Are they even my friends?

I know im chronically online asf and i share every thought and my life in this site making it seem like im an whore begging for the attention of the mangago users but im kinda tired cus i have tons of irl friends, i message them and try to have convo with them and they leave my ass on read for few hours... are these people even my friends atp cus tbh i just feel like im the only one trying to be friends. I want to tell my problems to them and it's so hard to do things alone but i can't even depend on them and it's so silly of me having to vent abt things to my online friends. I don't want them to be tired of dealing with my ass. I feel like none of my irl friends care to talk to me atleast once for a few hours or listen to me rant.

i know they're not therapist or wtv and im not saying they should be but ya know? i want irl friends i could talk abt my problems to. I want to feel abit atleast cared for and loved by someone like how i do for them.