Why does she act like this?
A little rant on here and maybe in need of advice
So how long have I known my mom for? Since I was born prob and one thing that has never changed between me nd her are the constant arguings, one minute she would shower me with love and suddenly not even a day later like 4 minutes she would be detailing on how much she wished I wasn't born.
I won't lie and say that I love her cause I have huge mixed feelings and nobody wants to help me with this issue cause I feel like all their advices resumes to "she's just your mother, she birthed you suck it up" like that's what it sounds to me.
It's like she's just bipolar (and fucking crazy too) she abuses me mentally ong and for once in my life I don't wanna keep acting all innocent and swear she will pay for the shit she's made me experience.
She's always in a competition with me and acts like i'm the one initiating it everytime (once accused me of sleeping with MY BIOLOGICAL DAD!?!??) She curses me everyday, rambling about how I ruined her life and all, she then kicked out my dad of the house after HE found out that SHE cheated on him and left me (abandoned me for 4 yrs) my dad did all he could to help me/us to finally live on comfortably but she returned again after she lost it all ( her house, money and all other shit she gives more importance than us)
My dad the sweetheart that he is ( a pushover) accepts this mistreatment everytime and lets her crash at our place ( she said she would only live there for few weeks but after 2 yrs she's still in the motherfucking house!?) And tell me after all those things we do for you/let you do, crash out free, u don't have no job, you don't pay for nun, your only use is being on your phone dirty texting all day, then she would turn around and call us ungrateful, that we don't respect her, that we hate her ( I do!!!) She keeps trying to ruin the peace in the family ( calls us fakes ).
She keeps on rambling and rambling about how we ruined her life and most of the time i'm like what's stopping you from leaving us like you did before?( because she's just a piece of shit that likes to take advantage of the people willing to help her and when they have nothing left for her to suck the soul outta them she leaves) I hate her, I hate her, I hate her, I wish she wasn't my mother and I hope to never ever have kids either cause what if I end up like her? She's my mother nonetheless.
P.s sorry for bad English :(