First sexual experience

Well I saw a lot of people sharing their first time so I will share mine ..
Tw:rape
So i had this friend group and they left me out a lot bc i was in the hospital.
There was this party and i just got released so i still had some numbing stuff in my system.
I drank and i got really drunk that i was barely conscious.
My ex bestfriend had a brother , his friends told him that if he fucks anyone he will get beer from his friends .
Well that someone was me .
I don’t remember much but i
remember suddenly being in this room and him on top of me .
My clothes were gone I didn’t know what was going on.
It was painful ,that made me conscious for a while.
When it was over he was gone , I just laid there.