I'm feeling shit right now

So it was probs like days ago but oh gosh it won't get out of my head and I'm so fuking traumatized even tho its just a dream so here's the story I dreamed of someone r wording me and then that someone told me that I'm pregnant and shit ohh gosh after l woke up from that dream it literally feel like I just lost hope of myself and you know the feeling of wanting to kill yourself that's what im feeling and everytime that shit pop into my head i feel sick just thinking about it I really wanna talk to someone about this but i know that all my friends would react like shit and then they would probably spread rumors about this:( if I ever told them