parents don't support me doing stuff other than studies and i wish they did
[Rant ahead] recently i did the arcane makeup look and added it to my ig highlights they told me that i was being childish and i should try growing up and not put stuff up that would tarnish their reputation. I've noticed that it is not just this in particular but stuff i do in general. When i draw something for once in a blue moon they would immediately interject saying that i should focus on matters that won't make me unemployed in the future(telling me to focus on studying). No tips, compliments, nothing just a stubborn reminder from them that i am wasting their and my time. A few months ago i qualified to attend the national chess championship and since i got the fifth place in the state championship they told me i don't have enough talent to secure a position in my nationals and therefore i should not go. I started making a scene and they said my tantrums are too dense for someone who got 5th place (mind you that i didn't receive any coaching whatsoever and this was solely the result of my sleepless nights on chess.com&lichess). i am not angry, i am just tired and i wish my parents were understanding enough so that i wouldn't need to type a long essay here to validate my feelings.