sakurakou's question (4)

plz clarify if you straight or gay/lesbain , and if you girl or boy when you answer .

and did you tell your family you into yaoi ? did they mistake you being gay/lesbain cuz of it ?

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my answer : I don't tell my family cuz they religious , but when I tell straight guys online that I like yaoi they think I am lesbain cuz of it or bi , I am straight , when I tell gayguys some them accuss me of being fetishizing gays BUT this discussion for another day , anyway I never felt like I want to top straight or even any type man in any way and I am not into anal sex in all it form whether I peg the man or him doing it to me , I am straight but people think cuz I like BL and yaoi that I am gay/lesbain which is confusing to me like where is the connection between my own sexuality and what I like to read （￣へ￣）.


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share your own stories would like to read them ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~

Their are people on twitter who say yaoi is fetishizing of gay couples ..
I been reading yaoi for long time and I have never disrespect or fetishize any gay people in real life , I may have ship some kpop idols or anime characters but everyone else did it .. to me I like yaoi and I don't even know why it just make me happy when I read it .. so what wrong with that ?

Why can't straight girls like and read yaoi ? How should I respond to those accusations made by those people ?

Right or wrong

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Also my own opinion on matter + story about me .
I think some fetish are deeply rooted of self hate & sexual trauma ..

First I am virgin , I have never molested or raped anyone , I am straight but I hate heterosexual porn and heterosex in general and thing female bodies are disgusting .. I am female myself and hate my own body, I been sexually harassed and when I told my mom she slapped me and said cuz I dress like wh*re , I was 15yr at that time and had not even had my period yet , I was late bloomer so my breasts and body was still that of child eventhought other girls in my class had started to wear bras and wear hijab .. I didn't cuz I was in swimming team and wearing hijab meant I had to quit swimming ..

Anyway back to the main story .. about rape fetish , I don't want to rape men but I enjoy reading mangas that have small seme huge seme being pent down and forced by smallet looking guy .. I tried to think it was just preference but I think it connected to my trauma of sexually harassed .. I don't even like men in real life and think they disgusting but when I think of huge man who is powerful getting reduced to tears and being dominated by smaller uke looking seme .. this just turn me on .


I know people will say I am abnormal and should get help .. but this something I keep deep inside my heart .. I never told anyone about , the funny thing is when I see men on internet who want mistress and women to dominate them , I feel repulsive , I am not sadistic or have pleasure in dominating men , I just want to see cute seme dominate manly delinquent bully uke.

This my story

I think I am addicted , I spend all day just reading mangas especially yaoi

I feel like I am messing out in life cuz I spend too much time online

I tried so many times to quite reading yaoi deleted all my mangas but it not last long and I come back stronger then before .

manga is only thing that make me feel happy , I tried to find healthy hobbies but I just get bored .

so any advices on how to quite yaoi