It feels great to be loved.

I realised, i always held onto negative thoughts which affect my relationships in a way. I was suicidal and self harm but now im 22 days clean. I was so afraid of making things wrong that i left and it of course got eventually tired with me coming back and forth cus i was uhm slightly overdramatic. Ig unconcioisly i looked for attention and honestly i needed constant reassurance that i wasn't some kind of bad person. Realising all of this because of my grief. So now that i've come into terms with it and accepted it. I see things clearer.

Now im loved by people, new friends and stuff and i can't help but honestly shed abit of tear from this. Love yourself first before loving others.