Character development for myself

When i lost my bf too alongside with that whole drama with his FG my ass never felt so alone ever. I made alts to talk to myself and distract myself and also made alts to be petty at people. Now i stopped making alts just to upvote my ass, cause back then i didnt have friends and uhm i was salty and petty at certain people. Though eventually when i got into a server with new people, (i hope they know its bc of them i had this development of not making alts) i felt like i wasnt really alone anymore so kinda i deleted all my alts. My anger soon vanished with those people too. Also to this day, even if im not there anymore i kinda learned to just let things be because there will be ppl who kinda defend me but i dont want to be defended nor anything at all because all i want to do is make up. Fight is useless and i hate it when it keeps being dragged on and on like come on now, we're both better than this than throw shade or wtv. Like everyone i kinda had argued with are good people deep down. They have many other great qualities and are all complex being that went through something that explains their behaviour why.