Journal #15 (just sharing)
August 29, 2023
"I think I'm changing, I think my anger issues and stress levels are so high and ever since moving to this country. I met him again. He's still obsessed over me. Today he followed me into the bathroom. I talked to my friends about it in hope for some comfort but no one responded I think they're tired of me. I should probably ghost them some day. My bf has been worried of me because of these recent incidents but I told him I'll be okay. I don't know how to constantly deal with him following me around. It's been a year already since I broke up with him, when will he ever move on? Does he still resent me for choosing my friends over him? I kind of feel bad... But at the same time he was a cheater! He's just trying to make me feel bad."
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SA is a nightmare, especially when it was someone you have history with and/or feel you can't escape from. Two months isn't long enough to heal from something like that, especially when you were failed by your support system. A lot of trauma from SA actually stems from the aftermath and feeling abandoned or worthless, feeling forced to carry it alone, and feeling like you'll never get any kind of justice or validation. I hope you're getting the help you need to work through what happened.
If you've never considered it, please know there are many resources available to help a victim of SA, such as hotlines and support groups. These things don't exist only for events that just happened- they are available to anyone that needs it. It's a safe way to be understood and get help if you choose. You're valid in every way and are entitled to support as much as any other victim. You are worthy of appreciation and respect. You will always matter. Hang in there.
You're so brave to open up about what happened to you
I hope it makes you feel a bit better to talk
Fighting!
I wish you all the best
get out
Why? It's just me slightly venting about stuff (￣∇￣")
ho js read ur porn and get on with it! if this is a vent from early last year then I gotta tell u to move awnnnn ♂♀
I don't like porn and I'm trying to recount stop to see when it all fell down in my life haha I can't move on its.. Traumatic. I wish i can tho, but it forever haunts me
If u haven't noticed its me opening up about my sa trauma
lmao ok cornball
actually ykw that was highkey rude of me keep venting king
That's really cool of you to reflect and admit fault. You're a seriously respectable person. Sorry, just nice to see that 'in the wild'