about i need help
TLDR at bottom
Basically during freshman year, there was this junior in my class that I really liked. Because of the pandemic, I wasn't able to get any of his details other than his name. this year he is now a senior. obviously a problem as he is gonna graduate soon. Thing is my high school is on a hybrid schedule, I'm day 2 and I don't even know what day he is, I'm not even sure if he's actually going to school and is doing online instead. During the pandemic I was able to find his messenger but I didn't do anything bc I was scared at the time. Now I think I'm ready but what a coincidence, his messenger profiles deleted (or private) ( ￣へ￣ ). Literally only other way I can think of contacting him is messaging him through our school emails. Ik how dumb and stupid and cringey that is and what a weirdo id be doing that, but man I really like this guy. I need some advice idk what to do, its getting close to the end of the year which means when he graduates as a senior, his school account will forever be closed.
TLDR: I really like this guy but I only have one desperate means of reaching him, what should I do ?? Also hearing what y'all would do will be helpful as well (▰˘◡˘▰)
Basically during freshman year, there was this junior in my class that I really liked. Because of the pandemic, I wasn't able to get any of his details other than his name. this year he is now a senior. obviously a problem as he is gonna graduate soon. Thing is my high school is on a hybrid schedule, I'm day 2 and I don't even know what day he is, I'm not even sure if he's actually going to school and is doing online instead. During the pandemic I was able to find his messenger but I didn't do anything bc I was scared at the time. Now I think I'm ready but what a coincidence, his messenger profiles deleted (or private) ( ￣へ￣ ). Literally only other way I can think of contacting him is messaging him through our school emails. Ik how dumb and stupid and cringey that is and what a weirdo id be doing that, but man I really like this guy. I need some advice idk what to do, its getting close to the end of the year which means when he graduates as a senior, his school account will forever be closed.
TLDR: I really like this guy but I only have one desperate means of reaching him, what should I do ?? Also hearing what y'all would do will be helpful as well (▰˘◡˘▰)
about i need help
TLDR at the bottom
Ok first of all just to point out, I’d always have these little arguments about his caringness towards our friendship, or simply what felt like a lack of care. Sometimes I’d feel like he didn’t care, but part of me felt like I’d stir something up just because I want a reaction out of it, something that’d make me feel special or something that’d justified our friendship. But the final straw was last year. Last year instead of his caringness that I felt like was a problem, this time I felt like how much effort he gave into our friendship was a problem. Then again, in the back of my head I feel like am I doing this because I want him to say something that’d make me feel wanted by him? One night we had one of these arguments and it ended with him saying I was the negativity. I didn’t think much of it then but afterwards, and how he probably was right. So as an impulsive response, I said bye without knowing what I just did. He said the same. Some months go by and everyday I missed him. Getting some of my friends advice I would text him wanting closure or something like that. I don’t really remember the texts but one thing for sure I remember was telling him I was gay for him and had a crush for him a while now. I thought my confession would justify my actions and he would understand. I would never know though. I ended the conversation asking if we can talk the next day irl. I waited the whole week because of how shy I was. But once I asked him he just said he’s leaving and left. I felt low and gave up. That was the last time we talked. It’d been 7 or 8 months since then and I still miss him. Idk why but rn I don’t want him back as my crush but as a friend. And I don’t know how to do it. I don’t even know how he’d even feel.
TLDR: I’m missing my friend that I had a crush on but the thing is we ended our friendship a while ago.
Any advice would help. And feel free to ask questions. It’s my first time asking advice like this (⌒▽⌒)
Ok first of all just to point out, I’d always have these little arguments about his caringness towards our friendship, or simply what felt like a lack of care. Sometimes I’d feel like he didn’t care, but part of me felt like I’d stir something up just because I want a reaction out of it, something that’d make me feel special or something that’d justified our friendship. But the final straw was last year. Last year instead of his caringness that I felt like was a problem, this time I felt like how much effort he gave into our friendship was a problem. Then again, in the back of my head I feel like am I doing this because I want him to say something that’d make me feel wanted by him? One night we had one of these arguments and it ended with him saying I was the negativity. I didn’t think much of it then but afterwards, and how he probably was right. So as an impulsive response, I said bye without knowing what I just did. He said the same. Some months go by and everyday I missed him. Getting some of my friends advice I would text him wanting closure or something like that. I don’t really remember the texts but one thing for sure I remember was telling him I was gay for him and had a crush for him a while now. I thought my confession would justify my actions and he would understand. I would never know though. I ended the conversation asking if we can talk the next day irl. I waited the whole week because of how shy I was. But once I asked him he just said he’s leaving and left. I felt low and gave up. That was the last time we talked. It’d been 7 or 8 months since then and I still miss him. Idk why but rn I don’t want him back as my crush but as a friend. And I don’t know how to do it. I don’t even know how he’d even feel.
TLDR: I’m missing my friend that I had a crush on but the thing is we ended our friendship a while ago.
Any advice would help. And feel free to ask questions. It’s my first time asking advice like this (⌒▽⌒)