bishounensupremacy's question (14)

ok so i haven't had a crush in the past 2 years or so it's basically my life fuel i can't do shit without the high of being in love to get me thru it i only managed to graduate high school bc i had a crush on someone there i dont even have the motivation to touch grass rn

ik it sounds overdramatic but the girls who get it will get it i urgently need to fall in love w someone i dont even care who it is. i tried talking to ppl but i just cant feel anything have any of yall forced yourselves and succeeded? any tips or am i gonna have to wait for it to happen naturally

i read male gaze hentai, i see detailed drawings of fully naked girls blushing crossing their eyes screaming out and everything. they barely show the guy and if they do he's always fully clothed and expressionless

im like "ah makes sense this is for straight guys" i try reading smut written by straight women thinking it would be the complete opposite. its literally the same thing. they dont even bother drawing men's nipples

like im not some porn addict but it makes me super confused. do women just not find men's bodies attractive? they have no problem sexualizing men in yaoi so why not in straight romance?

so ive been telling my friend of 3 years literally everything about this guy i had a crush on we were in the same friend group but she didnt really support it cause she thought he was a creep

after almost half a year of having a crush on him i noticed they were getting closer. whenever i saw them together i could literally feel my blood boiling but thought "eh theyre just friends maybe she had a change of heart"

eventually found out they started dating when i still had feelings for him. cut off all ties with her obviously.

the weird thing is even though i have absolutely zero interest left in him now i've become obsessed with her. i literally check her social media daily, cry to our photos together, listen to the songs she used to like. i have the number of her followers on all social media memorized and i regularly check if she liked something. ive seen her in my dreams at least twice every week

i mean i feel like im acting like a heartbroken ex but not for the right person????

do you guys mourn past friendships this intensely or like is this not normal

middle school me rly thought she could fix kanato from diabolik lovers like i was full on ready to risk getting stabbed w a fork i'm ashamed to admit that show shaped my personality in ways i cant describe

i need to get into a fandom badly so life feels worth living again
preferably one with a lot of canon and fan content so i can read fanfics and stuff but all is accepted if you feel like its worth recommending
anime/manga/TV doesn't matter

when someone tells me something i cant articulate a reply without staring into space a minimum of 3 secs sometimes i forget what im about to say mid sentence im literally if internet explorer was a 20 yo girl how tf do you solve this

why is queerbait media more fun and better written than actual representation all my favorite ships end up in hetero relationships but i cant stop just free me already

"mangago users are all losers" "yall are a bunch of pedos and creeps" "%99 of mangago users are dumb and weird and miserable" when are people gonna stop acting like they're the only decent person on the site lmao we know you're here to read porn and be a hater you can drop the act

whenever someone makes a weird ass generalization and 'calls out' other users they're always the top comment too you would think this would make them realize they're not the only one who thinks they're the token 'good mangago user' but no. they love to act like the 2 ragebait accounts they saw represent the whole site like chill im just here to read and share my silly thoughts

whenever i go out i literally have to put on eyeliner, mascara, foundation, eyeshadow, blush, highlighter, lip tint and gloss, choose an outfit (cant be the same one as yesterday or the day before, cant be too slutty or modest), wear accessories, straighten my hair or do a curly routine (both of which will take over half an hour) and i still feel like im not pretty enough

men will literally put on an oversized shirt + cargo pants (bonus points if they brush their teeth and dont smell like rotten eggs) and ppl will declare them a fashion icon i literally cant rn

what are the qualities you look for in FL's? any pet peeves or requirements?

personally my favorite type of fl is one who starts off naive and weak but learns fo be independent as the story goes on (like yona from yotd or psyche from your throne)

i hate hate hate it when theyre incredibly dense and the story pretends like that side of them is supposed to be charming. the "the fact that im not aware of my appeal is my appeal" type. that katarina bitch gave me anger issues

i once got sexually harassed by a building in my dream. i was inside it and it was like tentacle corn but with bricks instead of tentacles

"well its not actually romance so-" i know.

i think a mixture of the two is the most interesting but i'm leaning towards friends to lovers bc the pda codependency and pining always gets me lmao what do yall think?

saw someone on tiktok saying everyone goes through this at least once before they become an adult jst wondering