I did but didn't work TvT

I've been in an LDR but in the end he break up with me saying he can't take it X"D He says I'm a boring person too and then BAM he goes for another girl right after we break up.

I actually like LDR more since I feel like there's a connection and a lot more going on. I can travel too when we decide to meet up and else. I'm not good at expressing myself and I don't like going outside that much, but aaah what happened is happened XD I started to think I can't deserve any love and just spent my life in emptiness, fulfilling everyone's expectation about my study and such ;-;