Is this still okay or is it SA at this point?

I had a bf. He was hypersexual so it means he went through r*pe. Our relationship was well and i didn't mind doing it with him at first even when it was for his comfort but eventually. I hated it but I agreed and told him "I dont mind" but each and every second of it. I felt disgusted. I felt like i was forcing him and it made me very uncomfortable. I couldnt afford to tell him about this, he would feel disgusted or even worse try to off himself over it cause i mean, he was a victim. I couldn't deny everytime he asked for it because i felt like i had to accept to "comfort" him.