I don't get it

I'm an aromantic person, Like I hate dating so much it disgusts me, but for some reason I always think about dating/ doing it with a man or a woman, like I wanna bang both but I'd be scared shitless and probably be turned off if that ever happens in real life, Is this normal? I hate dating but I'd romanticize or dream about dating

+I never had a crush on anyone but I am kinda attracted to those who are my type, a few minutes go by and I'd forget about it like that feeling didn't exist