It's hard
i feel like i'll just let people come and go. Friends, lover or whatever other has no more meaning to me as I feel like everyone has their own people already. I am extremely late to making friends (16 but is graduating soon) and along with incapable of keep people around me. I don't have anybody else who is willing to communicate with me nonstop and I am not used to communicating with anybody nonstop unless I hold their presence close to my heart dearly. i'm scared, i'm scared to be friends or close friend with anybody because I know I will go through a time where one of us means nothing to one another but I really want somebody to be close with especially irl. I'm fucking terrified is all I have to say, I'm fucking terrified of myself and other people.
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bro i get u so much, i know theres a lot of people in the world but i feel like everyone i meet already has someone so close to them and my efforts to be close with people are so futile
You're 16, life is not that short, I think you're at the age where one feels uncertainty very often. You didn't make meaningful friendships in school and that is ok, school friends aren't that important because they never stay in touch after school is over (in most cases). The world is so vast, dont feel left out because you will meet better people after school, when you enter college or get a job, live is not over when you finish school lol. I lost contact with all my friends whenever I changed schools, even though most of them lived in the same area as me, the reality is that once you stop seeing a person daily, then relationship is hard to maintain especially between friends. I honestly advice that don't let someone's presence affect you so much that their absence will leave you broken, or else you will live a painful life
thanks a lot!! i often forget how young i really am...and i wished to cherish my present time more...
All your high school friends will disappear from your life.
This is a fact of life.
Don't stress over it.
There is like a 10% chance you will keep your high school friends with you.
If you want long term friends, make them in university.
Meeting someone who is with you forever, is like asking to win the lottery. Everyone lives on shallow relationships, no one is special in that aspect. Eventually you will too become used to it. If you are scared to form relationships, then that just means you treat every relationship too seriously when there are very few people in the world worth being treated as such.
man ur real cool i tell ya. I do feel more content reading that.My mom has a super close friend she's known since she was a child and she's made it obvious that only I can ever keep people around if I have known them long like since u guys were a kid but yes unfortunately I do treat relationships waaay too srsly. I hate it and I am working on it because I have abandonment issues but i am working really hard on my mindset ヾ(☆▽☆)
The title is kinda sus
I have no pp but im always hard
I can sense ur alpha energy through those words
thank you, i've always known i was an alpha rizzler
I thought it was you from the title lmao