im sorry for this incoherent rant

i hate seeing any sort of kpop discourse literally anywhere like- im so sorry, is the music really THAT good for you to be fighting like that????

i was in kpop fandoms, mostly bts, newjeans and some other groups. for like 2 years my spotify was almost all kpop, and i only ever talked about kpop.

thing is, this year i realised what i was wasting my time and energy on. getting into fandom fights to "defend my fandom" (essentially dunking on any group whose music i didn't listen to a lot), sleep streaming (yes, i did that. it's embarrassing, ik), saying that I'll be in this fandom forever and being completely parasocial, reading rpf fanfiction (which i'm literally morally against now), and i was even a shipper for a while, to the point that i was actually upset when those photos of v and jennie were leaked.(i actually went on a full online meltdown that day, it was embarrassing)

so it's like, I've left all that behind me but the ghost of it follows me everywhere. here, on twitter (where my perfectly curated feed should normally only be about lesbians and politics), even tumblr sometimes.

honestly i just wish literally every social media had some function to block a certain word and words related to it so that i never got to see anything related to kpop online ever again