I hate depression
I hate this stupid mental illness i dont want to be sad but im sad all the time because my brain is stupid. Why am I anxious over letters on my report card?? And i can't open my homework without my heart rate being over 120? Why am I crying after checking my grades? this shit is stupid and i want a refund on my brain. I wish being self aware about this shit can magically cure it but nooooooo my brain decided the best plan of action is wanting to kms like ok diva
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As someone suffering with depression: get professional help. Multiple reasons for this:
1) to understand the underlying issues behind what you experience: understanding the real reason will help you dealing with it, mitigate or even resolve it.
2) have someone to talk to, that doesn't know you and will not judge you, only help you getting better.
3) additionally, you might need medication to overcome a rough patch. There are a lot of different drugs acting differently, and only a professional will be able to presribe what would be best for you, and follow up with you during (the long) treatment. By the way, it's not a solution, only a pair of crutches for your brain, while you do the work to heal.
It takes time. At first, it's even more painful than not. You also might need to see different doctors before finding the one you click with. But it will improve slowly and the fog will clear!
Other than that, as a random on the internet, I can only wish you good luck and wish you to get better (=・ω・=)
omg i just saw this but thank you for the advice! I'm getting therapy but it's been a really slow process unfortunately, but it's getting better :) Depression really is a bitch, thanks for the advice kind stranger :DD
Relatable