Little rant(? Dont know what to call it)
So I had a best friend(I don't have any right now) but I've known them for around 7 years since elementary/ primary school but since she met a transfer student, we started growing apart and now that transfer student and her is now best friends. Since middle school (high school in my country) I've been really self conscious of myself and just being really distant from her and blaming myself for how annoying I was to other people. Now because of that guilt, ive just become a quiet and awkward person. We're still distant friends but I'm just really lonely now. She was my only close friend. Sorry just wanted to tell this to someone ever since but never got the chance to.
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i had a best friend and we were really close. She appears in my dreams although i don't want to (bc sometimes brings back pain). Our relationship started since we were kids (like 6 years old, 1st grade). She was funny and a very charismatic person, so many friends liked her. I felt that between us a distance was growing as time passed. Those friends didn't like me much and they ignored me, and the one I considered best friend, too. I wasn't invited when they went to the cinema or when there was birthday party. I thought it wasn't a problem bc i thought i was fine, but i was not. The friend i knew since we were little, never said anything, she enjoyed her new friends. I couldn't tolerate anymore and decided to end the relationship with them (when i was 11~12 years old)
Then I focused on my studies and got into a famous high school, one of the best ones in my country. There I got to know a lot of people with very good personalities. Firts I was afraid of getting closer to a person but time passed.
Now I have very good friends and I'm more mature now. When there's a matter we talk, and we always find a solution. And I am really happy that I found someone who I can call a real friend. Happy endind! haha
Yo my guy something like this happened to me too but I met this really amazing guy so I’m sure that u will find a new friend soon you gain and lose friends but u can be mad at yourself for it