my first love happened when i was 6 yrs. old

funny how i can literally remember what happened then and what my age is when i first fall in love. It's typical scenario, we've met back in 2006 of summer since that's the summer break in his school. he's 9 years old the time we've met. He's been etched in heart until now. He's sweet and caring. He's my first kiss, hug, kabedon, a person who hold my hands, first dance. So how did that happened you asking me? my first kiss with him back then was when we we're helping our one friend to find his ball in some field near our subdivision. It just happened, he pulled me and kissed me. its that kind of kiss where our lips just damp to each other. now thinking that this dude is smooth af lmao. that literally froze me up and my one friend didn't help cuz he sees that kiss ksksksks so I'm so embarrassed and i actually run away from him. and that's the time i felt its not normal how i feel for him. as a person who get to know those romance shits in early childhood because of my older sister who's always watching anime, i got to know what that feeling is, it sometimes shook me how my heart is literally beating so much whenever we're close to each other. we became more close that time and its like we got to have that 'mutual understanding' as what we've call now. we're literally like a couple then skskkss. This will shook you too or you might not believe it but he literally proposed to me. Saying that we will grow up together and be forever (how sweet) and i'm not making things up, that's what he said. we've been meeting just every summer since his they've been visiting his grandparents who is also in the subdivision where we live. it only lasted for 2 years since ahh this actually kinda hurts when I'm remembering, me and my family moved out in that subdivision and move in more near place where my sister's school is. I didn't got a chance to bid a farewell to him since its still not summer. i also didn't get to talk his grandparents since my family is in hurry to move out since that's still the time where the new term for classes is still starting for me and my sis. i felt so bad until now that I didn't get to say goodbye to him. i remember our moments but not his face anymore, i hardly remember his name too. i actually remembered that we've got a photo together when we first dance and become a pair in some kind of event but that's in my friend's house then.

it's true that some first love doesn't end good. some are bittersweet. i just hope he's doing well. he always have a special place in my heart. forever.

thank you for reading this until the end :>