I hate it soo much

I hate the fact that i have to hide it
Whenever i like to read i go and sit on a chair at the corner of the room... well my brother thought that i was watching porn or smth like every time he asks me what are you doing or just takes my phone from my hand which is very rude btw but luckily i manage to close the app
Plus i had a fuckin hard time in the beginning because i was so naive and innocent i didnt know that i have to hide what i read any cost
When i love or admire smth i cant stay quiet abt it like i need to tell the world my family and my friends I'm very talkative i have never had secrets so the fact that i have a secret i need to hide now makes me very anxious if my family knew abt it they would kill me my life would be destroyed forever....