im all for taking down stereotypes, but perhaps stop imposing them on groups that these fucktards on tik tok belong to. I would agree to this post [ie. Oppress cis post] if they didnt put all." Meaning im ok with shaming these weird people who thing it's okay to be transphobic until they come to their realization that they need to stop trying to dictate people's lives (maybe not oppressing them tho).

People CONSTANTLY have stereotypes about races, ethnicities, ideas, groups, and mentalities. When they hate a group, they look to a minority of weirdos to justify their stereotype and opinion. But when it comes to groups they belong to, they want to destroy and shame anyone who makes light or has a stereotype of them.

When someone does wrong and belongs to a group, I'm ALL for shaming them. But please dont paint them as the figure head of a group to justify your hate. Even in this situation, plenty of cis people support people who are trans. Cisgender people are those who correspond with their biological sex— there are PLENTY of these people in the world. You can look to the US government for that or for really any humans rights groups. Maybe even you or your friends are cis. To say all cis people are shit is like saying all trans peolle are shit. It makes you no better than the group you demonize because you engage in the SAME BEHAVIORRR!!!

So allow me to ask— what's wrong with saying "not all ____ do ____?"
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TL;DR
People said I need to get outta here with the "not all cis bullshit" i spouted. They accused me of being "not all men" supporter, and they were right, but I also support not all women, bisexual, homosexual, etc [insert group] is doing [harmful stereotype]. More context above. Stereotypes in general are usually harmful and really not useful at all.

I want to know why saying not all _____ do ____ is so bad?

Short term?
Long term?
What do you offer in a relationship, and you ask your partner what they want in a relationship, too?

Or picrew links. Im bored and want to draw. Other artists, new and old are welcome to draw them, too.

https://picrew.me/image_maker/1031662