I've been rlly stressed out and busy these past few weeks, I've stopped doing literally everything I liked doing (cosplay, art, etc.) because I felt so tired and stuck, I was forced to make 5 costumes for a event pagent thing I couldn't care less for for our class' representatives, they literally didn't even ask for my opinion the one handling our class just pulled me aside one day and told me to do it a week before the deadline. Now that I think about it they were probably taking advantage of me because they heard that I was a cosplayer, but the thing is I'm not a fucking designer, I don't make ALL my cosplays from scratch aside maybe just a few projects here and there I know almost NOTHING. So I literally had to learn how to work with foam, adhesives, wires, and how to sew in a span of a week. Needless to say it was torture and I wasn't able to pass a few stuff (I still haven't passed them yet to this day) because of it.
Then directly right after that our department had another event and they had me make the costumes for it. For both the dude and the girl. I also only had 1 week to finish it, scratch that not even one week it was only 5 days. And they even made me make an articulated dragon wing which the girl refused to carry on the do date because it felt a just a tiny bit heavy for her (SHE LITERALLY WALKED AROUND WITH IT BEFORE AND SHE ONLY HAD TO WALK WITH IT FOR 2 MINUTES.) Like no fucking shit it's heavy you fucks told me to make it big even though I warned you against it because of the weight. I couldn't even care less while the pageant was happening, even though I was a part of it I was just so exhausted I went to the cafeteria and just sat there eating overpriced ensaymada until it was over.
So yeah, I was exhausted and have been inactive for over half a month and now idk how to reconnect with everyone because I've practically ghosted my GCs and cosplay acc as well as my art acc because I was tired asf. I think I've been gradually doing so even before it actually, but yk. I'm still tired now, I know I should rest but I have major fear of being forgotten and I hate being like this because I genuinely love cosplaying and art, I'm thinking of making new accs, selling my current cosplays so I can do ones I actually like, and maybe do some personal art studies for now so I can have a brand new start.
Sorry for the yap I'm under medication rn because I'm sick af and it hurts everywhere
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Hey say No, this thing could happen if ur not saying no to addition of that did u even got a money from the event or costume u got?
Zero, I even lost money bc I used my own EVA foam stock lol
Nah that suck u waste ur time and money to something u dont like
I have ADHD. Whatever, SPEAK YOUR TRUTH
Listen idk the situation you were going through aka idk if you are/were able to say no but if you are able to say no then if they ask you to do this again then please say no even if you feel like you can't say no too people or feel bad doing it or even if you're afraid of looking like the bad guy or people starting to dislike you bc it's better to be known as a bitch and take care of yourself and your mental health then to be known as the push over who never says no like you were literally under so much stress you got SICK that's not good at ALL and don't worry nobody's going to forget you and even if they do once again it's not worth losing yourself for
It was really unfair that they pressured you to do all that work. I sew as a side hobby and just planning and designing one outfit takes so much time and effort. The fact that you had to learn to sew and make FIVE costumes in a month is insane. Pls rest up and focus on getting better. Everything else can wait. If you really feel the need to, just drop a short message in your group chats and socials saying that you've alive but have been busy and sick. People will understand.
TLDR: I'm dying socially send help