I feel so empty

I'm just 19 but I feel like I'm missing out on sooooo much things there's a lot going on in my life rn and it's too exhausting so I just distract myself by reading some random shit but the more I read the more empty I felt

I felt a bit envious to the mcs in the stories I read where they achieve much in life where they felt heartbreak where they felt sadness where they felt loved I also want to experience those kind of things but what am I supposed to do I don't feel any fulfillment on interacting with people lolol this should be written on a journal not on this but anyways