Read some Gengoroh Tagame and cried for 40 minutes

I've always been wary of his works because of how dark and twisted they can be, but I do check in to see what he's up to every now and then. I always feel awful and emotionally broken after reading his stories, which is why I mainly avoid them, but I do think that they're very important ones because of how impactful Gengoroh Tagame has been to gay culture in Japan. But damn. I didn't expect to feel so sad about what I just read. Just... Pure heartbreak. I'm in tears, and my chest physically hurts.