about question
okey... literally happened to me today....and i was like froze at the instant.
there was gathering of our group which i couldn't participate ...and at the night our gc had a big discussion how it was. And my bestie said they all watched porn together ...honestly i was shocked...ngl .irl i have a strict dad like figure among our clumsy group. they always call me dad even in public...so i had used to it by now even tho i hated it at first(tbh everyone has a role...lol)
and ive like a clean image(?!) irl...
(like a model student/teenager/caring friend ...this is something my friends told me....damn i feel guilty now)
so i really didn't expect them to say that to me...i didn't really said anything...and ofc i would be uncomfortable to watch porn with someone else(being a bi on top of that) and if i was there i would be mad and never let them watch it...and i am sure they will listen to me anyways(well that's how me and my are)
the problem is i couldn't react in any way when my friends told that they were watching porn together..... honestly i was confused, and feeling a horrible guilt, cuz i couldn't honest with my friends...and they also notice that...they said like.."wow why is dad so calm, i thought we would get nagged all night"....AND THAT HIT ME REALLY HARD...i was lost of words for a second...and when i somehow managed to barely handle it, the next question strikes "YOU DON'T WATCH PORN?"...and it got me panicked again...more than panicked i was feeling guilty cuz i couldn't honest to them ...like so much that i thought that i should quit reading yaoi/yuri/hentai
in shortly....i read yaoi/yuri/mature comics....so its too much to say I've never watched porn right? and yet i cant casually bring up yaoi or yuri in discussion where none of them are aware of this genre
so situation like this what you'll likely to do?
there was gathering of our group which i couldn't participate ...and at the night our gc had a big discussion how it was. And my bestie said they all watched porn together ...honestly i was shocked...ngl .irl i have a strict dad like figure among our clumsy group. they always call me dad even in public...so i had used to it by now even tho i hated it at first(tbh everyone has a role...lol)
and ive like a clean image(?!) irl...
(like a model student/teenager/caring friend ...this is something my friends told me....damn i feel guilty now)
so i really didn't expect them to say that to me...i didn't really said anything...and ofc i would be uncomfortable to watch porn with someone else(being a bi on top of that) and if i was there i would be mad and never let them watch it...and i am sure they will listen to me anyways(well that's how me and my are)
the problem is i couldn't react in any way when my friends told that they were watching porn together..... honestly i was confused, and feeling a horrible guilt, cuz i couldn't honest with my friends...and they also notice that...they said like.."wow why is dad so calm, i thought we would get nagged all night"....AND THAT HIT ME REALLY HARD...i was lost of words for a second...and when i somehow managed to barely handle it, the next question strikes "YOU DON'T WATCH PORN?"...and it got me panicked again...more than panicked i was feeling guilty cuz i couldn't honest to them ...like so much that i thought that i should quit reading yaoi/yuri/hentai
in shortly....i read yaoi/yuri/mature comics....so its too much to say I've never watched porn right? and yet i cant casually bring up yaoi or yuri in discussion where none of them are aware of this genre
so situation like this what you'll likely to do?