Hardcore to fluffy? I think I experience it backwards?

So lately I found myself caught up with some fluffy, cute, wholesome stories and somehow I could barely know myself anymore lol.

You see, my first yaoi is Viewfinder and it's easily going down deeper and deeper to the rabbit hole since then. I love kinky stuff and hardcore stuff, the type you often read on myr*ad*ingm*ng* ( If you know what I mean lol) and I used to think that if it's not hardcore, it's not worth the read(?)

I did though, from time to time, reading some "normal" yaoi but it never like...touched my soul? Something like that lol.

But lately, man.... I don't know what made something inside me flipped, I started to look into a fluffy, wholesome story to... feed my soul?

Is there anyone experiencing the same thing? I think I'm having this phase in backward, no? Doesn't people usually go from fluffy to hardcore, and not the other way around? I'm so confused right now lol.