Horrible Excruciating Pain and PTSD?

I was in a car accident two years ago (literally, it happened 07/02/18)where my femurs shattered upon impact (thigh bones and biggest bones in your body). Both of my knees and right hip were fractured the other hip broken and missing a piece. I am the kind of person who has an incredibly high pain tolerance and therefore not the kind of person to scream or cry out from it. When I woke up after being hit I felt this very intense deep ache in my legs and I remember just moaning and going "mm it hurts" before checking to see if I could still move them. I could move my feet around and my shins and I figured since I could still feel my legs that I was fine and at most would need a cast or something....boy was I wrong.

The dashboard and steering wheel area were pushed down on top of my knees (hence them being fractured) which means that the pickup truck that hit me literally was on top of my car at one point. My door was pushed into me so I was essentially trapped but I figured I could just lower the back of my seat and shimmy myself out ....nah as soon as I did that I felt a shift in my hips and thighs that let me know something was seriously fucked up so I immediately put the seat back up and instead focused on getting my cousin out of the car who had been asleep in the passengers seat before the accident had even happened. Luckily they were ok but their left arm was stiff for a couple weeks after all this.

Anyway...firefighters and the ambulance came and they used the jaws of life to pull everything off of me ..as soon as they took off my door and lifted up the dashboard it was like everything that was holding my shattered and broken bones together just fell apart inside...I still did not scream no...the screaming came when they carried me out of the car ..I don't even have the words to describe the amount of pain I was in it was like nothing I had ever felt in my life. Every time they had to carry me or pick me up for x-rays I was screaming bloody murder. I was very depressed for a very long time (i have bipolar disorder so it essentially catapulted me into a deep depressive episode) and even now I can still cry about it if I think or talk about it for too long. Im also 100% certain I have PTSD because I could literally talk to anyone about this for a super long time all the time if prompted ( but i always stop right when i feel like im going to cry - i dont like crying in front of people its ew ) and I also just truly seriously believe that if I drive again I will become paralyzed from the waist down, become an amputee, or die. I think death would be the best option.

I can still walk (though not as prettily as before.. but I can also still wear heels so I won't complain) I just have rods in my thighs now and bunch of other little things with my hips and knees....╮(￣▽￣)╭

I also found out I have tiny bones which was surprising because I am not a skinny or dainty woman