feeling lost at 19-20

I’m unsure of what to do, where to go, or what field to go into. I don’t know how I’m actually supposed to get a job.

I did a year of General Arts at a community college, where you take a bit of everything to see what works for you, but nothing felt right. I didn’t feel particularly inspired or drawn to anything. Then I went abroad for four months and did an internship at a bakery because I like hands-on work that’s flexible. Even though it can feel like a chore sometimes, I still find it fun.

I feel like I can picture myself doing some jobs in the future, but right now, I still feel lost and unsure of what my next steps should be. University feels like a waste of time to me because, as someone who doesn’t want to go into teaching, medicine, or anything that requires six years of school, I don’t really see the point. Especially since I’m so unsure, picking something just to do it feels like a waste.

My mindset has always been to just go with the flow—things will come to me when they’re meant to. But sometimes, having no structure is tough, and I can’t help but compare my life to others, even though I know comparison is the thief of joy.

Right now, I’m just trying to land a part-time or full-time job, spend as much time as I can with my family, and appreciate life as it is in this moment. But the future does scare me a little—it makes me anxious.

Sometimes, people comment under my posts saying I shouldn’t ask this kind of question here, but I’m not really expecting answers or anything. It just feels kinda funny to put my feelings out here, especially since I know why most people use this website. It makes me giggle a little.

Hopefully anyone who's going through this too can find some comfort in knowing their not alone.