Delayed crashout

Wtf do I do with this negative energy? It's like my hatred for the ppl on this site who made me feel small, who made me wanna kms, it's here later than it should be like where was this when I was getting insulted? Now when I see this people the urge to be mean just wants to come out and they're just living their life doing nothing wrong like they'll post something chill and I'm like "I wish you were fucking dead you stupid piece of shit" how TF do I calm down?