I hate my mom
I don't even know WHY I answered the phone or why I even opened up to her now my whole family is gonna call me and make fun of me for fucking caring and having fucking emotions I fucking can't do this shit anymore I hate her I hate myself for even trying to let people in
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sorry this is happening to u girlie. Stay strong and I hope your friend is alright now
thank you i was able to get an update and i feel A LOT BETTER
Yeah this is why my siblings and i dont tell our mom anything about our personal lives anymore. Sometimes she'd bait us into thinking she's on a kind and understanding mood and once we start talking, she's screaming criticism and invalidation. I know how u felt, probably hoping that maybe this time the 2 of u wud connect; that this time for once, your mom won't be as harsh as she usually is, and well u tried. We all yearn for support especially from parents and there's no shame in that. But since u know how ur mom is, u gotta stop setting urself up for disappointment and learn from this one and never do it again. Survive through it until the day u can leave her. U can do it
my mom has some of the most wild takes like how is your abusive relationship in any way similar to me and his and me being said my friend is hurting himself?? then she had started talking about my safety one time when i was talking about my cookies being stolen and brought up a women being raped even though she was a cop and could've shot the guy as if insinuating it was her fault for not staying away and keeping the gun by her side at all times?? and I'M A VICTIM so i've already went through the experience like you didn't need to tell me that shit as if making it seem like i don't know what ppl are capable of... i just ugh.... i hate her sm idk WHY I BOTHER
i try to tell myself: well she's schizo it's not her fault she's like this but god damn
what happened??
My mom invalidated my feelings because my friend hurt himself and idk if he's alive and she said "you're not even dating, you don't know him, you can't kiss or have sex and he's a man, you're crying over a man" then she compared him to her abusive ex and said i was hurting myself by crying over him and being too depressed to go to work because I "need this to live" they don't even pay me well what is a miseazly $50 gonna do to help pay my fucking rent?
wtf is she on. Comparing your friend w her abusive ex? and the no crying for a man? fucking crazy man, THATS YOUR FRIEND.
yea i was trying so hard not to break down but that genuinely broke me