Just I want to move on from them. A vent.
This is a vent so it'll be long.
I don't understand I've handled friendship lost before it's NOT new to me but I don't know why I still cry over this one sometimes, stalking their profile sometimes and all I see is them denying of me ever existing which hurt alot. Cause your existence made life worth living for me and I still feel like I have to give back the stuff they gave me back then.
It's almost a year ago now. I still remember the exact day they all left and it's just online but it seems to matter so much. Idk why it's still hurting. Everytime I see them, I'm just hurt. I tried myself hating them like "oh they're bad ppl too" but THEY AREN'T maybe they've hurt my feelings sometimes but I understand where they're coming from. I don't feel hate towards them but they feel so much towards me.
Just all because I've let someone manipulate me like why did I believed him? Cus what? I felt sorry that I chose friends before him? Idk why i even said those things or ended up doing the things I did. Why was I even so angry at them that I wished they'd all leave. Heck I hated the fights so so much back then like I just didn't rlly wanna argue with them but idk what was up with me.
I've tried so hard to move on and to let go but it's been a year now and I just keep going back to the start cus I simply see or remember them.
Buddy let me be fr with you and I mean this in the most respectful way possible.... GET UP ON YOUR ASS. Come on now, yes it's obviously hard as fuck to move on but that's obviously cus you loved these people sincerely. Dude you have so many other problems... I know you're pregnant and it wasn't even consensual and that's like goddamn shitty as hell......
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Shakespeare did indeed die for this, thank Beyonce and they'll come back.
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Ugh idk how really goddamn move on as fast as they did not let everything matter like they did. I don't know what to do. Idk if i cant move on bec the lost of this friendship is connected to my trauma or what else I need to do cus not just thinking about them don't work.
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