I’m 28 and going through another deep depression. I pushed away all my IRL friends and family. I feel like all the people around me and in my life don’t quite get me or our personalities don’t quite mix well. I feel like I can’t be myself around these people and now I'm extremely lonely because of this.
I’m an assistant manager at my job, so I talk a lot to my peers and subordinates every day I work. However, it’s been months since I’ve actually socialized and chatted with anyone outside of work. All I do every day is go to work, come home, lay in bed and read manga.
Honestly, idk why I’m posting this here but I have no one to vent to or get this off my chest to.
If anyone is lonely and friendless like me and wants to chat, I’m here!
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Hi there,
I’m 27 and I pushed everyone away too.
My old friends are not aligning with my ideas or lifestyle right now, and I can’t relate to their experiences, so I pushed them away and I am growing on my own.
My family relations are not working as I want them to work, so I pushed them away too and we speak less.
I have two jobs one in marketing, second in retail and I’m so tired that I don’t really have time for anything else.
I wonder if that’s how adult life works, but I don’t have a partner or anything going on with my love life. So of course I am escaping with manga.
To me it’s a part of self development and moving forward in life that I want to build. I am going to develop the energies that I want in my life and then I will attract the right people. But for now it’s all unsteady and shaky while I’m analysing my opportunities for growth and figuring out what I need from life really. So I decided to chill and accept the current picture while exploring things that I like really and dedicate myself to them.
Good luck to you with your journey and I think it’s good to review your progress without external influences from others, that’s why people go away at certain point of life.