I really wish they were still here...

Maybe this isn’t the right place to open up about the whole 'telling my friend to kts' thing, but I wanted to be criticized for my horrible actions. My friends, on the other hand, are supporting me and joking about it because they still think the person is alive. But their boyfriend showed me a picture of their funeral, so I know they’re gone. I think everyone in my friend group is trying so hard to deny what happened, and I feel bad because instead of saying their condolences, they’re making shitty comments. Even though I know deep down they feel bad, it’s just wrong.

I can’t be around them right now—people who laugh at something like this and still hold grudges against someone. That person was stubborn, but all they wanted was for us to understand their situation. Instead, we ignored them and only found out later they were being SA’ed. We criticized them for venting, made fun of them for always ‘being the victim,’ and told their friends not to talk to them anymore. Some even DMed them, calling them attention-seeking, and that’s when I stupidly made the joke and said those three words.

To those who DMed me privately, I’ll reply soon, but Mangago isn’t letting me send messages yet because my account is new. I’ll need to wait a few more days.