i started having feeling for a minor

this shit Started when I met tham two years ago on discord On a random server My friends invited me to They were already on there before me and we quickly started to become Friends Honestly I wasn't really worried about the age gap to Much but god I wished I was Because I was going through a really hard time in my life With family issues and recently just getting broken up with I was sad and lonely And I felt like my other friends were starting to distance themselves from me So I turned to the only person I thought i had left We started talking and becoming closer thay would comfort me And tell me how much they cared and loved me And that I shouldn't give up on life And with their help I actually started to get better And feel happier and a few months ago we decided to meet up And everything went perfectly fine we had fun joked laughed And after that we started to meet up more But after a while I realized that my feelings started to change about tham It was starting to become Romantic And if I'm being honest I think it started along time before that but after meeting them in person I just couldn't deny it anymore god I just don't know what to do And no this isn't a joke or troll post I feel so disgusted at Myself I always hated pedophiles And thought they're all weirdos who should die yet here I am being one god I'm going to be turning 20 next month and they're only 17 What should I do