Why are some people way too goddamn selfless it's just... Sad.
I've been reading my friends journal for days now and I'm just sobbing each pages because wdym you loved us like your family and wanted to give each of us special gifts that matched our kindness to you :(
I can't even handle the amount of self-loathing bec dear god love yourself, you're not that horrible you think you are for a bunch of mistakes. You were imperfect and flawed and that's okay. People make dumb decisions all the times and sometimes those decisions ends up hurting other people even if your intentions wasn't to hurt anyone or be bad. Like wdym you had essays/songs prepared incase one of us were sad? That you'd try to understand people and always forgive them bec u were all about 2nd chances or wtv bec u believed that despite my mean words to you sometimes you saw that I'm a good person and whatnot ╥﹏╥
Like GOD I asked this person what if they put themselves in others people shoes, they wouldn't treat someone like this and u know what he said? "yeah i wouldn't treat someone this coldly because I'd try to hear them out and forgive them if they said sorry. I would like to see if they can do better. People change." WHY ARE YOU SO UNDERSTANDING AND FORGIVING?? sometimes it even hurts you but it never stopped you from treating people with kindness?? Accepting them? You think you're a bad person when you'd treat someone who even WRONGED you like that??
The patience and empathy is just wow that it also had an effect on me that I'd try to forgive people and maybe accept them in my life too again. I did exactly that and I now currently have friends that treats me good bec they actually were true with their words.