AM I THE BITCH? OR STUPID?
You know...I found a friend in my college(well the one I stick to most of the time, I spoke with everyone), all the students in my class have already friends because they either attended same school or hostel friends. I was trying to have a happy time in college, but it was the opposite. I am very overthinking whether my friend is dissing me on purpose or just joking. Well its my fault for not openly saying it wrong but what if they think I am just begin sensitive???. Like whenever she talks to someone and have nothing to say, she would make fun of how I speak, when I mispronounce something wrong or when someone call my name wrong she would hold it and keep poking the fun at me, and everyone would laugh just to get the conversation going for her??. But then today I pronounce a word right (Menu) but she thought I said that wrong... So she again with another who would also poke fun at me said I pronounced wrong, but the friend said I was right in very very low voice. Then it became silent. Like why not laugh now? Why not laught at her. It's okay when it's me?? But not you people? Like ok fine. I am fine with girls making fun of me since it always happens in my life. But then she makes fun of me to boys ? She laughs so loud I cannot say anything. Guys just so you know. I have bad experience with boys, so I never talked to boys in my age apart from my brother father and relatives. But I get scared when talking a stranger who's same age as me (males). I dont just get it. I want to have fun too but can we just not hurt others to have a moment? Why trying to be kind backfire? Like once they find out you are navie they target you. I am afraid to say anything because I don't wanna lose friends. But I don't want college to end like highschool with no good memories... I am a bitch because I think she being a bullying just because she makes fun of me or I am just stupid to not realise it at first? I dont even talk that much because they very well concentrate and waiting for me to say something wrong.. ruined my college life by myself. Atleast in my work-life I don't have to worry since it's just gonna be shitty right? Can I just accept the fact I cannot make friends no matter I try? I mean trying since middle school is sad. I just wanna have fun at college since home is a reminder of sadness. What would you guys do? Well I am gonna be honest I need advice from my Indian people. Thank for reading this . Have a good life. (Is there anything I need to win in social life apart from hurting others? I dont like it the feeling is bad).
No girl you are not overreacting. In my college most are just negative toxic bishes. Not worth giving attention on so I don't. I have mostly male friends which are close and I feel good spending time with.
Not in a pick me way, I am extrovert and talk nicely to girls but it is just it has been I tried becoming friends with girls but those around a......
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