fishy's question (3)

alright, i don’t wanna sound like a gatekeeper ,, but this gets me rlly upset.

so, a few months back before the whole quarantine started, i was reading manga i have downloaded on my phone in class and someone peeked over and saw and were like “wow..you’re into that stuff? like weird hentai and cartoons?” and i was like “yea, it’s pretty cool” then the person decided to be even more ignorant and was like “that’s so weird lol you’re into like chinese stuff” like ???? thank god the bell rang and i left bcs i’m pretty sure i’d say something mean.

anyways, flash forward to a few months later and i go on snapchat and see the same person posting a bunch of anime “memes” and like clips from bnha. i mean, sure you’re into that now but like...hypocritical much?

i don’t want an apology but like...damn you got yourself there bud :/

ok idk if i’m just bored or stupid but almost like every month or so i feel the need to rebrand myself. like,, new hair, new makeup look, new outlook just NEW !

rn i feel like i look so boring, i wanna dye my hair, get new clothes and just feel happy :D

i have a bigger forehead than others so i’m quite conscious of how i look. i have bangs to cover this up of course but it’s hard when i straighten my hair or tie it up for events.

i remember one time i got braids and i only kept them in for a week and a half just bcs i felt so insecure abt them. recently my family pointed this feature of mine out and made of me for it; my sister was like “it’s ok she can get surgery for it” of course i was upset by this and called them out for it. they claimed they didn’t know this insecurity of mine although i’ve projected that for a while now

anyways my family is toxic xoxo