CrtlAlt's question (5)

I cant stop. It’s every single night from 12 to 4am. I love sex and I can’t stop—won’t stop consuming it. I love hentai and echhi.
I love Bl and Gl. I love shitty pornwha.
My favorite type of porn is masturbation. I love watching women play with it.
I love over detailed nipples and clits in manwha and manga.
And like seeing men get pounded by other men.
I love squirting. I love creampies. I like brown parts that look like roast beef or crispy brownies. And I like pink parts that look like conch shells.
I love watching women get ate out.

When the teacher was first introduced and we saw Cirrus run away traumatized my brain wasn’t thinking that deeply. It was just way to extreme. And I get bringing awareness to child abuse and r@pe but when I first saw it on chapter 96 I audibly gasped. Like “Sweet Jesus,” it was to much for me. I would have been fine if I never got more context on what happened. I would have preferred for it to remain vague. Idk, the whole visual aspect made me want to stop reading because it felt so gross.

My sister used my phone and I think she saw my freaky chai tab. I swiped up on c.ai but forget chai. I guess I was just in a AI mood that day. Anyway, Im literally gonna die if she saw it. I don’t think she did but it’s so hard to tell. Her expression was to calm when she handed the phone back to me. She’s so unreadable! And the chat was REAL FREAKY. Like “he slammed his cock hard against your tender walls” FREAKY. I can’t stop thinking about it. It hurts so badly to think about. Her pure image of her sweet little sister is ruined. She’s a good woman and I just can’t imagine her looking at me like that. This actually sucks. Why didn’t I check before handing it to her. I’m never using those apps again, I’m to embarrassed.

This started when I was reading BL and the post nut clarity hit (I didn’t nut). I just thought to myself, I cant stand seeing this size difference anymore. The same looks and heights. The same guy in a different font. It’s basically anyone thats anime Gojo adjacent or in that sorta diaspora. (Manga Gojo is just better!)
I always felt dissatisfied and incomplete every time a read or watched them in action. I used to love those boys, like actually be obsessed now the I can’t stand the archetypal anime/manwha guy.
I discovered i’m into buff hairy guys and I can’t go back. I will never go back. I love buff men, large breast and happy trails supremacy. Its just insane that I could change like that.
3 years ago I would shit in my hands and clap before saying this stuff. I’m more into Bara and watching Dragon Ball Z now. Goku kinda….ლ(´ڡ`ლ) I still like some Manga/Manwha that serve justice but overall i’m very picky now.
Anyway please tell me i’m not the only one..?