Have you grieving on someone still alive

Yes..... I've had massive friendship ending fights with two best friends who I thought would have been with me till we died... they both changed to the point of being unrecognizable in a BAD way and it sucks cuz I miss them so much but the version of them that I miss are long gone and will never come back and I'm still trying to accept it which is ......   reply

Its bad he's so alive but im grieving on him   reply

when i cant sleep, i imagine my dog or someone ik dies amd cry and then i fall asleep   reply