yay sexuality

okk there’s loads of these but i need some clarification. i have had a crush on a girl irl and also a dude but i get really uncomfortable at the thought of seeing a girl’s downstairs parts, even though i’m a girl myself dude i make myself uncomfortable- anyways, now that i think of it dicks are disgusting but bearable¿ or maybe that’s just because im used to the white lightsabers in all of the yaoi on this site IDFK- so it is normal to be uncomfortable?? bc i’ve had a genuine crush on a male and female so IDKKK- any clarification is much appreciated- tyvm for your time