TW don’t read if you can’t read about sh and sc behavior .
i ehh i just selfhamred myself and im drinking right now cos i
i don’t even know what to say
i wanted to talk to my boyfriend
cos 30 minutes ago i wanted to kill myself
i thought about it
and instead of killing myself i cut into my skin
after 4 years of not doing it
my bf has his own struggles right now i don’t wanna make him worry about me
now after doing that
ims scared he’s gonna leave me
i
i miss my best friend
my online friend
he might killed himself
he’s not answering for over 3 months now
and he was doing really bad
but i wasn’t able to be there for him enough cos i was struggling myself
i was talking about myself instead of listening to him
now he might be not alive anymore
we talked about everything without judgment
we talked so freely and voiced our thought
didn’t matter what it was about and how mean our thoughts were
i don’t wanna live right now
i feel like a burden to everyone
i literally have no one to talk to
i feel like my thoughts don’t matter anyway
i’m shaking
i don’t know if im cold or in shock of what i just did
i mean at least i didn’t kill myself. right? what would my dog do without me
or my boyfriend.
Messages
Dont worry about it, I've had some similar experiences and it sucks to be isolated.
Hey, you're still alive and that means there's always a chance for things to get better. That's strong of you, really. Do you want to talk about anything? I can lend an ear.
If not, my best advice would be to take a breather. Patch yourself up. Then take a good nap or sleep or whatever rest you can. Give yourself a moment.
i feel so stupid.. for yk feeling this way idk why
maybe it’s because i’m drinking again idfk
thank you for responding
i feel so helpless right now
so i really appreciate that at least one person answered