This is just sad. Why do you care so much?

I asked someone why did they attempt over an online drama and i cried cause boy are you kidding me? Nigga was so stressed out and worried that he would break their friendship bc of what happened with his bf and their friends. He feared things would repeat. Their friendships within another mattered more than his with theirs. Making individual notes cus he didnt want his death to break them like his bf's did. Giving closure and when bruv woke up his first thought was other people. To tell them he was okay and to not worry and everything. Then due to goddang so much stress, he was forcing his body to just do things right, to explain and apologise when he should've rested.

im not saying they shouldve whatever forgave dude like its still their choice, but the efforts and the care is on some next deep level of sincerity. The pain i felt in the voice. "I didnt want to be the reason again." im sorry if ur seeing this i cant help but cry this here thats just like so sad :((

like how does one care so much?? grieve so much??