i should gen stop

i should disappear(from forums) a lot of triggering people interact with me i feel like it's cause they know they trigger me and they want me to kms and they want to see me and the people i like suffer and kill themselves i feel like they interact with me because they know the ppl they don't like will see the horrible shit that they say and they think it's a funny joke to hurt others maybe if i disappear the pain me and my friends go through will disappear too i'm tired of being a tool to hurt others just by existing constantly used by the people who think it's funny to watch us hurt and til we finally end it (they'll probably keep laughing when we do) i hate their fake concern they just shut me up when they don't like what i'm waying then use me as a tool to get information as if i'm a spokes person for the people they're hurting